Y/N's pov

I want my kisses back from you, Kisses back, I want my kisses back I'm takin' all my kisses back I want my kisses back from you  Give me the hello's and goodbyes And pack up every morning and goodnight I want the sunrises and moons  

Lauren Jauregui - girl who broke my heart, my first love, my heart, my word and more. All of our friends said that we were perfect for each other, I believed that too, but not anymore. I wish I could turn back time and take all of my 'I love you', all my kisses, all of our touches, every morning and every night spent together back from her.

 So this is what goodbyes are said for But I don't even know you no more. Well, you crawl on your begging knees "Oh, don't hate me, don't hate me, please" You want me to forgive, forget you

She begged me for her forgiveness so many times, called me, texted me, even talked to my best friend to talk to me. 

Laur cheated on me and I will never forgive her for that. Lauren said that he didn't mean anything to her and that she loves me, isn't that what all cheaters say when they get caught? Funny. But how many times I don't her that I could never forgive a cheating bastard and my words didn't mean anything, because she did it either way.  

I want to hate her, but I can't, I could never hate the girl I still love, even after what she did to me. I cried myself to sleep for 3 months, took medicine to keep me sane. The only person who was there for me and I will always be thankful that she helped me is Camila.

 As easy as these lips impress you, And undress what you said was mine, No more lying, no  

Lauren told me so many times that she belongs to me and no one else. A lie. Her body didn't belong just to me, it belonged to him too. He touched the parts which I thought belonged to me and only me.

She told me that she loves me and only me. Another lie. He got her love too. I saw her text messages to him, Lauren told him that she loves him more times that she told me. 

I can't even think of lies that Lauren told me, there are so many. At least she can't lie to me anymore

 All the sweeter nothing's I said, Way your legs would cross me in bed, Motion pictures you took of us ,Lost the color, your cheeks were blush  

I think about our memories together, if there were real or she was faking them. All those pictures that we took, was her smile real or did she put it on for show, is her smile more genuine when she is him him. Is she happier when she lays with him in bed together? Than when Lauren was cuddled up with me? 

Our future is a memory at best, Don't bother trying to reach or connect, Like the shade of your lipstick font, You were put on  

Maybe I still think about what would of happened if I hadn't caught her or what if she hadn't cheated on me. Maybe just maybe we would still be together. But everything happens for a reason, but I just sometimes wish I knew the reason. 

If I had the chance to get back together with her, I wouldn't. A cheater will always be a cheater. I don't want to talk to her, I don't want her to contact me, Lauren hurt me too much. I can find someone better than her.

Now, I want my kisses back from you, I'm takin' all my kisses back from you  

I want my kisses back from her, so I could give them to someone that loves me.