ugh well heh 

At the store a few days ago I had my hair up and a beanie over it because it was wet from the shower. I saw this guy nearly shit his pants upon looking at me, and then go around the aisles and circle back to probably check what gender I was lol

Guys are weird and lame and I'm fifteen and I need to not be so thirsty but hey we're only here for a little while right heh

Recently I've been taking a lot of walks. They're nice. Quiet, almost scary, but nice. 

So a few days ago I was walking down the street and I catch the eyes of a guy in a car, windows rolled down, douchebag tanktop all over his pretentious, muscly frame. Of course, I look away, because I only looked up in the first place because I'm paranoid. Said d-bag does a double-take, then screams something that sounded like, "SLIPKNOT!"

lol I think it was because my outfit was all black and red themed, and I had my ass-kicking red lipstick on. I was pretty confused and just looked behind me and just tried to comprehend what he said for a while before making a sad face because I was enjoying my walk and I felt hot and this jerk mocked me ugh men

Currently debating what he said because SLIPKNOT and YOU'RE HOT sound around the same but I doubt I got catcalled by a twenty-five year old in a shitty car pfft

Did I mention I got honked at prior to that, like literally five minutes before

THIS IS NEW MEXICO, THEY DON'T TELL US HOW TO USE A CROSSWALK IN SCHOOL 

IT'S TOO FUCKING DANGEROUS TO WALK ANYWHERE SO CLOSE TO THE MEXICAN BORDER FUCK 

So I pushed the button and I was trying to read the directions on the pole and then I got anxiety like WHAT IF I'M SUPPOSED TO GO NOW AND EVERYONE'S WAITING FOR ME TO GO AND I'M BEING A STUPID TEENAGER AND A BURDEN TO SOCIETY BUT I DON'T SEE THE WALK SYMBOL 

so i just went and got honked at and almost hit by an angry black guy; he glared at me so fiercly i was worried he would've just ran me over anyway and i still feel sick to my stomach thinking about it because i probably ruined his day 

Off topic, I cry when I'm angry sorry it's really embarrassing especially when I need to make a point or be tough and stand my ground AND THEN I CAN'T TALK BECAUSE I'M BLUBBERING AND TRYING TO KEEP MY VOICE EVEN AND AVOID IT CRACKING

It's, like, 6:33am and I'm reading porny Destiel fanfics and cringing because my life is embarrassing

Hey, if you guys need writing inspiration, go for a walk and go into the first store you see. It's nice to bring in a little money and buy a little thing so it doesn't look like you're stealing, but you can find some cool stuff in there to spark a quick drabble.

how have you guys been like have you read any good books lately (besides the fault in our fucking stars)

I'm trying to write, I really am, but I just feel so lazy

whatever

laterz