tom holland
w: angsty

⇢ Tom when, he is nervous after confessing and then you say his name. . .

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Tom and you had been friends ever since you both attended the same dance academy years back. You two practically knew everything about one another and you'd be lying if you said you didn't harbor a little crush on him and he'd be lying if he said the same but neither of you had confessed it yet.

Until Tom decided that he couldn't wait anymore and let the fear of what could go wrong keep him from doing what was right.

It was your weekly Friday movie night which basically consisted of Tom and you having movie marathons and a ton of snacks throughout the evening. Sometimes you would follow a theme such as Disney,Harry Potter,Hunger Games etc.

Tonight it was probably one of your most favourite nights,Marvel night! Which to put lightly you were pretty excited about.

Tom more so nervous than excited,for tonight he planned to confess his feelings towards you.

The night had progressed smoothly and you two probably ate your weight in snacks when Tom pressed play on the last movie of the night, Spiderman far from home. Which starred your best friend in the lead.

ʻʻI love this movie in a totally unbiased wayʼʼ you winked and Tom tilted his head looking at you with a dorky grin ʻʻTotally unbiased wayʼʼ he confirmed.

The British actor licked his lips nervously as he glanced into your e/c eyes making your heartbeat quicken as the movie played in the background.

Tom's brown honey eyes were intense and he slowly ran a hand through his hair. His movement brought you out of the moment you two shared. You shifted in your seat before paying attention to the movie.

Tom's hand rubbed the back of his neck as he chewed on his lip ʻʻY/n,I-I've been meaning to say this for quite awhile now and I- I'm just gonna say it. I like you.... Y/n a lot. Always have. I've liked you when we partnered up in dance class and rehearsed for hours and when I fell from the tree and broke my arm which you cried about becoz you felt bad for me. I've liked you when I first auditioned for civil war and you cheered me on and came with me for support. I've liked you even when Harrison and I go out to pubs to get drunk and then we have to call you for a ride and you nag at us for drinking too much. I've liked you when we've had our weekly movie nights and I love how you love romantic comedies so much,I love that you love love and I love that you love my family and Tessa so much and so I ask if you feel the same way for me? and if u do then don't run away from it.ʼʼ

He exhaled a shaky breath and your lips parted as your eyes welled up with unshed tears. You liked Tom, you did but you couldn't tell him that not when you wasn't sure about any of this.

Love was a delicate thing and yeah it would be a lot easier to jump into his arms but if things were to go south it would suck and you had to make sure that didn't happen...

You tugged on your bottom lip and fiddled with your hands before softly saying his name making the boy glance back at you ʻʻTommy... I- I'm sorry. We can't. It's not that I don't like you becoz trust me I do but if thisʼʼ you gesture between you two ʻʻdoesn't work out then what would it mean for our friendship?.ʼʼ

ʻʻYou can't focus on that. We don't know what will happen or even if we'll break up. You are assuming and making a decision based on it, that's being negative,Y/n.ʼʼ Tom softly says,the worry seeping in. He knew this would happen which is why he told you not to run from it if you reciprocated these feelings but instead you are choosing to run from it and it makes Tom feel hurt and defeated.

ʻʻI'm sorry but I'm not as optimistic as you are Tommy, I'm realistic...ʼʼ

ʻʻThat's not being realistic that's called being cynical. You know you always say you love romantic novels and movies and you want your own someday but you are just waiting for it to happen and for the right person. Well, that right person could be standing right under your nose with a banner reading "I'm the right one for Y/n" and you'd still turn him away becoz that's what you do,I've seen it happen to every guy that's ever liked you. You are too afraid to fall in love so you are too busy reading about fictional people falling in love.ʼʼ Tom swiped at the few forlorn tears that had escaped him.

Whilst you stared at him, wounded, hurt, angry but most of all guilty becoz you knew Tom was right. He made a strong point. Your bestfriend really did know you well and he practically exposed a deep part of you so instead of saying anything you stood up, grabbing your phone and keys off the table before shoving your feet into your uggs.

Tom clicked his tongue ʻʻI'm sorry, Y/n. I didn't mean it like thatʼʼ he reached for you but you wordlessly walked towards the door, but before leaving you wiped away your tears and glanced back at him as you softly said ʻʻI'm too busy reading about other people falling in love as it's much easier to do. To keep their fairytale alive instead of planning my own because we live in the real world Tommy and sadly love isn't all that magical in this one. I can't take that risk and loose my bestfriend so I'm sorry if that makes me a cynic.ʼʼ

Tom's lips part to say something but you turn and walk out the door and out of his life as it closes behind you making Tom's heart break and he whispers to the empty room ʻʻI wanted to make us magical...ʼʼ

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a/n:

and so that happened. Don't hate me 🙈
Had this penned down in like March so wheew been a long time coming and finally it's out here for you all to read.
Also as I was editing this for posting I got a notif that Tom posted on insta 😂

x - Adee
2021