Amazing how quickly you can go from the tallest mountain to the deepest pits of hell
You try to fight back bur its like your brain is under a spell
Ruminating thoughts that drive you insane
All you do is wish for an absence of pain
You look at the people you love and see failures
Not them, but you, and the way you failed to love them as you should
You wish your life was a s simple as one of those movie trailers
You want to love them, gods you wish you could
Evything hurts more than you ever imagined
You just wish none of it had ever happened
You cant ever drink water, your lips are too weak for that
Your body feels hot and your arms are bare
You try so hard to do what you need to do but everytime your efforts fall flat
Your lungs are tight, burning to hot to intake air
So you cry yourself to sleep, and you barely eat
Hoping that one day life will finally taste sweet