"ABHIMAAN'S POV"

You're bad. You're worst. You're just dark.

Her words rang in my ears constantly.

"Arrghhh" I screamed as I punched the punching bag again which force.

Since last two hours, I was in gym punching the shit out of the bag because I can't let my anger come out on people.

It's fatal.

I again saw mom in tears, she was going to repeat every single moment which happened an year ago. And I couldn't afford that. I fucking couldn't afford my mom going through another heart attack.

And the problem was the questions arising in Vrinda's mind.

I can't answer them. I'm bounded. I can't tell her anything. Neither I want to tell her anything because she'll be leaving after some months.

"Bhai, bhai lis.. " The faint voice deepened as I saw Aditya coming and looking at me shocked.

"What have you done" He whispered looking around the mess I created.

I took long strides towards him and glared him.

"Didn't I tell you, didn't I ask you for one thing. That mom shouldn't talk about it again." I screamed

"What " He asked

"Mom was about to speak of the incident to Vrinda. And we both know what happens when she goes back into it" I raged

"That's all because of Vrinda. She can't sit quietly for even five more months." I added angrily

"Bhai stop it. " Aadi said

"Bhabhi just need answers. She asked a simple question to me too that how.. What happened to dad. You didn't even find it necessary to tell her that. You didn't even tell her that you we.." He was saying when I stopped him.

"I don't find it necessary to tell her" I scowled

"Yes the woman who didn't let me wake you up yesterday night even though her shoulder was aching because you were sleeping peacefully doesn't deserve to know right" He spoke and I looked at him this time.

Today when I woke up, we were on the couch, her head buried in my neck and arm wrapped around me.

So, it wasn't her, it was me who slept.

"She cares for you bhai. Stop pushing her away. For God's sake, stop pushing away someone who's close to you." He sighed and I kept my hand on his shoulder.

"She's going to leave us after five months Aadi. Stop getting attached to her so much that it'll hurt you and mom both when she leaves" I said

"And why are you so sure that she'll leave. What if she stays" He asked

"She won't. So better neither mom nor you get attached to her" I again repeated when he sighed turning to leave but stopped at the door and turned back looking at me.

"And bhai what about you? Getting attached to her. What will you do then? Will you be able to let her go" He dropped the question and I was stunned.

He's saying anything. I won't get attached to her. Never. I know the consequences of it hence I won't. I can control it all. I know how to. And I'll do it after her too.

But as I said that, her face, her tears again came infront of my eyes.

Shit!! Damn it!! Stop it Abhimaan. Stop thinking about her so much.

As I went back to my room, I saw her picking some clothes out of the bag. They were my hoodies.

"What are you doing " I asked and she stilled for a second but then without even looking at me she continued her work.

"I'm talking to you Vrinda. Why are you segregating the stuff" I asked again but it went to deaf ears.

"Vrinda what the hell. Look at me" I snapped

"Bas yahi aata hai. Chilaana Or cheekhna ( That's all you know. Yelling and screaming ) " She muttered

"Idhar dekh ke bolo (Look here and speak) " I demanded

"Nahi bolna. (Don't wanna say). Not to you for sure" She replied closing her bag and stood up wearing her coat and walked towards door when I held her hand pulling her back to me.

"Ouch" She shrieked as her face hit my chest. Her hairs flying loose from that loose bun she made while working.

And she smelled lavenders. While I did what I do when she's this near me.

Inhaling the smell of hairs, I looked at her.

"Where are you going" I asked

"Clause no 2, both parties aren't responsible to tell their where abouts to anyone. If we're sticking to the clauses then we must stick to each one of them Mr. Kapoor" She said looking angrily at me.

"And so are we. But then we decided mutually to tell each other about the whereabouts. You've broken it twice already. " I countered

"Mutually. " She scoffed

"There's nothing mutual between you and me Abhimaan. You've proved it this morning. Yelling at me without a reason. I know dad's wasn't.." She was speaking when I held her arm pulling her more closer angrily.

"Don't" I warned as she hissed when I loosened my grip on her arm.

"See. See this" She pointed out

"This is the way you treat me. You don't want mom and Aadi to get attached to me right. Then you know what's the solution? We living at distance. We all. It's your family right. According to you it doesn't mean anything to me, I shouldn't get involved in your family " She pressed the family word angrily.

"Then Mr. Abhimaan Kapoor, it'll be more good if you stay with your family, and I stay away from you all" She concluded and I could feel her shivering.

I looked at her and touched my palm to her forehead.

"Calm down" I whispered and she tried pushing me away.

"Go away Abhimaan. You've got your solution. I understand you don't want a temporary person to get attached to your family. Neither to know about your family. Let's keep it this way. Let's keep it formal and simple ." She said

"Shut up Vrinda. Chup raho thoda. (Be silent for a while). Did you take meds. And calm down. Your breaths are getting uneven " I told

"Behave formal Abhimaan. We're not even friends who need to show care to each other " She said pulling her arm to herself and taking the bag again moved towards the door.

"Though, my parents invited you all for dinner tonight, but you need not to come if you don't want to. I'll make an excuse. But yet, Do come. I don't feel that my family getting attached to you will be a problem to me" She affirmed

"It's better that way. And don't you worry. I'm not going to get attached to any of it" I said

"Thankyou so much for your kind concern. And yes, I'm leaving for my parents. Inform me when you are leaving for NY." She declared and went away closing a door with thud she left.

I sighed sitting on my bed pressing my forehead.

How should I make her understand things. It's not possible. It'll ruin things more.

After a while, I went downstairs and we all had our lunch, mom and Aadi didn't speak a word.

Probably they were already attached to her. The eyes every while going to the empty chair near mine.

"We're going to Vrinda's for dinner. And Abhimaan not a word of denial. If you don't want to go, then be here. I and Aadi are going" Mom stated and I nodded.

"I've some work. I'll be not able to make it" I muttered and she looked at me and resumed her dinner without a word.

I straightway went to my room after lunch and looked into the soft copies of documents that Eleanor sent.

This Charan, he was a goon at the starting days. Very old Cases filed in Delhi, Mumbai and Ajmer for robberies and three murders. Then he came in contact with a politician and joined..

What the fuck. He was in dad's party ten years ago. Then switched the party. How is this possible that dad didn't know about his background.

I dialled the party head now Mr. Advani.

"Uncle, This Shantanu Charan, he was in Our party ten years back. Why did he leave it" I asked

"He didn't leave Abhimaan. The party heads decided to not let him be in the party. His finance was strong that was the only reason your dad was trusting him despite his past background. But then again, once when he won from our party, he did a small scam. So he was thrown out of the party" He told

"And then he joined hands with opposition and became finance minister an year back" He added

"And what about now. He was dispositioned . I'm sure there are internal sources" I asked

"Bastard was doing scams again. And it came out this time" He told and I looked at his son's picture.

"What about his son" I asked

"That we've no idea. Your dad and Shantanu shared a good bond at the time he won your dad's trust. But again it broke" He told

"But why are you asking it" He questioned

"I've a case. His son's in NY prison" I told

"I'm sure that bastard is guilty" He said

"I too think that uncle. Okay, I'll see you later" I told and cut the call.

Looking around the files, I told one of my man to look into the matter but my mind was going just to one thing. Dad and Charan being friends at a time.

I can't yet prove anything. And I can't go and hold the neck of anyone until I have a damn good proof.

Not when...Ugh. Hoodies !!

That's fucking irrelevant .

I'm working and I'm getting distracted without her even being here.

God, why that one face interrupt me in everything. Even my work too now.

I sighed and looked at the time. Seven pm. I was working since past four hours reading all the files and reviewing other cases from here.

"Mr. Solly, it's a crime case that Eleanor would brief you about. Get to the work on it" I commanded

"Okay sir. And we've won the case again for that Celeb suicide case" He informed

"Good work Mr. Solly." I praised and cut the call.

As I went down stairs, I saw mom and Aadi ready to leave.

"We're leaving. You can sulk here alone. Bye bhaiya" Aadi sang and I passed him a tight smile.

"Peace" I said and they looked at each other and shrugged.

"Let's go Aadi" Mom nudged him and they left.

Wow!! I said, don't get attached to her.

Not Me!!

Sighing I went back to my room and opened my Mac book working on some cases again. Meanwhile I got the mail from Eleanor about the first hearing of Charan's case too.

It was after four months.

We've time in hands.

I ordered myself a meal and went downstairs.

"Lucas, Lucas" I called going out seeing him over call.

"Lucas" I spoke again and he turned cutting the call.

"Sorry sir...my girl friend" He mumbled

"Is Elliot with Vrinda" I asked and he nodded

"Who's with mom and Aadi" I enquired

"I've sent security sir. They've reached " He told

"We're leaving tomorrow. Mom's staying for a while with Aadi. Get a security plan for here. Knit a web" I ordered

"You'll have it right tomorrow morning sir. " He obliged and I nodded.

I went back inside and looked around. Sighing I sat turning on the TV scrolling through different channels getting bored and at the end turning it off too.

I turned on the you tube on tv and started playing songs again.

O... Ek Ladki Ko Dekha To Aisa Laga
Ek Ladki Ko Dekha To Aisa Laga. . .
Jaise Khilta Gulab...
Jaise Shayar ka Khwab...
Jaise Ujali Kiran..
Jaise Bun Mein Hiran...
Jaise Chandani Raat...
Jaise Narmi Ki Baat...
Jaise Mandir Mein Ho...
Ek Jalta Diya...

Ho.. Ek ladki ko dekha to aisa..

Damn!! I had no one to speak with.

Let's be very clear Abhimaan, you don't speak even when everyone's present.

You initiate talking with just her. And she's not here.

So you're missing her. You don't have her to talk with you.

No I ain't.

Stop lying to me. I'm your part only. And I know the truth.

Okay fine. Fine. Yes I'm missing her again.

Yes, I miss her every single time she's away from me. But it's just an addiction. What it takes, some twenty days. The addiction too will get over.

I agree what I said to her today was wrong. I never wanted to spill those words. But if I don't do that, she'll not only get attached to each one here, she'll be hurt at the end more.

I don't know if I should hate her or not. Even if I try, I couldn't. I tried it so hard to resist it but I couldn't. She's like a magnet pulling me closer to herself everytime she looks at me with her almond eyes. The smell of her hairs is getting me mad. And every ounce of my devil gets tamed by the gentleman she deserves.

I know a lot, I do a lot & that's the reason I can't let her be near me, near any of us.

This isn't right. This isn't right when I know it's a matter of five more months. I can't involve her emotions with me. I can't let her be my weakness. I can't get her entangled in my world risking her.

Her tears pierces me from inside but then too I can't be the hand which wipes them, comfort them. I can't because once I do that, I won't be able to back off .

Why damn it!! Why it was me with whom she bumped.

It would've been someone.. Fuck No !!

The thought itself makes me angry to the extent that I can kill.

What are you Mrs. Vrinda Abhimaan Kapoor!

A beautiful woman is sure an enchantress. But you, you're hypnotizing. And I'm afraid that once I hold you, I will go on a rampage , but won't let you go in any condition.

Yet, fucking yet I know I have to let you go. Because I can't be selfish with you. You deserve more. And I..

I can't be that more.

But I can't deny this that...

Every single time you cry because of someone, I want to ruin the world for you.

And every single time you cry because of me,

I Want To Ruin Myself For You !!

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Someone's missing his wife after being the idiot.

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