This is a soulmate AU where everyone you fall in love with your soulmate one red tally mark Appears on your body, and when they die the tally marks turn black.

This was requested by @Saffire2005

I hope you enjoy it!!!

Lances pov

I felt dirty, disgusting.

I had loved him, with all my heart, I feel in love with him over and over again...and now here I am moving on.

The very idea that I could have fallen in love with another that was not Daniel made me feel shame, and surprised. He made me feel like the most important person in the world, we had a love like no other. He found me when we were in elementary, he came up to me and I could already feel myself fall for him, once we got into middle school was when I got my first tally mark for him, and then when I figured it out I tolled him, then he got his first tally mark for me, and from there the tally marks only grew, they consumed my body my right arm, my back , and my chest is covered in the stripes of love, to many to count even if they were grouped into five. We lived so happily, we got married the first moment we could, and lived a lovely life together....well most of a lovely life.

I stand up from my bed and walk in front of the mirror again, instead of millions of little signs reminding me of the love I have to come back to, of the lover I am waiting for on earth....I have millions of little black lines covering my body, each one making me sadder then the last, it wasn't a reminder of the happy times...it was a reminder of what I had lost.

Now the only red lines that litter my body are my self hatred marks, the ones I create not for love but for loathing and for fear. Sometimes I would make them into tally marks, it always made me smile to think that I had new love lines on me...though I knew it wasn't true. I sigh and walk out of the bathroom, I grab my shirt and walk out of my room. I put on the shirt as I walk through the hallway, once it's all the way on I bump into Keith. I feel a tint cover my cheeks and light feeling in my chest, I feel a weight of shame press against my back.

"Hey Keith."I say nervously, Keith lifts his arm to wave at me and that when I see his love line, one little tally mark resting on his arm.

"Y-you found your soulmate?"I observe out loud. Keith looks at his arm and smiles even wider.

"Yeah"he says letting out a sigh of love and he gets lost looking at the little red line.

"Who is it?"I ask clearing my throat and repositioning my stance.

"Shiro."he says a blush now covering his face. I felt my heart get crushed, like a big rock had just fallen on it shattering it thus making it stop. I could feel myself freeze and I could feel the tears coating my eyes.

"That's great! I'm glad you found him."I say offering him a smile to cover my heart break.

"Having a soulmate is great."keith says with a little chuckle. I could feel my now shattered heart sink further in my chest like it was trying to get towards my feet but a string was holding it up.

"...yeah it is..."I mutter and look to the side and grasping onto my coat slightly.

"Oh, you've met your soulmate?"keith asks now looking surprised at me. What? is it that surprising? Well I guess I do flirt a lot....I'm so horrible, I can't even stay committed to Daniel, he must hate me...

"Yep."I say and lean against the wall.

"I'm sorry...is that why your always so homesick for earth?"he asks prying further in, something that normally was unlike him.

"...sure..."I say and leave the room abruptly. I go back to my room no longer wanting to talk to people, as soon as I enter my room the door shuts behind me and I let out a scream and pull at my hair, I rip off my coat and fall to the ground, I hold my head in my hands and cry, memories of my love coming into my mind and the new heart break settling in.

All that's waiting for me on earth is a grave, one that has Daniel McClain on it in big letters. He had killed himself, I came home one day and I found him on the floor...dead note in his hands and razor on the floor. I thought I was enough for him...I thought he trusted me, why would he not let me help?

And I was happy for Keith and all, I'm glad he got with shiro, but maybe if he was lonely like me...maybe he could have fixed me, maybe he could have helped me, I had so many ideas about being with him, and I was so conflicted about wether or not it was okay to love him or not that I never stopped to remember that he has a soulmate.

And now I have no one, once again I am left alone....I don't want to be lonely anymore.

I stand up and walk into my bathroom, I take out my razor and start making tally marks on my arms, the number got higher and higher

5, 10, 15, 20, 25, 30.....And so on.

With each slash in my arm I grew more and more sure of myself, I would go out the same way Daniel did, I would get to see him...Daniel my love, my life, my joy....I've missed you.

I would be leaving Keith, but he didn't even like me...and Keith has shiro.

Soon the world gets fuzzier and fuzzier, the room made no noises and my thoughts became slower.

Daniel...I am coming to be with you...

Then I saw him, I saw Daniel again.