And this will be like a cheating when I know that I can't love guy and get attracted to would girls very easily then how can I marry again without telling him the truth.

But you know that it is not something which I can share with anyone and with anyone whom I didn't know properly, because I am going to do an arrange marriage.

First of all for your information, I tell you I never had any physical relations with any girl or boy ever I just get fascinated for girls but I never had anything with any girl.

Actually, I realise this some year ago when I had in love with my best friend of school.

During the college function, we got a same room to change and actually we didn't have too much time so we decided to change together to save time and it is not a big deal because we both are girls, so we get ready.

But it was proved the very big deal for me at that day, because from there the fantasy about girls started in my mind.

At that day, i saw my bestie jannat naked and get turned on.

After that, I never had any situation like this with her but almost 20 time, I masturbating in that year imagining her with me.

And there it start the lesbianisms in me.

From that day I got attracted from so many girls, I never had confidence to confess to anyone because I found myself disgusting in this.

I read so many book and I know it is not a less or short number of girls who had these kind of fantasys about in the same gender and still they stay happy with their partner ever after.

But it is fine for me to fantasy and get attracted towards anyone before my marriage.

But I don't want to cheat my husband feeling in any way because I will promise and commit him that I will be always been there for him only.

Stay tuned.