Hope you guys like this! Thanks to ForeverAlone215 for helping me pick a title name. <UNEDITED>
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I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I wanna be known by you
I wanna be known by you

You felt lost and out of place. You never use to feel like this until you found out that your dog died.

You've been with your dog all your life. It helped you calm you when you were in your worst state.

Sometimes you would cry yourself to sleep, and that dog of yours would come and cuddle with you until you felt better.

Most of your memories were with your dog. Your dog had a special place in your heart.

You didn't tell anyone about how you felt because you were afraid someone was going to make fun of you because you felt this way about a dog.

But, a dog is a man's best friend.

You were currently in your cabin. You were sobbing in the corner of the cabin rocking back and forth.

You needed somebody to catch your breath. You needed someone to calm you before you had another panic attack.

Your depression and anxiety wasn't just because of your dog dying, it was because of everything.

It was because of life. All the obstacles it brings and all the pressure about being a demigod.

Your breathing became shallow and quick. You were hyperventilating, which is not good because that means you were having an attack.

Another reason for your sadness is that you were in love with someone that didn't pay attention to you.

You just wanted to be known by them, but you doubt that would ever happen since your personality changes drastically so quickly.

I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I wanna be known by you
I wanna be known by you

You felt without hope. You didn't have any hope that you would make it out alive at the end of the day.

Your panic attack increased, but you couldn't do anything because you were in shock.

You've had panic attacks before, but this one was different. You couldn't breathe or move at all.

This was your worst one yet.

You didn't know how to stop and cure panic attacks. They just happen unexpectedly and you can't do anything besides deal with it.

It ends on its own, even though you want it to end faster than it usually does.

Your thoughts were clouded with the depressing thoughts of Leo not noticing you.

You loved him and tried to talk to him, but then he would be taken away to do something else.

You didn't know what to do with your life anymore because you had nothing. Absolutely nothing.

Though I'm weak
Beaten down
I'll slip away
Into the sound
The ghost of you
Is close to me
I'm inside out
You're underneath

You were weak and you were the only one who knew that. You didn't let this side of you show to other people.

You were beaten down by your own thoughts. You had a list of insecurities that couldn't be fixed.

'My nose is too big.'

'I'm not skinny enough for Leo.'

'I have under eye bags that no one likes.'

'I'm too pale.'

'I'm ugly.'

'I'm worthless.'

'I bring bad luck.'

'I'm a waste of time.'

'I'm useless.'

'Nobody needs me.'

(This is for the story. You guys are all beautiful.)

You always had one remedy and getaway: music. Music helped you through everything now that your dog couldn't.

You were still having your panic attack, but your phone was in your pocket in your jacket.

With shaky hands, you reached into your pocket and grabbed your phone.

You unlocked it and started playing Twenty Øne Piløts. They were your favorite band because you could relate to most of the songs.

You put it on the song "Truce" because it was one of your favorites. You always wanted to cry because Tyler looked like he was going to cry in the video.

You let your mind slip away into the instruments and lyrics of the music. Listening to Tyler's voice always calmed you.

Even though Leo physically wasn't friends with you, you imagined him being close to you.

Even though you were inside out at the moment, the thought of Leo being beneath your thoughts helped you.

The music playing helped a lot too. Your breathing became better because you were calmed and relaxed.

You were able to stand up and walk, so you went to your nightstand and grabbed a bottle of water.

You drank it to help slow down your heart rate from hyperventilating and raising it up.

I've got two faces
Blurry's the one I'm not
I've got two faces
Blurry's the one I'm not
I need your help to
Take him out
I need your help to
Take him out

You always had two faces you showed. One when you were alone, and the other when you were around people.

When you were around people, you were always happy, cheery, and motivational.

It comes in the package of caring too much and being too nice. You were too nice and cared too much because of your sadness.

You knew what it feels like to be put down everyday. You put yourself down everyday.

You know what it feels like to not be cared for. You experienced people being rude to each other with living in Chicago.

You've witnessed racism, discrimination to gay, bisexual, transgender, and lesbian people.

You always wanted to bring everybody up and help them so they wouldn't feel what you were feeling.

You used your sadness and anxiety to help other people because it's how you became mature and experienced.

Being happy was not the person you were. You were really a heartbroken person with problems of your own.

You didn't let those problems distract you from helping other people and friends though.

Leo was the only one that could calm you and help you. He was your motivation in your period of sadness.

Leo was the only one that could take out the face you weren't because he used humor to cover his sadness.

He was experienced in what you felt like and you wanted to help him out as he helped you.

Though I'm weak
And beaten down
I'll slip away
Into the sound
The ghost of you
Is close to me
I'm inside out
You're underneath

Though I'm weak
And beaten down
I'll slip away
Into the sound
The ghost of you
Is close to me
I'm inside out
You're underneath

Not only were you physically weak, but you were mentally and definitely emotionally weak.

Your emotions were haywire and you had no control over them. The only time you had control over your emotions is when you were around people because you knew the plan to act happy.

You were mentally weak because you couldn't concentrate on one thing. Your mind just went blank all the time.

It was a day where you were physically, mentally, and emotionally weak. You only had one choice to turn to.

Music.

You weakly grabbed a pair of earbuds and put them into your phone. You turned on your phone and went to your music app.

You made a playlist for times like this. It was all sad and depressing songs because those helped most when you were in this state.

You slipped away into the soft melody and meaningful lyrics of the songs on your playlist.

Your thoughts went to Leo again. All you wanted to do was hug him while you cried into his chest.

You wanted to show someone the feelings that you felt.

You were getting weaker and weaker as time passed. The weaker you became, the more you lost hope and felt out of place.

Don't let me be gone
Don't let me be gone
Don't let me be gone
Don't let me be gone

Don't let me be!
Don't let me be!

Ah
Yeah

You prayed and prayed to the gods that someone would come to help you because you didn't want to do something you would regret.

Your thoughts about your insecurities became louder and louder in your head. They told you to take your own life, but you tried to put that thought aside.

You were brought back to your thoughts when you heard a soft knock on the wooden door of your cabin.

You sniffled and got up to open the door. You opened it to reveal the chocolate brown eyes you've always wanted to see.

You were immediately pulled into a hug by Leo. He nuzzled into your neck while you cried into his chest.

"What's wrong? Don't tell me nothing because I can see the pain hidden in your eyes. I know because I know how you feel."

You told Leo everything and explained to him why you felt that way. His eyes were glassy with tears and he pulled you into a hug.

He pulled away after a few minutes. You then felt a pair of warm lips kiss your cold ones.

I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I'm a goner
Somebody catch my breath
I wanna be known by you
I wanna be known by you

You finally felt hope. You didn't feel out of place anymore. You felt like your other half was with you, and it was.

Leo finally noticed you and cured your depression and anxiety.
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I know, another sad one shot.

I couldn't think of any happy songs and I became addicted to TØP today.

I have a playlist of like 33 songs by them.

This is one of my favorites to be honest.

Love you guys and I'm sorry for the feels💕