Rashami's POV
It has been one  day I am out of the bigboss house and I came to stay with my mom . I kept sleeping for one whole day. My bigboss journey has gone through up and downs . It has make me more stronger and more aware regarding people. It was a good experience for me . It sorted the things which really needed to be sorted . Thanks to salman sir and devo for standing by my side in the most difficult times. Bigboss house brings me some happy moments and some very bad moments which I have neve expected to go through. He has broken me and my trust but let it be I am happy that I got to know about it at the right time . My life was a mess before bigboss . Arhaan supported me but in bigboss house I got to know who he really is and in short he was playing with me .
"Ring ring" " ring ring" my phone was ringing when I came out of my thoughts .
"Hello rash .. where are you I am calling you from the past 15 minutes " before I could say anything the person on the other side yelled at me

" Sorry I was with mom.. tell me what happened" I said as it was the only excuse that come to my mind.

" Okay.. get ready rash you have a shoot today. I agreed for the offer about which I told you yesterday" she informed me

"Jevita I don't remember which offer . Explain please" I asked her as I don't really remember anything related to it

" Rash I told you na that you have a special entry on the set of MSK with Sidharth shukla . I agreed with the offer" she informed me

" Jevi what have you done ... I don't want to go there . Please say a big no to them " I shouted with the top frequency of my voice.

" Please rash I have agreed already . It will be  good for your career as well.. "  said jevita with a pleading voice

"Okay when is the shoot" I said with a calm voice

"It is at 10:00 Am " she answered my question

"Okay  , I will be there. Also Send me location and other details about offer" I said with a calm voice
I ended the call .

I came out of the bed and I went to freshen up so that I can be calm as I have to meet him. Who can remain calm after meeting him, the real Sidharth shukla. I really need my self to get fresh so that I don't loose my temper. After getting ready I went to have breakfast with mom and I told mom about today's schedule . After having my breakfast I left for my shoot. I reached on time. I met Manish on the set. I have a small conversation with him and left to my vanity to get ready. Makeup artist started his work . After sometime I was ready for the shoot. Manish took my name and I went on the stage. I met paras and shehnaz. Paras came and hug me I really missed him and he had also missed me.  We had a conversation there. Manish asked me to have a seat. I took my seat. After sometime it was his entry . Manish called his name and he came in. He was looking superb as always . He looked at me. I give him a smile . It was getting harder for me to control my smile after seeing him. Shehnaz ran to him and hugged him . My smile suddenly disappears. The harsh reality hits my mind. My heart became sad and so does my eyes. I have a little tears in my eyes. But why should he affect me. He is no one to me. I put a beautiful smile on my face to cover the sadness. Manish asked sidharth how am I looking? Sidharth asked sana should I answer the question?  My eyes became all teary and I hope he hadn't noticed it. Sana said no  and asked him how she was looking. He laughed. I just smiled what else should I do. Manish asked sid to have a seat. Shehnaz told him not to sit with me. I again got hurt. A drop of tear  escaped from my eyes. I wiped away it immediately before anybody could have noticed . I gave a smile to shehnaz . Sidharth came towards me and  I give him a welcome by standing up. He gave me a hug . I hugged him back. It was more a torture than a hug for me , it was hurting me from inside However I think it shouldn't. We took our seat and the shoot go on. After sometime the shoot was over and I left to my vanity as I  had an interview to do . After changing my dress, I was ready to leave the vanity when I hear a knock on the door.

"Yes come in " i said without looking at the door while putting my makeup kit into my purse as I thought paras must have come to bid a good bye to me

"Hlo Rashami " he said in a straight tune . I was shocked to hear his voice . I turned to him.

"Hello, what are you doing here?" I said with a calm face while sitting on the chair.

" Can we talk" he asked without answering my question

"About what?" I again asked with a confused face as i really don't understand what he wants to talk.

"About anything, about us or we can talk about bigboss " he said with a calm smile.

" There is nothing left to talk between us. What about us? Oh don't tell me you want to talk about our bigboss journey. That was not too good to discuss. Wait what you want to discuss those ugly fights, and why you even want to talk with "Aisi ladki". Look sid there is nothing left between us .  We have no relationship now. We are no more friends or enemy. " I said him in a straightforward manner. Or I can say by taking out my anger on him

"Let's move on from that. It was our fault . We can forget it and can be good friends " said sid with a calm face

"Look sidharth I have just came out of many problems. My life is just coming back to its track after so many difficulties . Don't create problems for me. Stay away from me . It would be better for both of us." I said without making an eye contact with him.

" What problems will I create ?" He asked me . His voice was harsh now because of his anger.

" You yourself is a big problem for me. I am already in a mess. I beg you to leave me where I am and enjoy your life .  My life is a mess don't make another mess . If there will be any other problem now I will just die . Because my heart and my brain both can't take it.  I am the RD. Let me be who I am . The Rashami Desai whom world know let me be that Rashami Desai. " I said  with my eyes meeting his. My voice was filled with hurt and my eyes with tears . I have never found myself this much weaker before.

Before he could have replied I left the van and went running to my car. I said driver about the next location. I kept thinking about him  on the way.  I was done with the interviews in the evening. It was a busy day so I don't give my mind depression type material . Oh lol Rashami it sounds funny. I went to home late. Mom was waiting for me. I have my dinner and went to bed. The sleep was far away from me.

Sidharth's POV
It has been a day I left big boss .  I am really happy for my success but I am sad also I really want rashami to be on the other side with me. But she doesn't seems to be happy at all with my success . I was busy yesterday with the party at home. I also invited my friends including sana, arti Mahira, paras and Shefali . I don't give her invitation. I accept that I have big ego. My bigboss journey was a fun .
But sometimes I think I was the worst man there . I should not have done such ugly fights with her. Anyways it has happened. I must say I miss her. She used to be so delicate before. I don't know but she some how has became a strongest girl I have ever known. No matter how much I fought with her still i must say it must not have happened with her.  How dare that ramlal broke her heart.. he must not have done that I want to kill him now. I hope Rashami will be fine and I hope she will handle all this. After all she is really strongest .
I came out of my bed as it was already morning . And I went to take bath. When I was getting ready, the ring of my phone surround my ears. I pick up the call.

"Hello" I greeted as I took the phone

"Sid, are you ready for the shoot?" Adi asked me at once in the answer.

"Which shoot?" I asked him as I can't remember about any shoot or project I have to do

"Sid, you are invited at MSK set as special entry for the show of your friends sana and paras" he informed me.

"Oh, you told me about it. Sorry I forgot. By the way who else is invited " I asked him as I wanted to know if she is coming or not. He had informed me yesterday that she will join me as special guest.

"Maybe Rashami Desai will join you. But it's not confirmed yet . Director told me that she had rejected the request. But it wasn't confirmed either. " Adi informed me.

" What is timing for the shoot?" I asked adi
 
"It's 10:00 AM. You have to be there on time" said adi

"Ok, I will be there on time. Send me location and details regarding the shoot. " I said and cutted the call as I was getting late already.

I went to have my breakfast. I saw mom on the dinning table.

"Good morning mom" I hugged her and greeted her

"Good morning sid" my mom kisses my forehead and greeted me back

"What have you made for me in the breakfast? " I asked her

"Allo ka prantahy but sorry sid not like yours Rashami type" said mom while teasing me.

"Oh mom she is not mine at all. Don't you saw how much she hates your son" said I . The sadness was clearly visible on my face.
Anyways it sounds good "yours Rashami" I murmured.

"No, I saw the fights but it was clearly visible that she was jealous of you and sana. And the fights was all because she likes you" said mom by rubbing my hairs.

"Mom, I am no more a child . I can understand everything now." Said I .

Mom just smiled at my answer.

"Mom pranthas were yummy . And I am getting late I must leave now" saying this I stand up from my chair and hugged my mom and she kissed my forehead.
I left the house and i started towards the set . I was driving the car and due to red light I stopped for few minutes on the road where I saw a car next to mine and there she was sitting in her car. She was not driving the car. She was on the back seat. Her head was rested to the seat and her eyes were close her one hand was over her forehead. She was looking tired. I couldn't see her properly due to the shades of mirror. Yes  she was Rashami Desai sitting in her car. The traffic light changes and now her car was in front of mine. I think she was also on the same route and that was when I remember the information adi gave me. I was not expecting her to come. I kept my car behind hers. We reached the location. She was the first to enter . She came out of her car still I couldn't see her properly as she went inside in hurry. I couldn't see her properly . After parking my car I also went in I met Manish and talked for few minutes
My eyes searches her but she was no where to be seen. I went to get ready for the shoot. Soon Manish took my name and that  was when I saw her clearly on the stage. She was looking breathtakingly awesome as always. I kept looking on her . She passed a smile . And that was when i realise she was also staring me. Sana came running to me and she took me into a hug and i also hugged her back as I really missed her. She is like a child to me.  My eyes again goes on Rashami. Her smile has vanished. Her eyes  were a little teary. I think she was hurt.  But when I again take a look on her she was giving me her perfect smile. That's when  I realised that it was just my wrong opinion as why will I affect her. I hope she is fine .

"Sidharth  what you say about rashami? How's she looking" asked manish

Oh my mind and heart both are in crazy state . She is looking hot and gorgeous as always . I hope I could say this . I just can't say these words to her. Yes I accept it again I have a big ego.

" Shehnaz should I tell how is she looking" I asked shehnaz instead of answering the question.

"No sid you will not do anything like that you say how am I looking " shehnaz asked.

I just laughed.  I again noticed Rashami her eyes were really teary this time but why. From her eyes  it was really clear that she was very much hurt. She saw me staring and she put on a beautiful smile on her face but to me it was a forced one. As her eyes were telling me her real story. Manish told me to take my seat. Shehnaz told me not to sit with Rashami.  But I didn't pay any interest to her so I went to Rashami she welcomed me by standing up her eyes were teary and I have already saw her wiping her tears. I pull her into a hug. I could smell her fragrance. Oh it still feels home to me. She hugged me back . We took our seats and the shoot goes on. Soon the shoot ends and Rashami disappeared from the set. I asked paras about her . He informed me about her where about. I went to her vanity.
*Knock knock* I knocked the door

"Yes come in " her voice hits my ears . And I can't believe she let me in without asking any question.

"Hlo Rashami " i said in a calm way and that with a smile
She was paking her bag . And I couldn't saw her as her back was towards me.

"Hello, what are you doing here?" She at once turned to me  and asked me out of curiosity . Her face was showing she was not expecting me there.

" Can we talk" i asked without answering her question. I kept calm all this time as I was trying my best to read her face and obviously I am not an astrologer so I failed miserably.

"About what?" She again asked with a confused face.

"About anything, about us or we can talk about bigboss " i said while my lips passed a smile on looking at her confused cute face.

" There is nothing left to talk between us. What about us? Oh don't tell me you want to talk about our bigboss journey. That was not too good to discuss. Wait what you want to discuss those ugly fights, and why you even want to talk with "Aisi ladki". Look sid there is nothing left between us .  We have no relationship now. We are no more friends or enemy. " She said to me in one go. Her face was plain no emotions . But her eyes seemed hurt.

"Let's move on from that. It was our fault . We can forget it and can be good friends " i said  with a calm face. And I really want it.

"Look sidharth I have just came out of many problems. My life is just coming back to its track after so many difficulties . Don't create problems for me. Stay away from me . It would be better for both of us." She said without making an eye contact with me. She was a little straightforward this time.

" What problems will I create ?" I asked her . My voice was harsh now because I really want her back and I was loosing my hope. A little bit of anger surrounded me.

" You yourself is a big problem for me. I am already in a mess. I beg you to leave me where I am and enjoy your life .  My life is a mess don't make another mess . If there will be any other problem now I will just die . Because my heart and my brain both can't take it.  I am the RD. Let me be who I am . The Rashami Desai whom world know let me be that Rashami Desai. " She said  with her eyes meeting mine. Her voice was filled with hurt and her eyes with tears .

Before I could have answered her she left the van
In bigboss I never understood how hurt she used to be but today I understand it for the first time and that's when I remember my words . The flash back hits me
"She always cries for sympathy"
"Rashami how much sympathy you will gain with this drama"
"I have stopped taking such girls in my house. Such girls like rashami Desai." *(Mai na aisi ladki ghr ma laini bnd kiyi hai.. aisi Rashami Desai jaisi)*
I hated myself for the very first time.
I went back to home as I was really exhausted . Both my heart and mind were tierd I kept laying the whole day on my bed . I was left alone with my harmful thoughts.

Authors note:
Hello Sidra fans I am sana and here is my first try over Sidra. So let me know how it is. Some may have read it before as I updated it but it got some how deleted. Although  there may be a little bit of changes as my draft was also deleted so I wrote it again. Give your precious feedback .
Sorry for all kind of mistakes especially grammatical mistakes.
With love
_sana