'The moon and the stars
tried there best,
But I couldn't look
away from you'
                - Love and space dust (pinterest)
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Answer to my prayers

Sadhvi’s POV

I sat crossed leg on my bed when Avrudh refused to acknowledge my pleas. I maybe looking like a fish sporting the same pout but he wouldn't even listen.

He sat there on the floor with Copper on his lap petting him, hugging him and talking like talking to a baby.

This was definitely not in my mind when I bought Copper into my life, now the way Avrudh was behaving was making me to separate them and hug Avrudh to myself only. And growl a 'mine' too.
Dear lord.

I was in the need for therapy because I was jealous of my dog.

I pouted bad when I found myself on the verge of crying,
“Avrudh please… Sorry” I blinked hard

“You know who is a good boy…. You are a good boy” Avrudh babied my dog like never before and I felt my tears threatening to fall, he wasn’t even looking at me.

Avrudh was making me pay for getting myself a distraction in the place of talking to him, instead of talking and solving the matter. It wasn’t like he was faking his love for the dog either.

I sighed getting up from the bed.
“Avrudh this will never happen again. I promise.”

Monica knocked on our bedroom door before entering the room,
“Mom is asking when are you going to do the evening aarti Bhabhi?”

I wiped the tear that escaped hiding my face from Monica’s eyes. I pretended to pick on a thread on my kurti saying,
“I will be down in a second” I inhaled the snot silently

“Shall I ask mother to arrange the plates and offerings?”

I inhaled the tears saying, “Yes, do that” nodding to myself

“Okay Bhabhi” she said and left the room.

Avrudh sighed getting from the floor and started moving out of the room when I held onto the hem of his t-shirt.
As if dear life, which was practically true.

He stopped slightly turning his head, there Copper remained nuzzling my leg I sobbed a little saying,
“I am sorry. Please. Please. Please.”

Avrudh said nothing just stood there listening to me.
When I hugged his back closer to my chest, “I wanted to do all this by myself because this is how I’ve always been. I am used to being the rock, a support for my sister, my brother, sometimes my mother and a right hand for my father. Avrudh, I am not the one who asks for help, I never did. I learn from the mistakes I make and never repeat them again. I was thinking maybe… maybe this time also I will do this and once everything is done and be sorted we will celebrate together”
my grip on his chest tightened.

I made a fist crumpling his shirt in my hands

“I promise Avrudh, I did not do this to hurt you, I didn’t wanted you to feel left out from my life but be proud of me only. I am sorry.”
I said crying against his back, burying my face in his back I sobbed.

Avrudh sighed and held onto my fists, he pulled me to face him.

My husband looked into my eyes and using his thumb wiped my tears cupping my face,
“I was hurt because Sadhvi, you didn’t find me capable enough to share your problems with, if you want to tackle them yourself do that, I just need to know what you are dealing with, so that if the things doesn’t go right,  you find me in the end backing you up. That’s it.”

I cried harder. Hunger bringing the best out of me and with this speed I was going to dehydrate myself too.

“Stop crying” he shook my face with his palms kissing my forehead

“You are the woman I love, how do you think I could be angry with you for long?” he said hugging my head to his chest.

I sobbed against his muscled chest. He smelled like spice.

His bearded chin scraped against my forehead when he kissed it again.

“Stop crying please” running a hand through my hair Avrudh slide his hands from my head to my waist and back.

In my fist I had his shirt clenched, the material previously sticking to his sides was now under the fist of mine. I rubbed my face against his chest involuntary wiping my cheeks dry.

He didn’t mind though even if he noticed.

Beneath us, Copper barked to gain our attention, he looked at us with so much confusion, the guy who previously had both of ours attention was now asking for it.

He asked looking down at my dog when I still was not leaving Avrudh’s embrace.

“What thought came into your mind that you decided to get us a dog?”

Avrudh asked looking at Copper too but not breaking the hug. I couldn’t be happier than that.

“I was just walking around the park and saw the shop. He happened to be recently abandoned by a family so I brought him up. Besides he was the first guy who barked at me happily.”
Reluctantly I came out of the embrace but quite not leaving the space still

“Happily?” asked Avrudh looking at me grinning

I wiped my face with the back of my hand smiling when Avrudh made a click sound from his mouth and wiped my eyes and cheeks for me.

“You look like a tomato after crying” he said smiling at me

I pushed his chest in protest a little

“I love you Sadhvi, don’t repeat this again. I would love to be a part of your tensions too, if not helping but aware at atleast.” he said holding me by my sides.

I nodded with a sad face, “Okay”

Avrudh sighed and picked up Copper from the ground in his arms, “Look at this little guy, even he doesn’t like looking at his mumma cry”

A breathy laugh escaped my mouth, I scratched against the back of his ear saying, “Well he better not make his mumma ever cry then”

Avrudh laughed and looked at me in the eyes,
“I am sorry Sadhvi for making you cry but if it helps I was in pain too. Trying to ignore you when you clearly are my best person, it was torturous”

I smiled, “You are hopelessly in love with me dear husband”

Avrudh laughed,
“You say! I am head over heels in it”

He managed to make me laugh, running a hand through Copper’s head when he picked his head up touching my palm with his nose licked my hand.

“I guess we both are” Avrudh said with so much intensity that my soul left it’s vessel.

I wanted to sing I am in love - I am in love - I am in love - in Shilpa Shetty style.
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The answer to my prayers was standing right beside me, joining his hands in front of the gods, he silently offered his prayers to them.

I repeated right after him.

I asked Lord Shiva the strength to be there for my husband when in need, I asked him to give him a long life, I wanted to grow old with him. I wanted to see our children getting married one day, I wanted to tease him for the wrinkle he was to gain around the creases of his face.

I asked Goddess Parvati to give me the power to be what my Avrudh ask me to. I wanted to be Avrudh’s reclusion from the world, I wanted to be his home if he accepts me as.
I wanted to give Avrudh everything what he deserve. Love was all he won. I asked Goddess Parvati to let me follow her footsteps so that I could be my husband’s strength.

I touched the feet of the figurines and held my joined hands against my chest turning to look at Avrudh I found my husband looking at me.

I smiled seeing his face, I was right he indeed is the answer to all my prayers, all of my longings.

Avrudh kept his big palm on the top of my head and shaking it he said,
“Let’s get something in this tiny system of yours first”

I grinned at him cheekily.

We were to walk out of the prayer area when we saw Copper entering in, Avrudh went to pick him up in his arms and brought him to bow in front of the god.

“Now Copper say Jai Jai to the god”

I smiled and Copper barked once.

Together as a family, all three of us entered the kitchen when Grace said, “No… No entry of the dog inside the kitchen. He will mess everything up”

Avrudh and I laughed.

“You cannot stop him from entering aunty but sure we can control the mess from happening” I said opening the fridge to take out the mug of milk.

I poured milk in a glass for Avrudh and in the bowl I brought for Copper this evening.

“Come on mom how can you not like the dog, see how cute he is” Monica said pointing at Copper calmly resting in Avrudh’s arms

Avrudh set Copper on the floor saying, “He is very calm aunty. He wouldn’t do something like that.” He said pointing at my dog who was looking at all of us calmly from the floor.

“Yet” I said laughing when Grace aunty was about to intake a calm breath.

With a start she turned to look at me,
“That dog you are so fond of right now is going to cause you the most trouble”

I smiled looking at the canine being mentioned, “I guess that is what I was looking for when I brought him here then. I wanted that.”

Avrudh wrapped me sideways in his arms smiling down at me.

“If anything you will fall in love with him aunty”

“Hey, don’t make me the bad guy. I was just talking about the responsibilities that comes with a dog”

Avrudh holding me tight winked at her and Monica giggled from the corner of the room.

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I was jogging on the trend mil when Copper with his tongue sticking out walked upto me. Looking at me. Attention is all he loves.

Copper loves when people are sitting with him and he lies there flat asleep.

“We will take him out on walk in the evening today and from tomorrow onwards in the morning also for about half hour” I said huffing to an exercising Husband of mine

Avrudh holding his bench press nodded, “I will take him for a walk before bathing today also”

I smiled looking at Avrudh,
“Someone is excited”

Avrudh laughed a breathy laugh, “I always wanted a dog and Jiya was allergic to them, besides look at him”

I looked at Copper who was looking at me with his face resting on his paws.

“who wouldn’t fall in love with him. He is all goofy a second and a calm as a lake the next”

I grinned looking out of the window.

“Copper loves to sleep and yeah, I just remember you have any plans for Holi?”

“Not that I am aware of. You?” Avrudh said now standing beside a jogging figure of mine, his arms crossed resting on the handle of the machine.

“The colony where my parents house is, holds one entertaining Holi festival, so I was thinking why not we all go there too.”

“Sounds good to me” Avrudh said looking at me with wavering his gaze

I continued running and noticed both Avrudh and Copper staring at me.

“Stop staring it is making me conscious”
I said to Avrudh

“I don’t see you stopping him” Avrudh complained his dimples visible once again

“he isn’t the guy who makes me feel all mushy” I said without a thought and regretted within instant.

I froze and then the machine pushed me back. I slide back without getting a chance to get a hold to save my fall.

I accepted the fall when my landing was guarded in Avrudh’s arms.

He had me wrapped around his chest with my back in front of his body. He grinned his irritatingly attractive smile when I moved my head to look at him.

“I make you go all mushy” Avrudh said pushing me against him tightly. I was so very able to feel his body, every curve of mine was in contact with the dips he has to offer.

My flushed face looked at the neck of his t-shirt, with a barking Copper in background Avrudh stared at my blushing face with a smile of his own

“Even Copper likes the idea of me making you go all mushy”

I smiled looking at my hand resting on his chest now I started drawing circles involuntarily.

“Let me know if you feel something stronger the next time Sadhvi, I like to hear your thoughts about me” he said with a boost of his ego

“Don’t let this go to your head. You big nose” I said

Avrudh laughed brushing his nose with mine. “Oh, but I sure am in love with this tiny nose”

I buried my face in his chest once again.

I don’t think I am ever going to survive without him now.

There wouldn’t be any beating of my heart without him.

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'How easy
It was
To
Fall for you'

                     -Moonlight & You
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