'I'm sorry this time
but I've been holding so much since so long for you'

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His girlfriend

Sadhvi’s POV

I cringed the moment I finally decided to wake up, my throat was dry and my eyes still felt heavy, I was having a headache but I was sure suffering a sour mood immensely.

I slept almost twenty four hours, it wasn’t a peaceful sleep after yesterday night. Few flashes and weird dreams came flooding in. I held my head in a way which screams nothing but ugly cries.

My eyes opened on their own around 3 a.m. at midnight when I found myself snuggled in Avrudh’s embrace.

What all I’ve said came back into my mind, I lost control of my mouth that time uttering pure nonsense I felt. Few things aren’t needed to come out but I spoke them nevertheless.

I was aware of every word coming out of my mouth, emotions I was speaking, emotions that remain bottled deep within my heart, I wasn’t planning to spill them ever because I believed in showing them not words delivery, here I said what was never planned.

And I was hyperaware of the things I made him do; now conscious I was super embarrassed. From asking him to take my clothes off to practically dry humping him, I was guilty drunk I knew but horny was a new discovery.

I still remember him growing hard under me and me enjoying it, he was reluctant to make me any uncomfortable which clearly was the other way around.
His reaction was something I still quite not able to pleasantly place my finger on because of me having a hard time paying focus to so many things at the same time last day. So, me going to face him now will tell how he felt about what deed I did.

The man destined to me was so composed yesterday that he didn’t even touched me in any wrong way. I was too lost but I wasn’t absent in my head, I was keeping the count of everything. I was falling in love with the respect he showed for me.

The man loved and respected me clearly. He was aware of the boundaries we haven’t crossed yet even after two months of us being wed and even though the fact I was throwing myself at him.

I was cold and he was there, he wrapped me up and kept me warm. But not a unfair touch I felt.

I looked down at Avrudh’s clothes I was wearing they almost engulfed me whole, the size of a giant he was.

Or was I too tiny?

I wouldn’t know.

Running  a hand through my hair I climbed out of my safe house, the bed, and walked inside the bathroom to brush my teeth. I had this weird bitter plus vomit taste in my mouth.

I was on my feet when the world around me spun slowly. I stood there holding my head for a while.

I saw my reflection in the mirror, I almost cried, I looked like crap, my eyes swollen and cheeks sunken I was a walking zombie.

I had to tackle my demons too because I looked as if just now a truck ran over me.

That beaten and colourful.

Faint colours were still there on my face, and don’t get me started with the fragrances of those colours.

Was Avrudh still in love with me after seeing me like this—that was a major question.

Holding the railings of the stairs I met him in the kitchen and the moment our eyes met I was suddenly aware of them looking puffy. I washed them again.

And again.

Copper climbed upto my thighs asking for a hug but I wasn’t sure of holding both of our weights together, so I only crouched down to pet him.

The baby of me purred at me with so much love that I almost sighed again.

Embarrassed earlier but I was guilty this time when my husband had done all the work by himself, our house help were on leave for a week. He wasn't supposed to do everything alone.

In order to help him a little I opened the fridge to take out juice pack and without realizing the need for glasses I kept them on the table.

I slapped my head when the realization dawned but Avrudh beat me to it. There was this annoying smile on his face which said he was clearly enjoying my misery, I couldn’t bring myself to say anything.

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I was walking to the living area when he called for me from inside the kitchen,
“It’s 11 a.m, what is your plan for today?”

A cleaning the kitchen husband of mine asked—he offered—wiping the counters clean.

With a raspy breath I looked down at Copper who was following me everywhere and replied,
“I was”  I cleared my throat which felt itchy,
“I was planning on watching t.v. for a while” I was scratching my neck too.

Avrudh only responded with a nod of his head and I took that as a sign to sit on the plush living room sofa and search through some channels to look for a good movie.

Copper sat on my sideways sprawled legs and rested his head on my knees.

I settled on watching Akshay Kumar’s ‘Namaste London’

When I said I was planning to watch t.v. I clearly meant to watch alone not in company but something in Avrudh’s way said he had every plan to join me.

Avrudh sat across the corner of the sofa with a bottle of water kept at center of the table and a mug of lemonade in front of me.

My heart fluttered once again. Here he goes being all considerate once again.

I closed my eyes and pushed my head back against the head rest silently cursing my behavior. I needed some strict teaching.

I've been forgetting all of my good habits lately.

Avrudh saw me struggling with myself and scooted closer to us on the sofa, with Copper in between Avrudh said,
“Chin up princess, you did nothing that was out of line yesterday”

He patted Copper’s fur and looked at him only. I was left staring at my man.

“If anything Sadhvi after last night my love for you only intensified. You were strangely calm knowing you are hammered but most importantly you showed me the kind of trust I never knew you had in me.”

I gulped looking at the man who was clearly speaking his heart out but wasn’t meeting my gaze.

“I am honored that you feel this way about me. lucky I am.” He said now with a tilt of his head looking at me for microseconds.

With a small smile now forming my lips I looked back at the movie, Akshay Kumar imaging a happy life with a totally spoiled Katrina Kaif, before she could even fall in love with him explained it to me, how insanely I was in love with this man.

If it wasn’t for Copper for sitting in between us I would be jumping his bones right now.

I picked up the mug of lemonade accepting the peace offering and sipped, the lemony taste refreshing my tongue, washed its way down my worries.

I kept the mug at the tip of my fingers and turned to look at Avrudh who was now watching the movie silently.

Soft music of ‘Rafta Rafta’ song from the movie started playing in the background

“I was wondering” I looked at him to gain his attention and he blessed me with it almost instantly

Our gaze met for the first time since yesterday and it felt like forever.

“I was wondering—that have you… have you broken up with your girlfriend now that we are married?”

Avrudh looked at me with confusion written all over his handsome face when I pointed at his hands.

Almost as if with the speed of flash his memory came back. I saw it happening with my own eyes.

He realized what I was talking about, his hand playing the role of his girlfriend to give him peaceful nights.

Avrudh opened his mouth to say something when I burst off laughing. Copper between us looked confused but soon joined understanding the now happy mood, he barked in happiness out loud.

Avrudh kept the cushion off his lap almost angrily before lunging for my neck.

I hurriedly kept the lemonade mug on the table and ran for my life. Copper followed and so did a very angry Avrudh.

“You are so dead, you don’t leave a chance to tease me” He chased me shouting the sentence

I tried escaping towards the staircase, “I was just asking, we should be clear about your ex bombarding into our lives before we start something of our own, you know?” I managed out laughing when because of my happiness my speed faltered and he caught me

He pulled me down and we sat on the floor face to face with Copper barking to our side happily.

Both Copper and I were in love with this man together. My laughter replied for me and Copper’s happy bark spoke loads. We sat and fell for him everyday together with a speed so unimaginable.

Avrudh was that lovable.

I laughing, clutching onto my stomach which started to hurt and Avrudh laughed on his own but he was nothing like me.

“I was just concerned about the ex” I said pointing at his hand with a cheerful face when he using both of my knees slide me closer to him. My breath suddenly knocked me out.

I gasped the grin leaving my face to match a lusty look of my husband’s face.

“We need to remind that Ex that I have you now, I guess” he said cupping the side of my jaw with his hand, his calloused thumb rubbing my bottom lip.

I gulped when he was nose to nose with me. I was always right his nose is big.

Avrudh’s lips met mine and all the futile thoughts went out of the window.

The bird even left its home from my stomach and my heart forgot to rest in a calm pace.

His lips sandwiched my upper lip in a strong erotic hold and moved in a delicious speed. He repeated the same sweet torture for the lower lip of mine before tugging on it with the force of his lips and looking at me with hooded eyes.

Wet, my lips felt wet.

Even Copper fell silent beside us

I opened eyes realizing somewhere in between I shut them and looked at him; he couldn’t stop staring at my lips still. He wanted more and so was I.

With his hand still cupping my jaw I whispered, “You lost your bet”

His eyes flashed to mine and his husky voice managed saying, “Maybe I wanted to”

And with this Avrudh stood up and entered his study room with a growling Copper trailing him behind.

What copper wanted more?!

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It was half past two in the afternoon when after cooking the lunch I walked inside my bedroom almost giddily.

What we shared at the bottom of stairs messed with my mind because I wanted more and I was ready for more.

I wanted to kiss the sense out of him all at once.

If the kisses I remember from earlier were decent and happened with a smooth move, this clearly wasn’t decent.

This was erotic. Promised to grow more dirty. Dirty. Dirtier.

My lips were still tingly from it.

For someone so new at this, Avrudh sure was a quick learner, where he practiced at I wouldn’t know but I was sure I was in need for some, surely. I have been kissed only twice my life and that too by him only.

I washed my face and took a quick bath, I had few naughty plans in my mind and originally I wanted myself clean, I could practically still smell all floral smell off of me, the Holi colours smell that strong.

I took a refreshing bath and dried my hair with a blow dryer not completely though, I left them a little moist.

Wearing my mid thigh shorts and another one of Avrudh’s t-shirt I made my way to ask him for lunch. Now that he willingly made me wear his tee I was holding onto the thought of wearing them on regular basis.

His t-shirt covering almost all of my shorts just a thin line appearing making people know I had something under the level of my mid-thigh.

I was not ding-dong from under there.

I leaned against the door frame and knocked to gain his attention. Leaving his file his eyes rested on my frame and Avrudh took a double take to confirm I was wearing his t-shirt.

“The shorts are too short” he remarked from there

I huffed, “I don’t find anyone gawking at me” I crossed my arms around my chest

He nodded with his eyes still remaining on my legs, “You want something?”

Maybe want to give you something

“Let’s eat lunch” I said and Avrudh looked at the clock, it showed three in the afternoon.

Shutting his work we made our way towards the lunch table in complete silence.

After eating Avrudh saying he needed to make a call went inside his study and I made my way to the backyard.

I watered the plants until he was done talking and went back to the bedroom.

Silently after a pause of ten minutes I moved too.

I saw him in a long sitting position in his side of the bed searching through something in his phone.

I licked my lips and not thinking twice walked upto him. He looked at me clearly confused when I snatched his phone out of his hold and kept it on the bedside table.

I held onto his shoulder and picked myself up sitting on his straightened legs.

“What are you doing?” he asked in shock

“What does it look like?” I asked and without giving him a chance to respond wrapped my arms around his head and pulled myself closer to him.

With every part of us touching I said,
“I am so in love with you Avrudh that everything in my being is craving for your attention. I am tried that you wait, you wait so much for me to be ready, I know you want this to grow into something so beautiful” I made actions with ny hands and continued,
"but dude this has already grown into something so... So big and utterly beautiful. Soooo... Pretty Avrudh. Don't wait anymore yaar."

I cupped both of his bearded cheeks and pulled his amused and emotional eyes to my head level, “I love you” I pecked him once

“I love you” I pecked him again

“I so …so… so much love you”
I pecked him tight this time.

I felt his hands struggling to decide where to rest, he moved from my upper back to lower, than on my ass but he moved them back up almost instantly when I cradled them and kept them on my hips.

Almost instantly he snaked them inside my top, squeezing the skin of my hip.

I grinned down at his smiling face saying, “Now let me remind this Ex girlfriend of yours who is the real boss here”

And then I smooched his pouty lips.

We tried keep it closed mouthed and slow, but when our lips parted we wouldn’t know what pace we took. It was a strange sensation with sandwiching our lips we started but Avrudh had this habit of opening his mouth big and engulfing me whole, it may sound gross but with the laugh I give him he makes sure to repeat it again.

Feeling breathless I pushed myself out of the lip lock and licking my lips I stared at his.

They were smiling.

Avrudh cupped my face too and running his thumbs around my mouth said, “Your chin, upper lip and these lips are all red, this nose, all of it”

I laughed resting my head with his and ran a single palm through his cheek, scratching his beard, “I don’t mind”

He laughed engulfing the small waist of mine and swayed me backwards a little.

“Thank god Copper is downstairs or I else I can’t imagine his traumatized face”

As if hearing his name Copper whined from the door after two barks, he wanted attention, he was just outside sleeping near the open bedroom door.

“He is going to see more than just that if you ask me” I said with a grin of my own

“Oh yeah, what else do you have in mind Mrs. Dhillon?”

“Maybe you need to run by pharmacy for that” I suggested and Avrudh laughed switching our position

I fell backwards on the bed with a loud giggle and he straddled me diving for another breath stealing kiss.

Avrudh with his mouth so dreamy went down on my neck kissing sucking and licking softly like butterflies, I giggled and scratched his nape with a good smile.

“ I love you” I said which made him look at me with a heart melting smile and with a good peck he replied, “I love you”

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'Just don't hold back on me
anymore'
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'Kiss me once, cross my heart
I'll kiss you
twice'