Chim 2 days ago
Jeoooooooon

Chim 2 days ago
Where you beeeeeeeeeen

Chim Just now
I have something to tell you it's urgent

Jimin sighed and locked his phone. He looked at himself in the mirror and ran a hand through his freshly dyed hair. He took a picture and sent it in the chat, hoping Jungkook would've answered by then, but he didn't.

He looked back at his reflection inspecting his body. He pulled his sweatshirt up to see his torso and noticed how faded his muscle lines were.

Right away, he dropped to the floor, doing some quick abs workout and deciding he will start exercising everyday when he wakes up.

He suddenly heard a notification from his phone and quickly clicked it, but it was just the boys talking on the group. He doesn't know why he absolutely wants to chat with Jungkook to be honest. Maybe he missed him because they haven't been in contact for quite a bit, while they used to talk frequently before.

He got a second notification and lazily dragged his eyes to it. The name he saw however made his stomach tickle again, an odd feeling of excitement he's had to deal with a few times now.

Jeon009
👍

He was a bit disappointed, he somehow expected more.

Chim
That's all I get??
I thought I heard something about nicknames and whatnot.

He did not get a response, not then, not later, making his shoulders slump.

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Jimin had just woken up, it was a regular Saturday and the weather was still not great. It had rained a bit during the night and the sky was cloudy, hopefully they'll get a few sunny days soon. At this point it was playing on his mood too.

He grabbed his phone and slid down the notification bar, checking his social media and noticing something that made his eyebrows arch. Jeon texted him. 

Jimin recently came into terms that he indeed does feel some sort of admiration for the older. He appreciates his personality and enjoys spending time with him. It's probably because he hangs out with him way more than the other college students. Well, used to hang out, at least.

Jeon009 11:53pm
Are you home?

All of a sudden, the smile on his face dropped and his eyebrows knit. Why would Jungkook send him a text like that so late at night, was he in town? This was different. Jungkook was specifically asking for him and he hates himself for sleeping early. He quickly propped himself on his elbow and shot a reply.

Chim
Hey sorry I fell asleep
I'm home yes
Jungkook?

Just as he expected, there were no more replies during that day. He did his morning workout as he had promised himself, maybe by the time he gets to see Jungkook he'll have something to brag about. He did his homework as well and spend the day in because of the ugly weather.

Jeon009 10:43pm
I'll pull up in 10 okay?

This time Jimin had his notifications on maximum volume, he was biting his lips nervously when he read the message and got up from the couch to change from his pajamas.

Chim
Okay

"Where are you going?" his mom asked when she saw him dressed in black jeans, a big sweater, and combat boots.

"It's Jeon, he's been having some issues" he replied briefly and she hummed.

"Don't stay out long" she said and returned to her room.

A few minutes passed and Jimin was a little unsure about his outfit, he pulled a couple more sweaters and was still deliberating when his phone lit up again. He sighed, staying right the way he was and leaving through the front door. He saw Jungkook's car parked right in front of his house, with the older inside on his phone, seemingly texting somebody.

After knocking on the window, he opened the car door with a bright smile on his face, clearly happy to see him. Jungkook was still looking down, finishing his text when Jimin was fiddling with his seatbelt.

"Hi" Jimin said, noticing how Jungkook's smile seems so tired. He made a mental note not to be so energetic with him that night, he probably just needs to chill and talk.

"Love the pink" Jungkook replied, starting to drive off the neighborhood.

The younger looked away and chose not to reply, just leaving it at that. He noticed they were driving in the same direction as the secret spot, then turned to Jungkook whose eyes were focused on the road and sighed quietly.

After a few more minutes of complete silence with not even music playing in the background, they arrived to their destination and left the car behind, walking to the little platform.

This time, Jungkook had pulled out another folding chair from his trunk, making Jimin smile at the thought. He brought an additional blanket as well for him and the other was grateful because it was much colder.

Jimin did the same thing again, using his phone's flashlight to reduce some of the darkness, then waited for the older to say something, or not. He thought if Jungkook didn't start the conversation, maybe he didn't want to have a conversation.

"Can you put some music" Jungkook broke the silence.

"Sure"

Doing as told, he picked one of his favorite playlists, not depressing, but not party music, generally RnB or pop. He locked his phone again because of the brightness and looked out over to the naked tree branches, the view that was once green and lively, looking like a fire consumed it.

"I don't know what I'm doing wrong" Jungkook suddenly said. His expression showing frustration and sadness.

"I'm so tired of fighting with her, but I don't want to let her go" he elaborated and Jimin sighed, his heart clenching slightly at the sentence, he felt bad for Jungkook.

"Talk to me Kookie, what's going on" Jimin replied, realizing it was the first time he called him that way out loud, even though he'd been thinking about the nickname since Christmas.

"She's impossible to talk to Jimin. Whenever I try to solve something she just stops over the smallest details of my words and doesn't hear anything past them. We never talk anything through and I'm restless because I don't know another way to solve issues" he said running a hand through his hair.

"She doesn't want to listen to you?"

"At first, she does. Then as soon as I try to go deeper into some topics she gets all defensive, putting the blame of our sinking relationship solely on me" he replied "It's unfair to me because I'm not even trying to point fingers, I'm just trying to get over this" he bounced his leg in frustration.

Jimin suddenly saw the image of himself putting a hand on that leg and soothing it to a stop. His eyebrows twitched for a second, was that a normal thought? Is that what I should do? He wondered.

"Jeon... Honestly, this is taking a very toxic turn you know?" Jimin tried to reason with him but he didn't react "I respect that you love her, I can hear it, but sometimes letting go is a form of love too" he added.

"I don't think I can, cupcake" Jungkook said and Jimin pursed his lips thoughtfully, the words taking a second to register in his mind. When they did, Jimin's face turned to the taller who had his eyes closed and head rested on the back of the chair.

He let his eyes wander on the outline of his profile, his black hair falling back and his sharp jawline. They were barely a few inches away from each other but Jimin wished they were closer to see him better.

"Have you tried" he breathed out, not sure where he was going with this conversation all of a sudden.

"I... Don't want to" Jungkook admitted and he sighed.

He chose not to say anything more because he knew Jungkook got his point clearly the first time. He instead chose to look away not to be tempted to appease him again upon witnessing his defeated demeanor.

At that point Jimin got lost in his own thoughts, he felt a weight on his chest but he didn't know where it came from or why it was there. He was feeling uneasy, it was like Jungkook's emotions were transferred to him too.

"Have you ever been in love?" Jungkook asked, locking eyes with the younger and boring them into his soul almost. Jimin felt his mind freeze, it froze because of the way the other was staring at him as if waiting for a specific reply, or maybe because of the question itself that he had no clue how to answer.

"Have you?" Jimin deflected, not able to resist the urge to get closer anymore and sliding his chair towards the other one. He didn't break eye contact though because he felt like it was important for the topic.

"I am. Now answer my question" Jungkook demanded again with a slight encouraging smile.

"What does it mean to be in love?" he asked again before giving his final answer. Jungkook held his undivided attention even though he doesn't even like speaking about these things. He wasn't the type to think about love or dream about it, he was more the type to say if it happens it happens and go with the flow.

"To be in love is... Wonderful" Jungkook started "It means that there is a person that you admire, that you respect and wish the best for with your whole heart. When you're in love, everything that person does is perfect all of a sudden" he elaborated, keeping his eyes on Jimin but it seemed like he wasn't exactly looking at him. Jimin listened carefully and processed the words in his mind, he can't pin-point where his thoughts were leading to but he's patient enough to try.

"You listen to them, you want them to feel good, you would do anything to cheer them up and sometimes wish to take some of their pain away. Being in love makes you feel like there's another person that completes you. When you look into their eyes, you feel like they already know everything about you and it's comforting. You're not scared to talk to them, or open up because you trust them more than any other. You feel safe with them. You long for them when they're not there and feel the need to be closer and closer to them until you possibly can't. So, have you?" he finished, his gaze regaining focused on the younger who was completely lost.

He was lost in the words, lost in the small smile Jungkook had on his face talking about it, lost in his eyes and lost in his own feelings. His heart was beating so fast he thought it would jump out of his chest. His mind was running miles trying to figure out some important piece of a puzzle he's been assembling since Jungkook started.

What do I answer? I felt that, didn't I. Who was it for, what do I tell him, does he know something I don't, why is he looking at me like that?

"No" he lied, he'd rather say that than possibly have to answer any more specific questions about it. Maybe he was in love with some girl in the past and didn't realize it.

The taller chuckled and nodded, he absolutely noticed Jimin's deep blush and how he was fidgeting so much now. Jungkook thinks the younger felt at least half those things and just doesn't want to admit it. That reaction also leads to think Jimin wasn't even in a relationship with the person. That's okay, he will realize in due time and wish he'd asked her out sooner, he said to himself.

"Don't let that person pass you by, kid" he simply said, turning back to the scenery.