Hanhaki disease is one of one sided love.
You don't get to chose if you get the disease, or if you develop the crush that soon turns into love.
You don't get to chose their feelings. If they love you back or not.
You don't get to chose wich flower grows inside you, prevents you from breathing, causes the blood, bile and petals to force their way out your throat.

You don't get to chose.

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Lance didn't want to feel this way.

He didn't want to wake up every morning, rushing to the bathroom only to have petals, blood and bile force their way up my throat.

But..it wasn't his fault.
Wasn't his fault that they had to have beautiful violet eyes that he got lost in every time he looked at them.

Wasn't his fault that, that stupid mullet wasn't as stupid as he said...he actually loved it. The way it curled at the end, the way it blew in the wind of the planets they explored.

Wasn't his fault that he acted and fought like there was no tomorrow. Like if he put his guard down for one second someone would attack.

Wasn't his fault that he had an amazing voice, it was so deep, but angelic. Made him swoon every time he heard it. But he had to keep it together...he knew Keith didn't like him...and that's what caused this stupid disease in the first place.

It wasn't his fault that Shiro asked first.

It's wasn't his fault that he said yes.

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Lance was in the training room with everyone else, doing their normal training exercise.

Attack

Block

Repeat.

Pretty simple, but anyone could see through this tactic. I tried to point it out but only got yelled at...like always.

"Allura, this tatic i-" Lance got cut off by Allura who just glared at him "I'm sorry Lonce!(yes I went there) I'm sorry, did you have something to say? Because if it's about this tactic then you can shut up all together. This tactic has worked fine the past year so I don't get why you would need to say something now." she spat.

Lance just stood wide eyes before coughing at the tickling/poking feeling in his lungs. He started coughing violently, white rose petals stained in blood, along with blood and some bile coming out into his hands "f-fuck"

Keith heard the drops of the water that splat onto the floor turning his head in the direction seeing small red drops "holy- Lance are you alright?!" He asked worried as he made his way to Lance

Lance just nodded as he shooed Keith away with his hand "y-yeah I'm fi-me" he said as he coughed up some more petals and blood turning away from them so they couldn't see "Just a tickle in m-my th-throat-t, that's a-a-all" he quickly spat out before walking out the room, running as soon as he was out of sight.

'Just get the surgery! He doesn't love you and never will!'

"But that means I'll lose my ability to even feel love towards anyone again?! Besides...it's not like they'll miss me...they barely even notice when I don't show up for meal time, or when I get hit on missions and have to patch myself up.." Lance thought to himself as he beant over the toilet throwing up a load of petals and blood, some stems with thorns and the flower attatched

'That's my point...they don't need you around Lance. The only reason they haven't kicked you off the team is because you pilot the blue lion, they've tried to replace you before but Blue wouldn't let her pilot her'

"wait...who's 'her'?"

'Didn't you know..? Allura has been trying to pilot blue for ages.'

Lance felt his chest tighten at the words the voice in his head spoke. Did she really hate him that much..? Did she really want him g-

His thoughts were cut short as he felt a thorn stab at him, and a stem hit the roof of his mouth after traveling up his throat.

He started choking, not being able to unclog his throat of the stem and blood stained petals.

- Time skip -

Lance woke up gasping for air, his cheeks stained with dry tear marks and eyes bloodshot.

Next to him lie a white rose, the petals and stem stained red from the blood.

He looked at the rose for a while before picking up the petals from around him, fishing them down the toilet and cleaning up the blood.

He then looked back at the blood stained rose that lie on the floor.

He knealt down by the rose, picking it up he walked towards his room, looking to see if he could find a cup to place the rose, for that rose would determine how long he had left to live, the more the rose wilted, the less time he had.

Once he placed the rose in a cup of clean water he made his way to the dining area for dinner.

What's funny is that this isn't the first time he's had Hanahaki.

He thought he'd never fall in love again. But here he is. Dying from it...again.

When he was 16 he fell in love for the first time,  the girl loved him back, just didn't tell him in time. And instead his mother made him get the surgery, she couldn't lose her son.

Her name was Lydia. She was 15, almost as tall as Lance, they were best friends. So it figures they'd fall for eachother.

-Time Skip-
-3 months later-

"You're late. Again" Allura spat. Her look, cold and blank as ever.

He didn't respond, instead grabbing something that tasted like and apple, and walking back out the room.

He was about to turn a corner to the hallway where their bedrooms were until he felt an all too familiar feeling.

Petals.

"Hey, Lance! Wait up!" the raven haired teen called out as they jogged towards Lance.

More petals.

Lance coughed, a few petals falling from his mouth, but he caught them, hopefully before Keith could see

"Hey, Mullet!" He tried to sound all happy, like everything was fine- but he couldn't.

"Lance you can drop the act what's wr-" he was cut off by Lance coughing up some white, blood stained petals. and the stem of a rose.

"Lance what t-" Lance cut him off by raising his hand "I don't want to hear it Keith.."

Keith didn't care and continued to talk "Hanahaki is real?!" he yelled/whispered.

"Wha- yes, of course it is! Are you seriously that thick?!" ( ;) ) Lance growled, keeping the petals down his throat.

"wh- h- who is it? I-we can find them! O-or you can get the surgery!" Keith started to panic. He couldn't lose Lance, he just couldn't!

"Keith...I'm not getting the surgery. That would make me lose ALL feelings towards that person, happiness, sadness, anger, it all. I-I can't do that.." he trailed off before continuing.

"And besides...They don't love me anyways, they're already dating someone." Keiths expression went into total shock

"b- I- I cant lose you Lance! don't you get that?! Just get the fucking surgery if you doubt them loving you so much! it's most likely some alien chick that's already got a bae! s-stop being stupid Lance please!" Keith yelled in panic.

"Keith- please stop I-" he got cut off by a rose making its way up his throat, suffocating him.

"s-shit! Lance!" Keith yelled in panic, once again.

He then picked up the Cuban teen, taking him to the mes bay where Coran was cleaning some shelves.

"Coran! Please! He has hanahaki and I think he's about to die! Do the surgery now! Please!" he begged, tears threatening to spill.

-Time Skip-
-6 Hours Later-

Lance woke up seeing everyone gathered around him. "uhh...guys? Is everyone okay?"

everyone immediately ran at Lance, swarming him in hugs.

"Why didn't you tell us you had hanahaki?!" Pidge cried, tears restaining her red cheeks.

"I-it didn't matter.."

"Yes it did god damn it!" she yelled back, pulling him closer, "Never do that again! You hear me?!"

"Yes ma'am!" he joked ruffling her hair.

everyone comforted Lance, showering him In love, and effection. But when it came to Keith, Lance was avoid of emotion.

"Lance! I'm so gla you're okay and that it worked, I thought I-we lost you!" he cried out, a smile spread across his face

"I'm sorry." was all he said. His face blank of emotion

"Lance...are you okay..?" Keith asked, worry plastered into his expression

"I'm fine, Keith. Although....I don't remember anything of our past...friendship. Or you for that matter." Keith paled

"Who are you again?"

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Okay so take that shitty- shitty thing and let me dIe (it's like 1-2am and I got school so...hAhA)

yeah bye-

~Aquqtix