Hey !

So i'm despression again

......so here the story

I was happy that i gonna get a new headphone from my mom

But when i get back from my school at noon...she told me that she forget and she would be able to get it at evening

I was thought " sure,it's okay,she forget things "

But...
In the evening,she forget again.I was thinking that she forget so i told her and she yell at me saying that she has no money to buy it and i should stop asking about it

At that moment,i feel like something stab in my heart but i set it aside and nod my head and continue the task my mom ask me to do

But look like luck hate me because she and i got into a fight

And as alway,she win and i lose....i end up saying sorry her

Guy,i'm feeling like i want to shot myself in the guts and die

Many words were swirl around my head,saying i'm useless and worthless and i'm don't deserve to live

I even ask my teacher how to tell my parents that i have despression

And i even almost stab myself

This is getting worse and maybe someday,i will never see you guys again

.....who am i kidding?...
You all hate me....
You all hate me because of my personality

Maybe it's best if i should die....or cut myself to numb the pain
......

Bye