[JULIAN]

"You seem to have feelings for him," I heard Louis say as he shut the door. Was he really leaving? What about Zeus? He didn't even tell him he was leaving. I groaned, rubbing my aching forehead. I can't take this anymore, I've only been here for over four hours and I was already dying of jealousy.

"I won't object if you can convince him."

I shut my eyes remembering Louis' words. Won't object? Did that mean he wasn't going to interfere — that he wasn't going to sleep with Zeus anymore? My heart fluttered at the supposed reality. Had he actually been serious?

Zeus. I thought, getting up. I want Zeus, I admitted to myself heading towards the door. Spots was still sleeping and wouldn't be an interference if I went now.

Taking a deep breath, I pried the kitchen door open before wandering out and turning to go up the staircase. I felt my heart pound and oddly contract in my chest as I walked up the stairs. What exactly was Zeus going to do when I propose this going steady thing? Laugh?

I reached the door to his room still fidgeting over the idea. I blinked, focusing on the knob. Should I knock? I wondered before shaking my head. I couldn't process what's wrong with me. Maybe it was the fear of being rejected?

I finally brought a fist to the door, knocking. I closed my eyes, half praying he would answer, and half praying he would ignore it.

"What?" Zeus asked as the door flew open. I gasped, staggering back in surprise. He should have least given me a few minutes to think up what in the world I was going to say!

"I — um... Louis left," I informed him as I ran a hand through my hair.

"I know, he called," Zeus said, his voice coming off as a bit irritated.

"Oh..." I trailed, looking up at him. His long hair was a mess as it mopped around his chest and shoulders in messy clumps. Snap out of it! I scolded myself before bringing my gaze back to Zeus.

"What?" he asked again. I blinked, still not used to the unfamiliar hard tone. I could feel my insides knot together, could feel my throat burning as if I was about to cry.

"I..." I trailed, still running my eyes up and down his body.

"If you came here just to stand here, I don't like it," Zeus said, turning to close the door.

"No, wait!" I raised my voice, feeling helpless. I was able to catch the door before it closed and I was now using my hand as a wedge.

"What in the world—" Zeus trailed before sighing.

"What?" he asked, his green eyes meeting mine. I could hear the slight irritation leaking into his tone. I didn't like it.

"I — about, about the affair thing," I mumbled, hearing Zeus groan.

"What about it?" He finally asked, looking straight at me. His eyes still made my heart jolt. How was I so stupid to think he was despite enough to just want me?

"I — I didn't... I didn't mean it, okay? I was just — I don't know, acting out of impulse?" I stammered, not exactly sure of what I had just blabbered.

"It's okay, we both know it's an affair, right? I was just acting like a child—"

"That's the problem. I don't want it to be an affair. I want you to..." I trailed, sort of hoping for him to complete the sentence for me. Zeus gave me confused look. I looked away, beginning to feel nervous. How on earth am I going to say 'I don't like you sleeping with other people and I want you all to myself' without sounding weird? God, I'll sound like Linda.

"You want me to...?" Zeus continued for me. I blushed, realizing I had been staring at my feet for a while.

"I-I don't like the Idea that I have to share you. I was stupid to think — to think you didn't have — you know..." I trailed as my face warmed up. I bit my bottom lip in frustration. Nibbling it as I tried not to meet Zeus' gaze.

"I don't like the fact you sleep with Linda, but I live with it, don't I?" he said, leaning on the door frame. He looked stressed, bothered, annoyed — just about any word that qualified anger.

"That's not. That's not the point!" I raised in frustration. He didn't have to be mean about it. I calmed down when I saw Zeus step back in surprise. I was trying to convince him, not scare him away.

 I knocked my fingers against each other nervously. The hallway had fallen into a very awkward state of silence. I looked down at my feet, trying to limit the effect of Zeus' stare. I could feel my face growing red as I grew more conscious of his stare.

"I have feelings for you, and I know how uncalled for what I said was, okay? I just, I'm just really attracted to you. I mean, who wouldn't be? And..." I trailed, looking up at Zeus warily. He was not just going to let me do the apologizing, was he?

"And...?" Zeus continued. He was. God damn it, he was.

"And I want a normal relationship. I really want you, and just you," I finished, feeling a little confident.

"What about Linda?" Zeus asked, giving me an accusing look. I bit my lip, feeling nervous. Linda would rip my head off if I ever suggested it.

But you want Zeus, don't you? I thought to myself before sighing.

"G-give me time," I pleaded, looking straight at him. His expression softened reasonably before he sighed.

"Okay," he muttered. The atmosphere became a bit awkward after that, but my heart felt light and I was relieved. 

The hallway stayed quiet for a while. I didn't mind it, it was a sort of comfortable silence — a resolved silence. Turning my gaze to the floor I heard Zeus' low chuckle.

"Damn, I want to kiss you so much," Zeus groaned. Looking up, I didn't do what I usually do. Which would be to blush and then mutter gibberish. This time, I just licked my lips and stared straight at him. I won't deny the fact that I wanted to kiss him just as bad.

Zeus groaned again, this time coloring my cheeks. I love it when he did that, It sounds so wanting, so damn sensual.

"Come here," Zeus whispered, stretching his arms out. I didn't waste time running into them, drowning in his all so wonderfully familiar scent of raspberries and acorns. I took in his scent, snuggling into his chest. A day of being deprived of Zeus was enough, and I needed a Zeus reboot if anything.

I moaned, feeling his hand go through my hair. I felt his crotch hardening on my lower stomach. I whimpered, taking in all the feelings. At times like these, I didn't mind being shorter than Zeus.

I felt Zeus pull at my hair lightly, making me whine in protest as I raised my head from his chest, but quieted down as he pressed his lips against mine in a kiss. My lips parted in a moan, giving his tongue access to my mouth. I reached up for handfuls of his hair, holding on desperately for support. I loved the warm tingles Zeus gave me whenever we kissed — made love.

My face warmed up as I felt my pants get tighter. Zeus laughed, pulling me flush on him by my waist.

"There's nothing to be embarrassed about," Zeus cooed, kissing my forehead. I closed my eyes, just savoring the feeling of him, the gentle kisses he was planting everywhere.

I whimpered, wiggling in his grip, trying to place my head at a better angle, trying my hardest to get as much of the sensations his kisses invoked.

"Are you staying over?" Zeus asked, resting his head on top of mine. I hummed in content and appreciation of the contact as I drew nonexistent lines on his naked chest.

"Is that a yes?" Zeus asked making me chuckle.

"Of course," I muttered, closing my eyes. I think I'm beginning to go mad being this close to him and not being able to... to be with him like that.

"Zeus," I muttered biting my lip.

"Yes?"

"Don't you. Won't you — you know..." I trailed not quite able to get the words out my mouth.

"Well I really don't know, you know." He teased, making my face grow warm.

"Won't-you-make-love-to-me?" I suggested at a go. Zeus laughed lifting me off the ground, my legs instinctively wrapping around him. I blushed thinking I'd never tell Zeus how much I loved it when he carried me.

"I love it," Zeus said resting his forehead on mine.

"You love what, making love to me?" I asked, confused as I imitated a peck.

"Well no and yes..." Zeus trailed chuckling again.

"I love it when you say 'make love' I don't know, it has this intimate ring to it," Zeus said, pecking my nose.

"And I also love making love to you too," Zeus cooed, adjusting my weight on his hands.

"Well, I never really thought of it like that..." I confessed, blushing.

"Do you say it to Linda?" Zeus asked, beginning to head for the stairs with me in his arms. I creased my brows in thought. Have I?

Make love to Linda — have sex with Linda.

I shook my head. No, I doubt I'd said anything like that.

"I'm glad," he said as I felt us descend down the stairs.

 Wait a minute—

"Aren't you..." I trailed.

"Aren't I what?" Zeus asked, entering the sitting room.

"Aren't we going to your room?" I asked, and Zeus' chest vibrated in laughter.

"What?" I asked, confused. A little hurt at the fact that Zeus was laughing, I was being absolutely serious here.

"We would but Louis left his stuff everywhere," he muttered as he dropped me down on the black fur carpet he had put a while back. I pouted. It wasn't fair!

"Don't pout," Zeus said, running his thumb across my lips, and then his hand through my hair. I frowned in suspicion. If he thinks he can just — I groaned, leaning into his hand. God, I'm so gullible.

"We could do it in the guest room," I suggested.

"You're horny, aren't you?" Zeus teased.

"Well, of course," I answered, and watched as his surprised face turned a deep red.

"The guest room's dusty," Zeus mumbled, turning his gaze away from mine.

"Then right here in the living room," I mused.

"The sofa's too small and I just got this carpet," Zeus said, avoiding my gaze.

"Then the kitchen counters?" I asked, batting my lashes in mock innocence, as I wrapped my arms around his shoulders.

"Are you trying to seduce me?" Zeus asked, a bit amused.

"Maybe I am, maybe I'm not." I shrugged.

"Well too bad," Zeus said, kissing my forehead. My eyes widened in surprise, He's not serious is he?

"You're depriving me of my male rights in this relationship!" I whined throwing my arms in the air. Zeus just stared at me as if I'd lost my mind.

"Who told you, you wore the pants in this relationship?" He teased, making my face turn a deep red.

"Who told you I don't?" I countered, feeling a bit cornered.

"A lot of things, including our positions in bed," he said, grinning at me. My mouth fell open in disbelief. How dare he?

"I could be the top from the bottom," I muttered, not even sure of myself, because of most part I couldn't imagine myself going all out on Zeus. I'd die of embarrassment.

"That doesn't even make sense," Zeus chuckled.

"So, what the hell am I wearing?" I asked giving up.

"Oh, you..." Zeus trailed. I waited hopefully, hoping what was about to come out from his mouth was at least partly reasonable.

"You're wearing a skirt," Zeus finished with a grin. My eyes widened in both horror and disbelief.

Note to self; Zeus is mean.

*

You know, I don't think I mind wearing the skirt. It just means I could get hand feed by Zeus without wounding my pride, it also meant I could cuddle up to him, or demand pecks and kissed without being called clingy. It also meant I got carried up and down the stairs, and probably around the house if I refused to get down.

That's exactly what's happening now, only that Zeus was trying to reach for a can of curry flower.

"Julian you're weighing me down!" Zeus complained, as I only tightened my grip. Zeus sighed forcing e down and slamming me against his chest. My heart rate quickened as I got a glimpse of his hazy eyes.

"If you won't let me eat normal food I'll just eat you," Zeus said sending chills down my back. A moan got caught in my throat as he nibbled and sucked on my neck.

"Zeus..." I half whimpered, gripping handfuls of his hair.

"Be quiet," Zeus muttered, kissing me on the lips, plunging his hot tongue into my mouth to meet mine. We kissed for a while before Zeus broke the kiss in a groan.

"Julian," he murmured, rubbing my sides. My mouth parted but I couldn't say anything, comprehend anything really.

"I'm ready to give you your well-deserved rights," he teased picking me up as my legs wrapped around his waist from instinct.

Zeus carried me to the front of the guest room, my brow lifted in question.

"It's just a little dusty," Zeus said in his defense. I chuckled before planting my lips on Zeus', my whole body shook with excitement at his moan. I couldn't wait There was something completely addictive about being violated by Zeus.

"Julian," Zeus managed to utter as he pushed us past the door and into the waiting bed. Zeus turned me around quickly before pulling me to himself. I moaned, trying to keep my shaking hands up. I let Zeus undress me after himself, and then kiss every inch of me. I couldn't help returning his deep kisses or moaning as he licked his way to my bottom.

"You're clearly the most beautiful thing alive," Zeus muttered against my bottom, as he teased my hole with his fingers. I moaned feeling a hand wrap around my member, stroking it.

"Zeus..." I trailed out of desperation. I could feel myself getting dizzy from excitement.

"Zeus..." I trailed again, pushing my bottom against his hard member.

"Not yet," Zeus moaned, turning me over, his legs between my thighs. He kissed me feverishly before taking a nipple in his mouth, running a hand up and down my stomach.

"Zeus..." I trailed, bucking my hips against him. I could feel his fingers teasing my hole again, his hand taking my fingers into his mouth, suckling lightly. I cried out in confusion as he started to lift himself from me, my legs wrapped around him tightly.

"I'm just going to get the rubber," Zeus sighed, trying to untangle my legs.

"Don't!" I insisted, watching as Zeus rose a brow in question. My face heated up at his stare, how exactly was I going to explain the fact that I wanted to have him the way no other person had?

"I — We're dating aren't we? There's no need for that, not anymore — I think," I muttered, pulling on Zeus lightly.

"Are you sure?" Zeus asked, his face filled with unanswered questions.

"Of course," I muttered, transfixed by his stare. I was clean, and I assumed he was clean. It wasn't going to be a problem, right? I just wanted things to be a little different. It was ridiculous of me to be thinking about the other people he's been with — slept with. Was it my fault that I wanted to have him a little differently — have him the way I guessed no other person had?

"Julian..." Zeus trailed before he started to kiss me with urgency. I was visibly shaking all over. My rare end was aching with anticipation. After a while of making out, Zeus broke the kiss before sitting up.

"Just the lube," Zeus muttered, answering my unasked question.

It didn't take long for Zeus to settle back in-between my laps, a sensual smile playing on his lips. My heart pounded lightly as he massaged my entrance with the cold cream. The light kisses he trailed on my belly, both comforted and put me on the edge.

"Zeus—"

"Just a little more baby," Zeus muttered as I tried my best to stay quiet. He removed his fingers, making me groan. Positioning himself against me, he pressed in slowly, making my eyes widen in shock. Zeus held on to me, kissing and comforting me with words as he continued to push into me.

"There," Zeus mused, kissing my hair. I loved how gentle he is with me. How unbearably sweet he was when he felt like he was hurting me.

The feeling of him inside me was as amazing as it has always been. The idea of him filling me up and stretching me out was enough to make me come. I bucked against him not quite able to help myself.

"Jules," Zeus sighed, moving. He started lightly before working into a slow rhythm. My mouth parted in ecstasy at the feel of him hit my sweet spot over again. I threw my legs over his hips trying to get as much of him as I could. I wrapped my arms around Zeus feeling myself about to come, encasing myself in Zeus and his curtain of hair. I felt Zeus shiver under my touch, could feel him leak inside me as he thrust for the last few times. I moaned coming too on Zeus' stomach, closing my eyes to take in the moment.

"Damn Julian! I love you. I love you so freaking much!" Zeus cried out, rolling off me. I didn't think much of what he said as my mind was still hazed, I only cuddled up to him for an after sex snooze.

But when his words finally settled in Zeus was already asleep.