Thursday, July 8, 2021

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If there's one thing these past nightmare/hellish months of quarantine and Covid have taught me, it's that life can change in an instant. 

This morning, I was genuinely excited and happy... and then it just shut off (and I may know why but I can't say because I'm not hurting someone today). I left a call with 2 of my partners and went off to lunch & crafting with my grandma, and mostly stayed slightly uncomfortable for all of it, up to the point when we made these sun catcher things. I'll admit, I thought they'd be stupid at first. But then, I realized that they're actually pretty fun to make and I want to make more of them! 

Then I sat down afterwards and started on my driver's shit when oh wow, the internet's suddenly struggling and my parents are yelling at me and the website's not loading and my mood basically went from semi-okay to absolutely shitty in a minute. And that's where I've been for the past couple hours. And I've cut myself off of discord to try and not force myself to act like I'm fine when I'm not, not get caught up in what's going on, and start to feel like an outsider which is basically inevitable with my mindset plus the chaos. 

So um, I'm gonna go watch some fluffy videos and maybe cry my eyes out, we'll see.

Stay safe kiddos, remember to breathe

Love you all <3<3<3

~Ink