♯⠀⠀chapter twenty-eight.

feelings     ⋆·˚ ༘ *

babe 💓
i talked to sebastian
he didn't think he did anything wrong

addi 💞
he didn't!
plus liv doesn't blame him
she gets that people take things out
of context a lot
i told her to text him anyway

babe 💓
yeah
it just sucks

addi 💞
yeah ...
you ever think we're going to regret it

babe 💓
regret what?

addi 💞
letting the public know about us

babe 💓
i'm not going to lie and say it's going to
be all sunshine and rainbows 24/7
there are going to be hard times where
being in the public eye is stressful and
might be some strain on us and our
relationship but i promise to always
try and communicate with you how
it effects me and i can only hope you'll
do the same

addi 💞
i'm going to try too, i don't want anything
as silly as what the public thinks and says
to change us

babe 💓
glad we're on the same page

addi 💞
me too

ADDI FELT THE WEIGHT IN her chest lighten up as she read what chris had said. the conversation made her think more about the other things that had been on her mind. it was weird, her and chris had only been seeing each other for a few weeks officially, and had only been friends for a little longer than that before, and yet the idea of losing him made her heart tear.

it felt as if she had known him her whole life, but as the same time she knew she didn't meet him until she needed him. she smiled as she stood from her bed and walked down the hallway towards the stairs. she only stopped when she walked past mikey's room and saw him curled up on his bed like he used to do when he was a kid.

she pocketed her phone as she stepped towards his door, knocking lightly. she barley registered his mumbled, "come in." quickly she moved further into the room and sat next to him, wrapping her arm over his shoulder. it wasn't till then that addi saw mikey's phone open to a picture of him and cody. she frowned at it.

"mikey? is everything okay?"

he just shrugged, never really looking away from the picture.

"did something happen between you and cody?"

addi had noticed he hadn't been around the apartment as much the last week or so, but she always just assumed that the two were out doing things instead. neither had said anything to her about something being wrong or fighting, and usually when they had the occasional fight they always texted addi checking up on the other through her.

mikey finally looked up at her and she immediately caught on to the unshed tears in his eyes and the distraught look on his face. she felt her stomach sink and whispered "oh mikey..."

he shook his head, and she waited till he was ready to speak. he sighed and leaned further into addison before starting. "cody hasn't done anything, i promise. i've been avoiding him." addi gaped at him. "why on earth would you be doing that?"

it was then that one of the tears fell and rolled down his cheeks. he turned back to his phone and swiped at it a couple times before turning the screen towards addi, on it was a group with a conversation from a while ago.

nurse
is that like a thing

baby brother
what do you mean is that a thing

nurse
uh nothing
never mind
forget it

baby brother
no wait i wanna know what you meant

nurse
well it's just
please don't be offended when i say this
i don't know you that well
so i wasn't sure if you and cody were
together
because like i didn't want to just assume
that you were straight
and you're always with him so i thought
maybe ??
i didn't mean to be rude

baby brother
oh
uh no you weren't rude i get why
you would ask that
but no we're not together
i'm straight

addi remembered that conversation, but she couldn't understand what it had to do with why mikey would be ignoring cody. she looked back at up mikey and he had this expression on her face like she was begging addi to understand. her frown deepened, "i'm sorry mikey i don't..." she trailed off when he dropped his head to his hands. she just pulled him closer and rested her forehead on his head.

it was moments like these that addison felt transported back to when she was only 15, holding an 8 year old mikey who had just been yelled at by their father for dropping a plate in the kitchen.

"talk to me, mikey. please." she murmured to him, but didn't push any further.

it took a few more minutes for mikey to talk to her again. "i didn't think much about it at first, like it was whatever. but then the next time i saw cody it was all i could think about. i kept asking myself how many people thought we were together? but that quickly turned into me thinking about how it didn't matter if they did because i didn't mind. then i started to wonder why i didn't mind. that was until i realized i liked the idea of people thinking we were together. i liked thinking people pictured us as more than just friends." mikey pulled his head up and looked at addi. "what does that make me?"

addi bit her lip as she thought about the best way to approach this situation. she rubbed her hand up and down mikey's arm. she gave him a small, hopefully reassuring, smile before stating, "it makes you a person who has feelings. granted, you might not have realized until someone pushed you in the right direction, but that doesn't make them any less valid."

mikey still had silent tears rolling down his cheeks as the two were talking, and addison softly reached out to wipe them away. "i didn't even know i liked guys addi, yet here i am thinking about kissing my best friend."

addi nodded. "do you not like the idea of liking guys?" she questioned. mikey sighed before shaking his head. "it's not that i'm not okay with being gay or whatever i work out i am, it's just kinda overwhelming to come to the realization that all of a sudden i'm different then i was before and now i'm harboring these secret feelings for the one person i tell everything."

"it's normal to feel overwhelmed when everything comes crashing onto your shoulders all of a sudden. but you just said yourself that cody is the person you tell everything to, if you start to shut him out and not talk to him he's going to think it's something he did. maybe talk to him, and i'm not saying you need to tell him how you feel if you're not ready, but just tell him that you're feeling overwhelmed and things haven't been the same these past couple weeks and you might need time. that way you don't have to think about worrying him." she explained.

mikey nodded at her before wiping at the tears at his face. he pulled her into a proper hug afterwards, then stood up.

she raised an eyebrow at him "where are you going?" she asked. mikey moved around the room as he grabbed his stuff, shouting over his shoulder while walking at the door "to talk to cody! keep up!"

she laughed to herself at her brothers antics before getting off the bed and pulling out her phone.

ads
mikey's on his way to your house
he might be too distracted to tell you that

my fav
is he okay?
he hasn't been answering my texts

ads
he'll explain
just remember not to rush him