You say I don't care about anything ... Apathetic. You don't understand! I do care... I care passionately! Outwardly I don't show it, inwardly I have it! Why would I want to hurt more? Sharing emotions makes me vulnerable to hurt and pain. Its a risk that I don't take because the cost was so high. It's a side affect of living under your critical microscope, the one that you think you see and know all.
We use to talk about little girl things. That can't happen today! I need some emotional room: you want to run my adult life. Liz puts it best: her and I are in emotional captivity. When you feel we are getting away,  you use your emotions to snag us back, manipulate, and control us.
I don't understand... Is it because of how dysfunctional grandma was from being psychotic or do you have the family curse of mental illness?
We are polar opposites... For a middle age man you are 10x more emotional and with mood swings than I ever was as a teenage girl. I had respect and admiration for you at once,  but you lost it! I don't think you can regain it either;it hurts too much!
I really do love you,  but I need to live and live self sustaining!