When Nathan showed up at my dorm he was shocked to see how many clothes I had actually planned on donating. His jaw nearly hit the floor as he looked at the garbage bags that were overflowing with items.

"Where did you get all of this crap?" Nathan questions, a slight chuckle echoes in his voice as he reaches to grab the first of many bags. I shrug my shoulders not really sure what to tell him.

"I guess you could say it was magic," I chuckled nervously as I helped move the bags closer to the door. Luckily the walk wouldn't be too far. Nathan looked up at me as he threw a bag over his shoulder before grabbing another two.

"Let's go Santa Clause," I stuck out my tongue as I closed the door behind us. Nathan glares as he stumbles into the hallway.

"How far away is the drop off spot?" I could tell he wouldn't be able to carry the bags very far, his hands already trembling with the plastic.

"Not very far at all, I promise," I tried my best to reassure him. I was grateful he was helping me at all.

We made our trek down the hallway until we reached the dorm that the items were supposed to be dropped off at. Knocking on the door we wait for someone to answer the door. A blonde haired girl opens the door with a quizzical look on her eyes.

"Hey, you're the girl who bumped into me in the hallway earlier," She pointed directly at me as my cheeks turn a bright red. I nod my head realizing I recognized her too. I wanted to drop the bags and run down the hallway. The embarrassment eating me up inside. She hadn't given me a flyer so maybe she would wonder how I knew about this.

"Yeah, sorry about that, we would like to donate all of this to the charity drive," I muttered, trying to move on from the fact that I was a complete klutz.

"I mean this is amazing, but where did you get all of this stuff?" She questions as she opens the first bag looking at the flashy dress she pulled out. My heart was racing as she judged a few of the items.

"They are just things I've been collecting," I could feel my palms getting sweaty as she continues to dig through everything we had delivered. Maybe it was too much. She was very clearly skeptical of the items.

"These are all designer, you don't dress like this is why I'm wondering," She looked up at me, her eyes dancing across the outfit I had been wearing. I had on a ripped up tee shirt and a pair of tattered jeans. Nothing too spectacular. I had changed my clothes when I'd gotten back to my dorm to something more comfortable.

"What?" I felt myself sputter out as Nathan interjected taking a step ahead of me to push the bag into her room.

"These are for donations and it doesn't matter how or where Emerson got them, I think the Charity drive will be pleased to have them, you have a wonderful day," With that he wrapped his arms around me as he turned and pulled me away from the door. My heart was still racing. My mind thinking back to the necklaces I had stolen. Donating my clothes hadn't made me feel better, it only made me feel worse. I wanted to throw up... actually I needed to throw up.

"I've got to go," I begin to sprint. My legs pulling me further away from Nathan as I tried my best to get back to my dorm before the contents of my stomach was everywhere. My fingers were trembling when I flung the door open and rushed to the bathroom connected to my personal room.

As I sit in front of the toilet I released all the stress I'd been holding back. My body shaking as I continued to puke into the toilet. I could feel the warm tears rolling down my face as I tried my best to wipe them away.

I could hear a knock on the door. Nathan must have followed me. I needed him to leave but I wasn't sure how that was going to work out at this point. He had been excited to hang out with me and honestly I was eager to hang out with him. I needed to distraction, but now I realized I needed to fix the wrong that I had done. I couldn't continue to live like this. I was going to have to face my fears and give the necklaces back.

I turned to call for Ailis, ignoring the knocks on the door. Nathan would eventually tire out and I would be able to explain everything to him later. But first I needed to take care of a few things.

It was like Ailis could tell I was in distress when he placed his tiny hand on my leg. His large emerald eyes stare up at me with concern.

"Miss, ye okay?" His words were so soft they were like a lullaby, he seemed scared to ask me, but yet he was too worried to just stand there. I shook my head pulling away to lean my back against the wall.

"I've screwed up, and donating clothes isn't going to fix it..." I could feel myself sobbing now. My heart racing in my chest, my brain too numb to process full sentences.

"how can oi 'elp?" Ailis was worried. His hinds seemed shaky as well as he watched me. I shook my head knowing exactly what I needed to do but I wasn't sure I would be able to say it.

"I need the necklaces back," My heart crashed into my rib cage when I said it. I knew there was no going back from this. I had messed up and the only way to fix this was to undo what had been done. Once I had the necklaces I would be able to drop them off, and hopefully that will rid me of this guilty feeling.

Ailis nodded before he pulled all of the green powder out of his pockets, pouring it into a large pile on the bathroom floor. He kicked it around organzing it as if he was measuring it all out.

"I can't bring back gauld," He muttered under his breath as he continued to fumble with the powder. Soon he had them all balled up into tiny spheres of dust. Starting with the first one he took the dust into his hand and begin squeezing it until it was so compressed together it would hold its shape. Then he started whispering so softly I couldn't hear him. But his hands were glowing now, the magic must be working.

Soon there was a gold necklace laid delicately on the floor. He moved onto the next orb and continued with this process until all of the necklaces had been returned. I shook my head as I stared at the jewelry. I couldn't remember which necklaces I had gotten from where. This was never going to work.

Ailis kicked at the ground once the final one had been completed.

"I cant 'elp anymore, oi 'av naw magic lef, oi'm completely drained," As soon as the words left Ailis mouth my brain had went to work on trying to twist them to anything other than what he had actually meant. I didn't want to know I was on my own. I wanted him to help me. I wanted him to have an unlimited supply of magic and that is what got us into this mess in the first place.

"Do you at least remember where each of these goes?" I could feel the tears falling down my face like a jet stream, a river crashing into me so quickly that I wasn't sure I would be able to survive.

Ailis nods his head before separating the necklaces into a couple of groups.

"Here," He points to the piles, before explaining to me which place each item has come from. My heart sinks even further in my chest as I realize Ailis knew exactly where I had stolen these items from and yet he still helped me. He still allowed me to turn them to magic. He really had my back even if it was for the worse. I shook my head as I did my best to keep them organized in my pockets. I was going to have to sneak into the stores and place the necklaces back on the counter without anyone noticing I was there.

Hopefully I wouldn't get busted. Hopefully this would be enough for my mind to stop torturing me. Anything would be better than the way I was feeling currently.

I pulled myself from the bathroom floor finally realizing the knocking had stopped. I pulled my phone out of my pocket realizing I had a few missed messages. Nathan was still lingering around. I wouldn't be able to get past him, but would I be able to explain to him what I was doing without him hating me? My mind was racing with questions and the only thing I knew was I had to get out of this room.

I entered the bedroom portion of the dorm as I grabbed a jacket. It was getting cold outside as the summer was coming to a close and we head further into Autumn. I shook my head trying to compose myself. I knew once I opened the door Nathan would be there and the idea of that was crippling. I wasn't ready to face him on top of everything else I was trying to work through in my head.

I fiddle with the necklaces in my pocket. My heart racing because I knew if I told Nathan anything about this or what I was doing he would be involved. He would have to carry the guilt with him as well. Or maybe he just wouldn't care and he would just be a supportive hand. I shook my head, I couldn't take that risk.

"Ailis what do I do?" I found myself crying out for help. I felt better now that the knocking on the door had stopped but it felt like my phone was useless to me since Nathan was calling it nonstop. I threw it down on the beg as I collapsed onto the sheets allowing it to buzz next to me. I wasn't going to answer.

Ailis shrugged as he climbing up the blankets.

"Ye, will figure it out," He patted the top of my head as I begin to sob once again into the sheets. I needed to compose myself but I felt so many emotions rushing over me that I could just sleep for a century. Maybe that's what I would do. I could just sleep until the guilt washed away. I mentally did the math to see how many years that would take. My heart was aching and it was something that was growing so unbearable.

"I have to figure this out, I have to get out of this room," I was starting to feel like the walls were closing in on me. My breathing was getting heavy and my thoughts were racing. I couldn't take this much longer. I jumped from the bed before nearly sprinting across the room. I stopped as my hand touched the handle. Turning to look at Ailis.

"Can I just explain everything to Nathan?" I turned away walking away from the door to finish my thought. "If I could just explain to him what happened then maybe he wouldn't be as mad and I would be able to show him that I'm not a bad person. Oh please Ailis you have to allow me to tell him about you," I found my mind was finally beginning to calm down with the thought of just being able to tell Nathan about everything. Where the clothes came from, why I ran away. The bad things I had done, I would literally tell him everything and I wouldn't have to lie to him anymore. Like I have to lie to everybody I'm around.

I hated lying to people, it wasn't a part of me.