I hate me, yeah that's right, I hate myself and so much. But even more I hate love, I hate being in love.

I hate that stupid feeling which make me cry every night, being at my worst, feeling dumb for every fucking word I say or every fucking thing I do. Even "how are you" seems silly when I say it, they fucking think I am a loser, I know because I am. 

I can still hear them whispering that I don't deserved to be love or being in a relationship. And nothing is ever going to change that fact. Everybody's better than me.

I hate when I love someone so much but never being love like I want, I hate waiting for him to text me, as if I have nothing to do with my life because it's boring.

i hate wanting attention from him 'cause otherwise I don't feel loved. I hate myself, I hate hoping for someone that would never ever come and even if I know that I still wait like the fucking idiot bitch I am. I hate overreacting, I hate overthinking, I just wish my brain to shut down.

I hate me and the world because they make me have feelings that I never want to anymore ! 

I just want to stop crying for a boy who would never care about me, for somebody who just make me hate him because I know I ain't enough, I am jealous, I'm bad, I'm a loser who don't know when to give up.

I hate my heart for loving people I just wanting to hate, so they could never hurt me like they used to. If I could choose, never of this would happen to me. I hate wasting my time for thoses boys, the whole primary, three years and now what ? My entire life ? I hate it.