37 | madness

So, we are back in the apartment. We never talked after the conversation with Alex. We were too busy drowning in our own thoughts and I had a feeling that whatever we were going to talk about is going to end bad.

I sat myself comfortably on the sofa and he sat beside me. I placed the book on the table and studied it. There were so many carvings. I examined the holes and I found names on it.

"Helena...Ophelia...Svetlana," I whispered and Klaus looked over at the book to see the names too. It must be the names of the three sisters.

We were told by Alex that we needed a vampire, a witch and a werewolf to find the stones. Also, we should hurriedly do it before anyone tries to stop us.

"Sweetheart," he whispered looking at me. The way he said it just broke my insides.

"I know," I said and he kept quiet again. Then, after a few awkward and suffocating moments, he turned me over to face him.

"Listen," he said, "I don't want to do this," he added firmly and I nodded knowing he would say that.

But, I want to Klaus.

"I want to," I said and he nodded, knowing that I would say that. He turned away refusing to see me. He looked at the book. He turned away from it and then he stood up. He went to the bed room and slammed the door shut. I flinched at the sound and I knew I had made him angry.

I stayed there for a while, letting myself calm down and went inside, he wasn't there. He was not there. I checked the shower and it wasn't lit either. I saw the window open and I knew where he would be.

I quickly showered and wore a neat green dress. Then, I jumped down the window that Klaus opened. I made my way to the nearest bar.

Once, I reached there, I saw him sitting on one of the stools having a drink while a bartender was giving him seductive looks. I became angry at once. After, I entered the bar, I could see him looking at me through his peripheral vision. I took a seat beside him and gave the bartender a dirty look.

My man.

The bartender surprisingly didn't back down. She glared at me and asked me for my order. I asked for a cup of vodka and she went away. Klaus came closer to me and let his right hand entwine mine. I relaxed immediately.

Maybe things aren't that bad.

"I'm sorry I slammed the door, I was just really angry, I'm sorry. Are you angry with me? Please don't be. I'm really sorry," he muttered under his breath in a pleading way, pouring all his emotions into it, and I gave him a kiss on his cheek.

He smiled and kissed my forehead. Just like that, all the tension was gone.

My cup of vodka came and I gulped it down.

"Klaus, you know we still need to talk about it," I said and he looked away.

"There's nothing to say, I thought it was over, we are not going to search the stones," he said and I sighed.

"Why? Why not!" I exclaimed and this time it was his turn to sigh. "You want to give up everything?" he asked and searched my face for any leakage of emotion. But, I held my head strong enough and he turned away again.

"What's the point? I want a normal life," I said and he scoffed.

"Isn't this normal?" he asked and I shrugged. "I don't call this normal," I said.

"Why? Can't you see? Only when you turned into a vampire, you became strong, you became independent, you became powerful, it gave you so many advantages - " he was cut of by me.

"And disadvantages, Klaus," I said as I realised that we have caught quite the attention from the tables near us.

"You wake up everyday knowing that you won't be able to age, that you won't be able to have a family, that you won't be able to finally get hold of the Senior Citizen Card," I said and stopped myself when I knew I wasn't making a point anymore.

"Klaus, you told me once that you wanted to be human," I said as I flashedback to the day when he was telling me about the hummingbird story, it was beautiful. I saw him looking down, ignoring me.

"That was once and only once Caroline," he said and stood up, turning his face away from me like he was hiding something.

"Let's go back to the apartment," he said and I followed him, my hand held tightly in his. It's nice to know that he won't let go even when we were fighting. It made me warm inside.

We reached the apartment and kept quiet again. I hated this. I wanted the usual thing we would do. Not this.

"Klaus! Please talk!" I exclaimed once we were inside. "You know it's killing both of us," I said, my chest heaving up and down.

"Caroline, it's final! We are not going," he said and I scoffed.

"No! You are not going, I am! I am going okay?" I said, my voice rising slowly and so was my frustration. Suddenly he vampire sped to me and placed me against the wall.

"I won't let you go," he whispered with so much intensity, like he was saying different things all at the same time. His bright blue eyes were darkening each second as he held me frozen with his hypnotizing eyes.

"Klaus, you know how much I want the human life," I said and pushed him away. He let himself be pushed back and we stood at about a metre distance from each other.

"Caroline, the human life, it's weak, it's miserable, I want us to stay like this," he said and I shook my head.

"No! Have you ever thought about all the humans you have ever killed? Have you ever felt guilty? Have you ever thought of repaying them? Well, now is the chance Klaus," I said and he glanced at her, an emotion flashing in his eyes but it disappeared just as quickly as it came.

"Klaus, please! I don't like humans getting hurt because of us, I don't like it," I whispered and Klaus looked at me suddenly, his eyes showing a new interest.

"Someone did something to you when you were a human," he said and became angry immediately when I remained quiet to his assumption.

"Who is it?" he asked, his fists clenching, his jaw ticking. That showed how angry he was. "WHO IS IT?" he asked again, much louder and it made my heart jump up.

"It doesn't matter okay?" I exclaimed and became quiet. "All you need to know is that he abused me by using compulsion, he drank from me, he used me for many things," I said hiding the fact that he used me for sex.

"You are hiding something," he said and I shrugged. "Tell me, Caroline," he said.

Oh! I hate it when he is all over-protective like this. It always end in a fight.

"He used me for sex okay!" I shouted and he immediately punched the wall beside him, he was trembling with anger and even I doubted for a second if I was safe right now but I let myself calm down knowing that he would kill himself rather than hurt me.

"I need to know who is it, Caroline," Klaus said, his teeth clenching, I could almost see his werewolf canines, his anger flowing off him like a freaking waterfall.

"No! Klaus," I said and stepped back. "Caroline please, I can't live with myself knowing that someone hurt you and I didn't do anything about it, please tell me Caroline so that I can teach him a lesson - "

"I have already forgiven him," I said and he looked so shocked.

"How can you forgive someone who did that to you?" he begged looking so baffled.

"Because I was being human by forgiving him," I said and he shrugged. "I don't care, someone hurt you and I am going to find out, and kill him," he said and I looked alarmed at him.
A part of me made me happy that he cared for me but another part is telling me that it is not good.

"No, no, no. no, no, NO! KLAUS! Will you please just listen to me for once?" I pleaded, my tears spilling out now and I hated being so weak.

"Caroline," he whispered as he vampire sped to me. He wiped my tears away and hugged me as I laid my head in his chest. He stroked my hair and kissed my hair.

"Klaus," I said and closed my eyes.

"I'm sorry," he said and I nodded.

"Do you really think that I don't want to be human, ever since I started loving you, I wanted to be human, do you know how it kills me knowing that I won't be able to give you children like you want, that I won't be able to grow old with you, everytime I see you, everytime I touch you, I feel that way, and I'm scared, I'm scared that If I become a human, I won't be able to protect you, I want to protect you Caroline, I want you, I need you so much, I love you, so much Caroline, and I feel like forever won't be enough, " he whispered and I felt like I was going to cry even more.

I lifted my head and stared at his eyes. I didn't feel like talking anymore. So, I softly and slowly laid my lips on his and kissed him and he kissed me back with so much passion and intensity, I almost melted. Then, he carried me to the bedroom, wiping away my tears with his thumbs.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE:

*sniff* this is so touching, *sniff* I need tissues.

I am sooo crying right now!! T.T

Klaroline ♥