The pain that he felt that night

Led him to flee far away, out of sight

He chose to run when he should have kneeled

Thinking his feet could take him away till he healed

He turned away thinking God did too

With all of his guilt

Was there anything left to do?

He ran quickly but always in hesitation

Even so he cut of his and God's communication

"The world doesn't think there's anything wrong with me,
But I'm filthy from the inside out can't they see?"

He stumbled from his confusing thoughts

Thinking he needed improvement

Lots and lots

He tried to clean himself off in a puddle

Leaving him muddy and left with more trouble

The mud made him slip

But that chip on his shoulder

Made praying to God harder than moving a boulder

"If the world doesn't want me,
Then why would God care?
I feel so ashamed,
Knowing that he was there,
I'm filthy and evil so why would God think,
That turning away wasn't an option, When he drank that bitter drink?"

At last the man called, but he didn't shout

Instead shaky whispers came out of his mouth

"Please help me Lord,
Even if I am broken,
I'm sorry that it's been so long since we've spoken,
But this rope will soon burst,
Please end my thurst,
Take my life if you so want,
But don't turn away anymore,
I need you right down to my core"

The Lord gave an answer to the man

One clear as day

One he could understand

A verse he had read many years ago

Making his tears, starting to flow

"For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, fear not, I will help thee"
(Isaiah 41:13)

The verses did not come in one, but in three's

"The Lord is the support of all who are crushed, and the lifter up of all who are bent down"
(Psalm 145:14)

"When people fall down, do they not get up? When someone turns away, do they not return?"
(Jeremiah 8:4)

Even after those verses

He felt like forgiveness was something he had to earn

He then heard more

More he needed to learn

"For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him"
(2 Corinthians 5:21)

"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness"
(1 John 1:9)

With a shaky breath the man cried to the Lord

"Forgive me for what I have done,
I pray that you'll somehow still call me son,
Take away this guilt I carry,
Take away that night so scary"

The lord helped the man up as he welcomed him back home

The man cried till his eyes were sore

When the lord said calm and quiet

"Go, and sin no more"
(John 8:11)