Why is it that every time I try

To forget you

It takes months, bloody months

Months of silent screams,

Shrieking tears

And burning eyes

And just when I start to think

That maybe I've recovered

Maybe I'm better

You text me out of the blue

Hardly asking how are you

You text me

Only to never respond

And then I fall all over again

Tumble back to the beginning.

I think I'm fine

And then someone says something

And I get flashbacks of you

Someone speaks in a similar manner

And it's like I'm going through it all over again.

You torture me

And every single fucking time

I let you.

Because I still love you

But you hurt me babes.