Lances pov

Some people would think being in space but it wasn't.

At least not for me, It's not just my family I miss, it's my stability I miss, it's my ability to control my body and understand what was happening that I miss, it was living normally that I miss.

I was on so many pills back on earth, they did a variety of things but I could feel myself slowly fall back into my inability to be natural and my body start to break down, my mind is falling to pieces again, and my body is slowly stopping to do the functions I needed it to do.

That and the side affects of being suddenly taken off of them without doctor consent or help were disastrous. Some of them were dopamine imbalance (in this case to much dopamine but obvious that hasn't happened yet), artery's shutting down, blurred vision, and forgetfulness ranging on a scale of small bits of your day to your whole life.

I was terrified that one of these things would get me but so far I didn't have any...I could recognise if I had one of these right?

Oh shit I'm late for training!

I run to the training room only to find shiro in there on his own.

"I was early today huh?"I say slightly proud of myself. Shiro turns to me confused.

"What do you mean?"he asks me deactivating his arm after killing off the last robot.

"Team training, we still have that today, right?"I ask wondering if I had forgotten another memo...

"Lance, it's late at night, training already happened. Are you feeling okay?"he asks me. Huh...how could I have forgotten what time it was?

"Uh, Yeah I'm fine just...a little off my game, I'll see you tomorrow morning."I say and give him a smile. I walk away and feel a shiver run down my spine.  I'll see you tomorrow if I can remember.

When I get to my room I look around confused...why am I in here again? Isn't it team training?

Time skip

I was slowly going insane, I needed them, my pills I needed my pills!

I was on so many medicines back on earth and now I don't have them, I'm forced to try and act normal while everything was slowly crumbling around me. Slowly I had been snapping at people and I fear they will figure out what I am hiding, that they will figure out what I'm missing.

"Lance?"a voice asks me. I turn quickly towards him my eyes wide.

"I'm not crazy!"I shout and back away from Keith who wears a confused look in his eyes.

"I know..."he says and leans closer towards me. I back up from him  afraid something inside of me might suddenly just....Snap.

I-I have been hearing the voices again, I had been feeling even sadder lately, my emotions had been off the rails, I was shakier, I was unable to control when I said the thoughts on my mind, my body parts started to randomly twitch with out my consent, I had been feeling more head aches, on the occasion a body part will go numb, my anxiety had been off the rails, my throat is getting dry all the time, I had been more tired,  I could tell I had been rapidly loosing more weight, I would also throw up for no reason.

Every moment of living was become painful and filled with paranoia that I was dying without my medicine, I was just lucky I hadn't started seizing yet.

"Lance!"Keith shouts from besides me. I snap out of my thoughts. I notice that my left arm had gone conpletely numb and  I had another headache, my throat had gone completely dry yet the urge to throw up had started to creep up on me.

"Sorry.."I mumble, I also forgot to mention my ability to focus has started to lessen.

"What's been going on with you recently?"asks me. I know someone needed to know, someone who could help me, try to keep me in check so that I didn't start to go crazy.

"Pills, I need my pills, all of them. They are on earth and I'm slowly falling apa-"I was saying my eyes drifted to the window and my words start to slur, I suddenly couldn't remember what I was talking about.

"the stars are so pretty."I say looking at the beautiful night sky.

"Pills? Lance what do you mean?"Keith asks me.

"Huh? Oh yeah right, sorry I get side tracked easily, something one of my pills prevented. On earth I had pills that kept me in line, they helped me live normally, I had so many I lost count honestly, that and the memories of them...are slowly growing fuzzy, I just...I need to tell someone before I forget or something because...."I start but my sentence gets lost.  I stare at Keith and furrow my brows in attempt to remember what I had been talking about, I just couldn't remember, it couldn't be getting worse could it.

I was slowly going insane, I needed them, my pills I needed my pills!

I was on so many medicines back on earth and now I don't have them, I'm forced to try and act normal while everything was slowly crumbling around me. Slowly I had been snapping at people and I fear they will figure out what I am hiding, that they will figure out what I'm missing.

"Lance!"Keith's shouts at me, I turn to him quickly  my eyes wide.

"Im not crazy!"I shout spooked by his sudden outburst.

"Pills! You were telling me about your pills!"Keith shouts grabbing me by my shoulders. I look at him confused, I didn't tell him about my pills...im sure I would have remembered if i tolled him about my pills...

"I don't remember telling you about my pills?"I say.

I-I have been hearing the voices again, I had been feeling even sadder lately, my emotions had been off the rails, I was shakier, I was unable to control when I said the thoughts on my mind, my body parts started to randomly twitch with out my consent....is that all of the things that have been happening to me..,yeah-yeah I think so...

"Lance!"keith shouts, I look up at him quickly.

"Yes Keith?"I ask him.

"Pills tell me about your pills! Is one of your problems bad memory?!"Keith asks me a scared look in his eyes. At the reminder of pills I felt my mind start to freak out.

I was slowly going insane, I needed them, my pills I needed my pills!

"Lance!"Keith shouts, I look up at him a shocked look on my face.

"When did you get here Keith?"I ask him, his eyes glossy, and his bottom lip trembling.

"Pills lance...you said you have pills."Keith says his voice weak yet desperate

Oh yeah I had pills, slowly I had been getting worse.

I had been experiencing....uh....w-well funny thing I can't seem to remember....

"How'd you know about my pills?"I ask Keith. A whimper escapes his lips as he continues to stare at me.

"Wow those stars are pretty..."I say looking out the window, the beautiful starts glimmering in the sky.

My arm is numb...oh god why is my arm numb! I look around for anyone then I notice Keith is here.

"Keith! Thank god your here! My arm is numb I don't know what's going on!"I shout, he wouldn't have been my first choice for help, he was just my rival but hey what can you do.

"Lance you need pills, tell me more about your medicine."Keith asks, tears spilling over his eyes.

"Pills? Who needs pills, do you need pills?"I ask him confused, I watch his face break and he just walks away from me.

Keith's pov

It had been getting worse, our space warp was out of commission, and we couldn't get to earth sooner, we didn't know what pills lance needed but we were afraid we wouldn't make it before he finally cracked.

"So wait your telling me, that we work with shiro, THE shiro! Wow that's amazing..."lance says a glimmer of joy in his eyes. He looks up at the ceiling then down at me. Confusion setting in his eyes.

"Keith? Why are you here?"asks me, this had been happening a lot. Lance looks around the room then back at me.

"Keith where are we? Why do you look older, why are stars outside my window! Did I do it! Did I make it to space my family will be so happy! My sis....uhm....bro?....no wait....fath-moth-Uh.....this is strange, I can't seem to remember who's in my family..."he mumbles and looks off to the side, his brows furrowed as he try's to remember. He then looks back at me shocked look on his face.

"Keith?! What are you doing here?! Where are we?!"he asks frantically looking around the room, I sigh and stand up, I had to go train and I could stay around lance right now...I didn't want to leave, this may be the last time he can remember anything...but I need to be able to fight, wether lance is there or not.

Time skip

I walk into lances room after training, when I walk in he had a wild look in his eyes, his chest rising up quickly in panic.

"Who are you?!Where am I?! Why can't I feel my leg?! And who's that person speaking to me?!"he shouts looking around, he was terrified. His hand shaking more sporadically then the rest of him.

I give him a small smile and sit next to him on his bed.

"Your lance McClain, and you live in this ship with us, your numbness will go away."I say, and give him a small smile, tears welling up in my eyes. I could feel them slide down my face.

"Who am I? Where am I?!"he asks only a few minutes later. I look up at him, confusion clear in his eyes, he didn't even recognise me, to him I was stranger. I missed him, he no longer smiles, he was always in some form of pain, he was getting skinnier and he couldn't manage keep food down, he slowly forgot everything, and everyone...and I had to just sit by and watch as it all happened.

"Lance...your names lance.."I mutter out.

"What? Why'd you tell me I was lance, I didn't ask you anything?"he says. I stare at him, he was scared, he knew nothing, no memories, no names, all he knew were the few seconds of being on the ship before he forged again.

People say it's worse watching someone forget you then someone dying...they are right, it was like lance was so close yet so far. I could reach out and touch his skin, I could feel his warm tan flesh under my arm and touch my good friend lance that I had known for a few years, yet he would yell at me, ask me why a stranger was touching him, scream out for help. His eyes would hold a cold confused exterior, one built to keep people out, one that the team and I had been able to break down a long time ago.

I could never explain to him who he was because it would be a waste of breath, he wouldn't be able to remember any of it, and a few seconds later he would forgot again. So instead of lance, he had fake, a copy, a clone of him that was forced onto us, to taunt us of the friend we could have but don't, to remind us of the family member we lost, he looks at us with his face, but he will never be able to see us through lances eyes.

I left the room quickly.... I didn't want to stay there, not with that stranger.