When I was in high school, I always dreamed of meeting the prince of my dreams. Wondering who will he be and when will I meet him. Listening to cute lovely songs makes me wish there was someone for me right there and then. Although after I graduated high school, the feeling of wanting to get married just wasn't ready. It felt somewhere between half I wanted somebody to talk and share my feelings and half of it I still wanted to be free to do the things I love to do. Plus, hearing stories from my relatives made me hesitate to not think about marriage right away. I decided at that time to wait a bit more. Probably a few more years, I think I can be ready. 

I know that fresh out of high school, I was still young and wanted to experience more than just love. I wanted to do things that I love and spend my time right and hope that I don't waste my time. 

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A few years passed by and I start to think more when my relatives ask me, "When will you have a boyfriend" or "When will you get married". What kind I say? That I couldn't find anyone? I just smile back and reply simply that maybe when I meet someone then I will know if he's the one. You never know. Anything can happen, right? 

But, it still made me worry. With a young girl like me, never loved anyone before neither has been in a relationship, would I be able to find someone for me? 

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There are a few couple Vietnamese celebrities that I admired. I admired them for the love that they had for each other and every hardship they made it through together holding each other hands. Just knowing that as long as there's still love, nothing else matters. Who wouldn't want that happy ending, right? It can be hard at first but if you strive to team up and be as one then nothing's impossible. 

There are people out there who get married and after a while, their marriage starts to fall apart. How much they try to mend the love that they had in the beginning, it just wasn't there anymore. I got worried every time I hear a similar story like that, and wondered what if the same thing happen to me? What will I do? 

Oh, but what am I saying? That's like saying some bad luck. Right? 

Everyone has their own fate. Each and every person is special, it all depends on the choice you make whether it's right or wrong. When you meet the right person at the right time, nothing can break you apart from that person. It's fate that you're lucky to meet the right one for you. Although if by chance, you come across a person where at first they promise they would do this and that but after a while they forget and the love that was there begins to fade. Now, you wouldn't want that to happen, right. That's why you got to make the right choice, and remember this: 

"Think before you act." 

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If I get married, what will happen? Will it be a happy ending or a tragedy? 

They say that when a girl gets married means that they are ready to begin and everything that they got, they put their trust in the guy that they believe will make them happy. 

Will I be able to find my happiness with the one I love? 

There are nights I dreamed of myself getting married. Let me tell you. Get ready OK? 

"I was wearing a wedding dress, standing next to my groom. I was in a church, don't know the setting was the church. Anyways, the groom finished saying the three words that you would hear, 'Yes I do'. The groom turned towards me waiting for my turn. I didn't get a glance at the groom, it was very blurry to me. Just when I was about to say those three words, the doors opened wide and a guy yelled out saying that it's a trap. Then he ran over to grabbed my hand and took me out of there. Usually, the bride would be scared but I didn't scream or anything. I just let him take me away. Like I trusted this guy more than the groom. After that, I woke up."

Was it because I kept wondering when I would get married? Or is it some kind of warning? Should I believe it? It seems real to me. Some say dreams do come true, sometimes. I don't know, you'll never know when something unexpected comes by and you'll realize that you're ready for it. After I had that dream, I thought about it then a few days later I forgot about it. 

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Every year, when it's preparation for the Lunar New Year, I would take the time to video chat my family in Viet Nam. Most of my aunt and uncles, usually my aunts would ask me the same question every year:

"Do you have a boyfriend?" 

"When will you get married?" or "When will you get a boyfriend?" 

I just smiled cause I didn't know what to say about it. I just haven't found him yet. 

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Here's another dream about getting married: 

"The setting is at a friend's house. It's one of my mom's friends. They are just talking and enjoying themselves. Then her friend mention they had a son, and he was like two years older than me. They were planning to matchmake me with him. Their son came out and right when I saw him, it was like love at first sight. Though no one saw that, only I felt it. The guy came up to my mom and said that he likes me just for meeting the first time. My mom says, 'You like her? I give her to you.' I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I woke up before I got to know what happened next."  

I mean, it was a dream after all. But this one seems real, like really real. I wonder, will it happen like this?

Those two dreams that I had made me wonder if I'm ready for marriage but also worried. And every time I wake up, one question would always me think over and over. It was: 

"Get married?"

What does this mean? Does it mean that I might be ready to think about marriage? 

How about you? Would you get married?