Why? Why do you say I'm beautiful? You don't mean it! There's always a but....I'm fat, I'm not flat, I'm not trendy enough. I need to exercise more. I will never be what you want me to be.

Why can't you realize that "beautiful" is enough! Saying all this doesn't accomplish anything. It only accomplishes angst, regret, depression, anger, and negative feelings about the subject and towards each other. Can we live instead of regret? Obviously the years of this happening hasn't helped! You said I was fat when I was skinny, and I am fat today. Was I supposed to be bulimic or anorexic? Am I supposed to now? Why not focus on how I feel? Why are you stuck on a number? It doesn't matter how I feel, how much I can lift or my awesome muscles, or how much I lose or gain. To you I will always be the same...beautiful but FAT! WEAK!
I know...you're trying to relive your life through me. I need you to reconcile your past...the regrets, the taunts, the bullies, the fears, and the lies of the past. I need you to see me for who I am. You need the present and the future...not the past! I need the present and the future as well!

I am not supposed to be the little girl with blond pigtails and oodles of accessories. I am grown up!I AM STRONG, BEAUTIFUL, AND MYSELF!