Keiths pov

I see the door of the blue paladins room and continue my trek towards it. The happy boy had borrowed my sleeping pills and I need them, he dosent seem to be the kind of person with trouble sleeping but hey who am I to judge. I walk to the room and nock. I hear something hit the floor but no one answers me.

"Lance!"I call. I hear a faint, 'go away' from the other side. Uh fuck no, I actually want to sleep tonight and to do so I need those pills.

"I'm coming in asshole!"I shout and put my hand to the scanner. The door instantly opens up. I met with the sight of lance standing on a chair holding a onto the loop of a rope hanging from the ceiling and his tan arms out in the open, each arm containing thousands of cuts, some fresh and gushing out blood by the second.

"Oh my god lance!"I shout and rush to his side. I grab his arm pulling him to the floor. He hits the ground and lets out a whine.

Fuck, what do I do, what do I do?! Do I unhook the noose, wait no, maybe talk to lance, oh shit! No I need to clean his cuts. I'll do both at the same time.

I pull lance with me to his bathroom. I force him to the ground and grab some gauze and the alien version of rubbing alcohol.

"Lance, why did you do this"I ask him as I start cleaning his wounds.

"I have no purpose here, I am a useless place holder, a terrible soldier and to put it plainly I have lost all reasons to wake up in the mornings."he says, I am quite stunned at how easily he admitted it to me. Usually people are more reluctant to open up.

"Why are you so open about this, I mean its nice...but strange"I speak my thoughts, he glances back into his room then at me.

"Because I want one person to know how i truly feel before I go"he says, the cold look in his eyes was just enough to send chills down my spine.

"Wait, no, no you won't go, you'll stay with us, I won't let you."I say, and feel the grip of the hand around his wrist tighten.

"You can't stop me, there are millions of ways I could kill myself and you wouldn't be able to see it comming. Besides I'm just shocked that you care" he says in his monotone voice. How little does he think of me that I wouldn't care if he killed himself.

"Lance of course I care! Please let me help"I beg, I hear him scoff, and I start cleaning his arms again this time I put on bandages.

"Please Keith. Just let this be easy, I am so tired, I just want to sleep, I am so tired of trying to find reasons to wake up, I'm so tired of pulling my body out of bed each morning just find no one cares if I'm around. Let me sleep Keith, let me be free"he pleads and grabs onto my hand that's putting on bandages with his free hand. I feel tears spill over my eyelids, the happy paladin telling me he was going to kill himself no matter what, him pleading with me to make it easier for him to do it. The sound of his up tone voice being tainted with the ruffness you only get from crying, the same voice pleading, begging, negotiating for death.

"Lance-"my voice cuts off and I have to clear my throat.

"Lance, give me 5 days, 5 days to try and convince you that your life has so much worth and importance. If by then its not enough...i'll- I'll let you..."my voice breaks of again this time by a sob. I take deep breaths and calm myself down. Finally I look up to lance.

"Okay...5 days"he says and walks away from me and into his room. I follow him and head to the door leading out of his room.

"Wait!"lance calls and I turn to him. I see him pulling the noose down and slipping it under his bed.

"Don't tell anyone else"he says and drags the chair in the middle of the room over to his desk.

"Okay"my voice cracks and I walk out of his room. I lean against his bedroom door and slide down it till I'm sitting. Then I just cry into my hands.

5 days...I have 5 days

Day 1

Lance didn't show up to breakfast this morning so went to grab him, i made sure he was heard when he had an idea, and tried to defend him when some one chastised him.

He left to sleep in his room that day with a frown on his face, giving me a quick smile before walking away.

4 more days

Day 2

Lance didn't come out to breakfast so I had to drag him back out again, we had no activities today which is good cause that means he will hang out with hunk. I train for a little, at lunch I walk in to see pidge and hunk talking, after a little interrogation I found out no one had seen lance for the first half of the day. I advised them all to hang out with lance a little, they questioned me but I brushed off their questions. I found lance alone in the star room, a place on the ship with all glass walls where you can see the stars. I sit with him for a little and we just talked, soon hunk walked in and asked lance to cook with him, I followed and watched as coran stole him from hunk a few hours later.

Lance went to bed with a small smile on his face that night.

3 more days. Maybe I can pull this off.

Day 3

This morning lance came out of his room for breakfast on his own. We all made conversation, I talked to lance through the whole meal. We trained a, mistake happened made by everyone but allura only yelled at lance, watching the poor boy shrink down I step in, hunk, and pidge joined me.

That night he went to bed with the same little smile.

2 days, we got 2 days.

Day 4

We woke up, lance joined us all on his own again, coran conversed with lance this morning instead. We went on a mission and took down a galran base. After I complimented lance telling him how well he did and he accepted it with a smile. Lance left for bed with the same little smile as yesterday. Oh how I hope it was real.

Keith's pov (it's been Keith's pov the whole time I've just going into deeper detail)

I sit in the lounge a blank piece of paper in front of me, tomorrow is the last day I have, the last chance I have to change his mind, I have to go all out...but what should I do.

"Keith, I was wondering whats going on between you and lance?"pidge asks jostling me out of my thoughts. I look up to see everyone except lance standing in front of me.

"What you mean?"I ask them. Everyone looks at each other then back at me.

"Well you've been acting really nice towards him"Shiro says, I feel anger start to build up.

"Oh you mean treating him like a descent human! Making sure he feels like he's apart of things! Not alienating him!"I shout. I take a deep breath and try to calm down. Everyone looks at each other like they just realised the most obvious thing. Then I got an idea. I tell them the plan and ask them to join in.

"I dunno, that seems like a lot. I know you want to make him more included but that seems over kill"pidge says. I sigh knowing if I want their help I'll need to tell them.

"I found lance trying to kill himself 3 days ago he gave me 5 days to convince him to live. He didn't want me to tell you so don't mention it to him. Stop fucking whining cause you WILL help me"I tell him. Their jaws were open, and tears were already flooding down coran and hunks face. They all nod and we get to work.

Please god let this work, 1 day. 1 last day.

Day 5

Lances pov

I sit up in my bed after laying there for what felt like hours. This is the last day.

It's all been great, but what happens when I decide to live and they no longer include me, what if they ignore me again, what if they start pushing me down again. I feel my body start shaking and a warm liquid slide down my face.

At least I can have a good last day.

I walk out of my room to be met with a card with writing on it in red sharpie.

You are one of the kindest people I've met

I rip the note off the wall and start walking down the hall to the dinning room. I'm stopped by another note on the wall.

You can always put a smile on my face

Written in green. I rip the note off the wall and continue walking. The notes get more frequent as I make my way down to the dinning room. They are in colors like green, pink, orang, yellow, black, and red.

Your our sharp shooter

You always make sure I'm taken care of

You boost my confidence

I never feel lonely when your around

You bring people together

You saved my life

You are valid

We would fall apart with out you

Your ideas are useful

We love you

I walk into the dinning room, I see the team standing in the middle of the room.

And oh the room, how lovely it looked. Every inch covered in sticky notes, or pieces of paper taped to the wall. Each having a different motivator written on it.

"When ever you feel like your not worth it, look at your post it notes"Keith says. I feel my eyes tear up at the sight of the room and my friends.

"Thank you"I whisper out, I look around the room and read the notes then pulling them off. That day we spent laughing and talking.

I walk back into my room that night. And see one last note on my bed.

You give ME a reason to wake up each morning.

Written in bright red. I stare at the note, a dopy smile on my face. This seems so perfect.....no it is perfect.

I walk into my bathroom, staring at myself I feel a pit grow in my stomach.

It's all a lie

After today no one will pay attention to you

They don't care they just don't want to have to find a new paladin

They would rejoice your leaving

Look how much trouble you have caused them, they spent 5 days on you. 5 perfectly good days waisted.

After today they will only yell and point out your flaws.

I'm so....so tired....

Keith's pov

I start walking to lances room, I forgot to grab my sleeping pills the other night. Instead I nocking I just walk in. When I enter I see lance standing in his room pill bottle open in his hands. I run over and shake his arm. The bottle is released.

When it hits the ground instead of tiny pills covering the floor all their is the hollow echo of the bottle.

"Shit"lance says and drops to the ground holding his stomach.

"Lance why"I ask him holding his body close to mine.

"Because it wasn't real, you only treated me right when I was at my worst, I needed you to notice me before"he says, his word slurring together. i grip his jacket and pull him closer.

"Thank you, for the best 5 days I've had in a long time"he whispers, his voice getting lighter and lighter.

"I'm sorry I couldn't help sooner"i whisper out.

"No keith, you didn't something better, you noticed. Th-"he stops. I shake lances limp body screaming his name everyone rushes in. They stand to the side crying as I hold lances cold body close to mine.

5 days...I had 5 days, and I failed.