Her past.

[TW: Abuse and Rape]

It was a happy day because Krizzia and her Twin Kallista graduated. Siya bilang teacher na pangarap na niya simula bata at ang kakambal naman niya ay nag graduate sa kursong B.S Business Administration major in Marketing Management.

Ang plano nilang dalawa para sa future nila ay sobrang linaw na. Idagdag na suportado silang dalawa ng Daddy nila. Krizzia was planning to take the Licensure examination once. And her sister is planning to go abroad and enter MBA.

"Congratulations my ladies!" Sigaw ng Daddy nila na may dalang dalawang bouquet.

They both giggle and run towards their father's arms. They're safe haven.

"Thank you, Dad!" Sabay nilang sabi ng kambal.

Her eyer roamed around the campus, hoping that she will see her mother. Kahit na palagi itong busy at halos hindi na sila pansinin, her twin sister will surely be sad if she's not here. Lalo na at importante ang araw na ito ngayon sa kanilang dalawa.

"Where's Mom?" Kallista asked to their father.

Sa simpleng pagkagat ng labi nito, alam na agad ni Krizzia na hindi niya ito kasama.

"She's not here... It's okay, we'll see her later naman sa bahay. For now, how about we celebrate first?!" Kallista beamed.

Their Father laughed and nod his head. Siya naman ay nagpaalam na pupuntahan lang sandali si Angelyn, she's with her Uncle and baby. Hindi dumating ang mga magulang nito dahil mukhang galit pa ang mga ito sa anak. Nang masiguro niya na ayos lang si Angelyn, agad siyang tumakbo papunta sa sasakyan ng ama.

Their father's business is booming. Maganda ang takbo dahil maganda ang palakad. Kaya naisipan ng kapatid niya na mag take ng business, para may mag take over sa business na itinayo at pinalago ng Daddy nila. She's not into business, subok na subok na niya 'yon noong High School pa siya. Palaging bagsak ang negosyo na itinatayo niya.

Her father will just laughed at her, but her mother will rolled her eyes and force her to take Business course so she'll learned how to handle one. Simula bata, hindi na sila nito pinagtutuunan ng pansin. Palagi itong wala sa bahay at uuwi na inaaway ang Daddy nila.

When she was young, Krizzia thought that the red marks on her mother's neck was just a simple insect bites. Pero habang tumatanda siya at nagkakaisip sa ganoong bagay, she realized that her mother was cheating. Na kaya ginagabi ito ng uwi at walang oras sa kanila, nasa kandungan pala ito ng ibang lalaki.

Their family was a total messed. Pero sadya yatang mahirap kalabanin ang salitang 'Love'. Masyadong mahal ng Daddy nila ang Mommy nila, kaya hindi niya ito mabitawan. And as she heard the experience of other people, maybe, their father also wanted to give them a whole family. Sadly, it's fucked up.

"If I will be given one chance to get close to Mommy... I'll do it!" Determinadong sabi ni Kallista na ikinailing niya.

Sa kanilang dalawa, si Kallista ang uhaw sa atensyon ng mommy nila. Habang siya, ayos na sa kanya ang ama nila. She's not fond of her mother, wala siyang natatandaan na naging malambing ito sa kanila. Ang natatandaan niya lang ay ang pagtalim ng tingin nito sa t'wing nakikita sila nito.

"You don't need to, really." Natatawang sagot ng daddy nilang dalawa.

But Kallista continued to blabbered how she'll get their mother affection. Their father was smiling and she wasn't. Hindi siya mapakali sa ideya na maglalapit ang kakambal sa sariling ina. It doesn't feel right.

Months after they Graduated, na busy siya sa pagre-review para sa License examination. Habang ang kakambal naman niya ay inaasikaso ang mga papel na kakailangan habang tumutulong sa negosyo ng Daddy nila. Laging umuuwi si Kallista na bagsak ang katawan dahil sa trabaho, but she was always telling her that she's fine.

"Kallista, let's go?" Ani ng mommy nila.

Krizzia's brows furrowed. Wondering what the hell is happening with their mom. Binitawan niya ang hawak na libro at sumunod sa dalawa. Her twin was smiling, pero hindi 'yon ang ngiti na palagi nitong nakikita. Hindi 'yon ang ngiti ng kakambal niya.

"Ate!" She called before Kallista entered the car. Pero hindi man lang ito lumingon.

"We're going, Krizzia. Just wait for your turn okay?" Sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, nginitian siya ng ina.

Napaatras si Krizzia at walang nagawa kung hindi ang tumango nalang. Why does she meant by that? Her turn? For what?

Ang dami niyang tanong sa isip pero wala ni isa ang nasagot. Krizzia decided to get back on their room and review. Nag focus siya sa pag re-review habang naghihintay sa pagdating ng kakambal niya at ng mommy nila.

Night came and there's no trace of her twin. Wala siyang narinig na sasakyan na dumating, tahimik ang buong bahay.

She picked her phone and called her twin. Nag-aalala na siya rito kahit kasama nito ang mommy nilang dalawa.

[We're not going home tonight, Krizzia. You better sleep.]

Hindi man lang siya nito hinayaan makasagot. Her mother dropped the phone and when she's about to call again, naka patay na ang cellphone ng kakambal niya. What the hell is happening?!

Kinabukasan nasa tabi na niya ang kakambal. But something is wrong with her, she's not moving and she smells off. Her eyes widened when she saw a dried blood in her legs. Krizzia immediately grabbed the first aid kit, sa pag-aakala na nagalos ito sa binti pero ang tuyong dugo ay papunta sa pagkababae ng kakambal.

"Ate... Why are you bleeding? This is not... This blood... Hindi ito sa galing sa menstruation mo, what the hell is this!?" Krizzia yelled while shaking her twin sisters legs.

"S-stop! It hurts!" Kallista grunted.

Napaatras si Krizzia. Her eyes were wide open.

"K-Kallista... A-Ate what ha-happened to you?" Nauutal na tanong niya rito.

"N-nothing, wala 'to. Don't worry about me okay? Lilinisin ko nalang 'yan mamaya. Hinahanap ba ako ni Mommy? Ang alam ko kasi aalis pa kami." Kallista said and get up.

Hirap na hirap pa itong tumayo at maglakad. Hindi maitago ang pag ngiwi sa kada apak ng mga paa nito.

"What did she do to you? Siya lang ang kasama mo kahapon! Hjndi pa kayo umuwi kagabi, I called you and she answered her phone! Nasaan ka noon?" Krizzia asked and follow her sister.

"I'm with her business partner, nakikipag... Meeting." Kallista trailed off.

"You're lying. I can't believe you, I'll tell Dad about this." Banta niya sa kapatid.

Her twin sister looked at her sharply. "Tell Dad and don't talk to me anymore. I'm finally having mom's attention! Hindi ko hahayaan na mawala na lang 'yon bigla." Kallista hissed and bumped her shoulder.

Hindi makapaniwalang sinundan ng tingin ni Krizzia ang kakambal. This is the first time that her twin sister picked a fight against her. What made her shocked was after she took a bath, inilipat nito ang mga damit sa bakanteng guestroom nila.

Hindi basta basta matawagan ni Krizzia ang Daddy nila dahil busy ito ngayon sa negosyo nila, lalo na at patuloy ang paglago nito. A lot of businessmen invested in their father's business. Sobrang hands on nito kaya halos hindi na ito umuuwi sa bahay nila.

It's been a month and she always witnessed how tired her twin sister is. Palagi itong nanghihina kapag umuuwi silang dalawa ng ina. She's having a bad feeling everytime she saw her having a hard time walking. Palagi itong akay akay ng mga maids nila.

"Ayos lang ho ba siya?" Tanong niya sa isang maid na tumulong sa kakambal para nakaakyat ito.

"Naku ma'am! 'Yang kakambal niyo, mukhang inaaraw araw po." Kunot noong sagot nito at bahagya pang umiiling.

"Inaaraw araw ang alin po?" She asked curiously.

Pasimpleng tumingin sa paligid ang maid at nang masiguro na sila lang dalawa pabulong itong sumagot sa kanya. "Sex, Ma'am Krizzia. Hindi naman po ako pinanganak kahapon para hindi malaman ang amoy ng kakambal niyo. Maski ang ibang kasambahay ay nagtataka na sa kanya, kung simpleng trabaho lang ay makakalakad ng maayos 'yan."

"Huh? Sex? Manang, wala pong boyfriend ang kapatid ko. And we promised to each other. Na magkaka boyfriend lang kami kapag ako, naging teacher na at siya, kapag tapos na ang MBA. Imposible po na may gagalaw sa kapatid ko." She answered calmly, putting a lot of trust to her twin. Pilit pinanghahawakan ang pangako nila sa isa't isa kahit mag-iisang linggo na niya itong hindi pinapansin.

The maid shrugged her shoulder and left her. Krizzia was staring at her sister's door, her brows furrowed when she heard someone vomiting. Kahit ayaw siyang makita ng kakambal, pinasok niya ang kwarto nito.

"Ate!" She shouted when she saw her vomiting on the floor.

Agad niya itong dinaluhan at hinimas ang likuran, she can't stand the smell but for her sister, tiniis niya.

"Manang! Paki dala naman po ng isang baso ng tubig at palanggana na may tubig dito!" She yelled. Pagtapos ay tumuuon ang pansin sa kapatid. "Did you eat something? Bakit ka nagsusuka? May sakit ka ba?" Nagpapanic na tanong niya rito.

"K-Krizzia..." Her twin called her and smiled. Then she felt her hands wiping her tears. "I'm not dying... I'm just... Pregnant."

Krizzia was too shocked that she cannot move. Her heart stopped beating for a second and her body froze. Parang nabingi si Krizzia sa sinabi ng kapatid niya.

"And I'm married." Kallista said and showed the back of her hands, may dalawang singsing na nakasuot sa palasingsingan na daliri nito.

Krizzia felt betrayed. Paanong nabuntis ito at nagka-asawa sa isang buwan na hindi sila nagpapansinan?! When Kallista announced that she's pregnant and married, ang Mommy lang nila ang natuwa. Her Dad looks so dissapointed, of course, he was expecting Kallista to study abroad again for 2 years. Pero hindi man lang 'yon napansin ng kakambal niya, ang importante lang dito ay ang saya na nararamdaman ng mommy nila.

She continued to pursue her dream, she took the Licensure examination and passed. Kahit na pinipilit siya ng mommy niya na mag-aral ulit at kumuha ng kurso na tungkol sa business, even Kallista was pushing her. Another reason, para hindi na naman sila magpansinan.

Krizzia spend most of her time working at the same time fulfilling her dreams. While her mother was still forcing her to take Business course. Wala na si Kallista sa bahay nila dahil kinuha na ito ng napangasawa niya.

Her husband looks gentle and seems like he loves her sister kaya panatag siya nang kunin siya nito sa poder nila. But as days passed, hindi sila nito pinapayagan na dalawin ang kapatid niya.

"Let them be, masaya na ang kapatid mo. Maybe it's time for you to get married too!" Ayan palagi ang sagot ng mommy niya kapag nag rereklamo siya na hindi makadalaw.

But luck must be on her side, her twin sister texted her. Sobrang tuwa ni Krizzia kaya agad siyang pumunta sa bahay nilang mag-asawa. Only to find out that her sister was not. living like a queen, like her mother used to tell her and her dad. Kallista was living in hell. She became a battered wife.

"Why did you text her huh? Are you planning to leave our house?! Didn't I tell you to stay in our room and wait for me?! If you just obeyed me this won't happen to you!" Narinig niyang sigaw ng asawa ni Kallista habang pinagsasampal ang kakambal niya.

Her eyes widened when she saw her twin sister face! Puno ito ng pasa. Puno ng pasa ang buong katawan nito.

"How hard could it be?! Just spread your damn legs and I'll do all the work!" He shouted once again and hit her sister.

Sa bawat dampi ng palad nito sa pisngi at sa ibang parte ng katawan ni Kallista, kakaibang galit ang namumuo sa kanya. Ni minsan ay hindi sila pinagbuhatan ng kamay ng ama nila. He was always gentle with them. How dare he punch amd slap her sister.

"I'm pregnant! Just wait for another month!" Sagot ng kakambal niya.

"Ang sabihin mo ayaw mo lang! You're always crying when we're having sex!"

"Because you're forcing me!" Kallista shouted and that made her stop.

Bago pa niya mailayo ang kakambal sa sariling asawa nito. Kallista's husband hardly pushed her sister, causing her to fall on the stairs. Nanginginig ang mga kamay ni Krizzia habang pinapanood ang kapatid na mahulog sa hagdan. She looked at her husband, waiting for him to help his wife. Pero walang itong ginawa. Instead, he turned his back like he didn't do something. Na parang walang nangyari.

"Kallista... Ate," She whispered, crying and forced her self to walk towards her sister.

She can't even recognize Kallista's face because of the bruises. Naliligo ito sa sariling dugo at wala siyang magawa kung hindi ang umiyak at humingi ng tulong.

Her sister died together with the baby inside her tummy. His Dad lose his shit and so is she, pero nanatiling kalmado ang mommy niya at nakuha pang sisihin ang kapatid niya sa pagkamatay nito. And because of that, her mother and father fought in front of her twin's coffin.

Sising sisi ang Daddy niya na hindi sila nito binigyan ng pansin. He was blaming his self when it wasn't his fault in the first place. Nagsalita din ang mga kasambahay ng asawa ng kakambal niya. That made her cry more. Kallista was treated like a pig. She was forced to have sex  whenever his husband wanted to. Kahit buntis na ito.

Because of her sister death, nagpasya muna siya na magpahinga sa pagtuturo. She asked for one month leave, hindi niya alam kung ano ang ginawa ng daddy niya para mapagbigyan 'yon. Krizzia was resting inside her room while hugging her sister's clothes.

"Yeah, I need to replace my wife. I want her twin." Kumunot ang noo niya nang marinig ang boses ng asawa ni Kallista.

Ano'ng ginagawa dito ng hayop na 'yon?!

"She's inside. You need to promise me this time, you will treat her right and give her the life she deserves!" Narinig niyang sagot ng ina.

She tightened the grip on the clothes she's holding. The door slowly open, revealing her twin sister husband. The one who pushed her sister, punch and slap her and lastly forced her to sleep with him when she doesn't want to!

"You!" She hissed and the man smirked.

"I like you more than your twin, you're more fiercer. I like it." He said and licked his lower lip.

"What are you doing here?!" She shouted.

"I'm going to take you. As a replacement for my wife." He cooly said and walk towards her. "You can't escape from me, Krizzia. I have your mother consent. Yours is not that really important."

And in a swift move, he was seizing her hands. Pabalya siya nitong ibinato sa kama at pinunit ang suot na damit niya.

"Damn you! Let me g—" She coughed when the man punched her in the stomach. He took advantage of her while she can't move.

Krizzia was crying while her twin sister was licking her neck down to her breast. Pilit inaabot ni Krizzia ang vase na nasa side table ng kama niya. Her sister gift. Gotcha!

She used the vase to slammed it on his head. Nang makita niyang parang nahihilo na ito, Krizzia kicked his jewel in between his legs. But thats not enough to take the man down, mas lalo lang itong nagalit sa kanya. His dirty hands were wandering around her body. Kaunti nalang ay maaabot na nito ang pagkababae niya.

"Get off of my daughter! You punk!" She heard her father's voice thundered inside and pulled the man. Agad hinablot ni Krizzia ang comforter at itinakip sa katawan niya.

"D-dad!" She yelled while crying. Watching her father got beaten by the man. He was throwing a punch and her father was old enough to dodge and fight back. Puno ng dugo ang mukha ng Daddy niya and all she could do was to cry and called for him.

"Mom! Make him stop!" She yelled pero hindi man lang lumitaw ang ina niya. She's nowhere to be found.

"Watch me fuck your daughter, old man."

"N-not on my watch," nahihirapan na tumayo ang daddy niya.

Her whole body was trembling with fear. Her eyes widened when his father pulled out a pocket knife habang ang lalaki naman ay may dalang baril.

"P-put t-the gun down... Please... I'll be good, j-just d-don't harm my father... I'll be your w-wife if t-that's what y-you want..." Nanginginig ang boses niya habang nakikiusap sa lalaki.

"No way, I won't let you have my daughter... Tama na ang isa." His father firmly said.

Bago pa siya makapagsalita, his father did something she wasn't expecting him to do... Her father became a criminal in a blink of an eye. And it was all for her. To save her. Her lips trembled when the man pulled the trigger and shoot her father. Sabay ang dalawa na bumagsak. Her Dad smiled at her for the last time.

"I l-love you and your twin... K-Krizzia. Live your life to the f-fullest... Be a t-teacher..."

That was her father last word. Her heart sank. Na blanko ang utak niya habang pinapanood ang ama na unti unting bawian ng buhay. She was just there, sitting and crying, she's hurt but she's too numb to feel it.

Last week, she was mourning for her sister. And Now, she's mourning for her Father. Ang dalawang pinaka mahalagang tao sa buhay niya ang nawala sa harap niya mismo. Nasaksihan niya kung paano sila namatay at wala siyang nagawa.

"Now that your father is gone. From now on, you're going to do what I will say. I'm doing this so you can have a better life, para hindi ka mahirapan, para hindi mo maranasan ang maghintay na maibigay ang gusto mo." Her mother said.

She was mourning for her father and twin for months and when she came back to her work, everything turns up side and down. She was diagnosed with PTSD. And her mother started to control her and live a hellish life, na nakasanayan na niya habang tumatagal.

Not until she met a man named Ian.