Canary led Lapis, Amethyst and I through the old house, The two former eventual branching off into a separate hall, leaving me alone to show Amethyst around my old house.

"So your mom." Amethyst said. "She's kinda scary."

"I know." I said. Every muscle in my body felt tense, like she was still watching me.

Amethyst hit my shoulder playfully. "Hey, it can't be that bad, can it?"

I tenderly touched the place Amethyst has hit me. "I don't know..... I don't know what to tell her about us.... or about school.... or anything....."

Amethyst sighed. "Don't tell me she's-"

"No, she's pretty cool with lgbt stuff.... I just don't think she'd approve of me taking time from my studies for a relationship.... she's pretty serious about that stuff...." I trailed off.

"Well, you're an adult. She can't tell you what to do with your life." Amethyst responded.

I sighed and stared at my feet. "I know... she's just been always there.... telling me I'm not enough...."

Without a sound, Amethyst moved close to me and wrapped my arm in hers. "You are enough- hell, you're more than enough. You're mom doesn't see it but I do."

I moved only a few steps closer to Amethyst, and our bodies collided. We fell to the ground with a medium sized crash. I found myself on my hands and knees, on top of Amethyst. Our bodies were only inches apart.

Amethyst didn't move in the slightest, neither of us did. Instead, we stood still, gazing into each other's eyes. That lasted about twenty seconds before I realized the awkwardness of the situation and immediately jumped off of Amethyst and collided backwards. "I'msosorry" I blurt out, the words flowing into each other.

Amethyst sat up and brushed her hair out of her eyes. "It's ok...."

I stayed on the other side of the room for a few more seconds, then stood up and walked to where Amethyst was standing.

"I.... I really don't know what to do...." I said quietly.

"Guess we'll have to figure it out." Amethyst said.

I took in a few deep breaths, then started to walk down the hall, Amethyst following and keeping pace with me. We reached a closed door, with a sign on it that read, 'Peri's room- Do not enter' in neon green marker. Before entering, I ran my fingers down the doorframe. Then, taking in a breath, I opened the door.

The room was just as I had left it- mostly empty, save for the corner of the room with my bookshelves, desk, and computer. The queen sized bed had the same olive green linens and ugly and unnecessary throw pillows that my mother always insisted on having. A dim evening light shone through the thick curtains that masked the floor to ceiling windows. The room did have a beautiful view of Mother's estate, but I always kept the windows shut to make the room seem smaller. As a young child, the open space frightened me.

As I stepped into the room, I noticed how cold it was in here compared to the rest of the house. Despite my being gone for less than a year, the room already seemed dead.

I turned around to see Amethyst, standing in the doorway. "You can come in." I called, right as she started to walk into the bedroom.

"I was thinking we could... er.... stay here together." I stuttered. "The house gets really cold at night and- and I don't want you- Uh......"

"Sure." Amethyst said. "You know where that Canary took our stuff?"

"Probably the guest rooms. I can go get it if you want."

"Sure." Amethyst said as she say down on my bed.

As I walked out of the room, my heart was racing and my head was in the clouds.