It has come to my attention that some boys will tell you that you have an eyelash on your cheek even if you don't just so they can flirtatiously touch your face

But listen to me now

That only works for "picking fuzz" off of someone's jacket

If you tell me I have an eyelash on my face, I will wipe it off myself

And if you tell me it's still there, I will whip out a fucking mirror, buddy

Don't touch my face

Don't fucking touch my face

I have had three guys touch my face because they "thought my skin was nice" even when I told them not to

But it wasn't a sweet caress, they poked me in the fucking cheek because teen boys don't undertsand subtlety at all, nor do they quite understand basic boundaries

THIS IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT WITH GIRLS THO LIKE IF A GIRL TELLS ME I HAVE AN EYELASH ON MY CHEEK I TRUST THEM AND I'M LIKE "OMG WHERE CAN U GET IT OFF" BECAUSE EVEN GIRLS WHO MIGHT HAVE BEEN MAKING A MOVE ARE CUTE ABOUT IT

hi, if you are handsy and try to tell me I look innocent, I will step on you

This is so disorganized

I remember this time in freshman year when a guy I thought was my best friend came up and slapped me in the ass in front of the whole cafeteria

And nobody did anything about it

I know people saw

I know the security guards saw

And absolutely no one would back me up

And I felt so small

And he wouldn't look at me, he knew I was angry and hurt and he knew I was staring at him

And I was so mad that I was red and frozen and not even my friends stood up for me

His ex girlfriend was sitting right there and she just looked down at her plate

So to make myself feel more secure, I guess, I put my jacket on

And I said "What the fuck is wrong with you"

And he said "Come on, don't be a bitch about it"

So I left

And no one followed me

I went into the library for the rest of the period

And the next day I fucking forgave him because I thought I was being stuck up and I thought I was being awful about a joke

I realize now that he'd actually done a ton of sexual things to me that I just brushed off as normal and I felt cool for dealing with it

He'd take my phone and stick it down his underwear

He'd put his leg up on the table and pretend to cum in my face

He kicked me in the crotch once which I can't believe I forgave

And he spanked me

Worse, in public, where I would be more humiliated

I don't know why I suddenly told that story but I was mad at dumb boys out of the blue

I am glad I removed this jerk from my life because he is not my friend and he doesn't deserve my attention at all

Maybe I should go more in depth about the three guys who touched my face ugh

Guy #1 is just weird in general but he's creative so I've forgiven him a little

He already told me he liked how pale I was a few months prior and I knew he was flirting

He said "Your skin is so pale and soft I want to touch it"

Now the only reason this kid was there was because he was a friend of a friend, so I look over at my friend and she just sighs

"Um,,,,don't"

He waited for a few minutes to catch me off guard and he fucking poked my cheek

I moved to the other side of the circle we were standing in and my friend looked just really embarrassed and everyone felt awkward

Guy #2 has troll meme humor from fucking 2010

He did the exact same thing as the other guy with the "ur skin is so soft and pale I'm going to touch it"

"don't touch my face"

Then he waited until I was more relaxed to poke me in the cheek

When I got mad at him, he pinched the alligator clip in my hair so my bun would fall out because he was trying to make the situation better with humor but he just made me more pissed

Guy #3 was somebody who wasn't exactly unattractive but also A TOTAL STRANGER

I met with my old pal David at the mall to meet his new friends

And he introduced me to this kid, who was like, chained up??? to this navajo girl???

Like they literally had a metal chain running between their belt loops

Apparently he totally forgot about this girl he was chained up to, because when he saw me, his eyes blew wide and his mouth gaped

"You have really nice skin"

"Oh...thanks"

In my mind I was just thinking "he's going to touch my fucking face"

And he walks towards me, YANKING THIS POOR NAVAJO GIRL ALONG, AND HE SAYS "LIKE WOW I JUST WANT TO TOUCH YOUR SKIN"

David had warned me that his new friends were touchy-feely, but he told them I didn't like it, so I shot this glance at him like BRUH

and I don't have the chance to do anything but gasp from the surprise as he touches my cheek

Then he steps back all embarrassed and me and David fucking leave

This chapter is very scatterbrained omg

I went for most of my life thinking that this wasn't sexual assault and that I'd never been sexually assaulted before

But assault is any sudden and unwelcome sexual advance

Don't let people touch you just to avoid being rude

Don't let people pressure you

Don't let people blame you for not getting their sick, humiliating jokes

That's just not cool okay

Be safe and healthy