(John's POV)
I can't do this anymore.I can't. It's too much.

Kill yourself
Kill yourself
Kill yourself
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Kill yourself
Kill yourself
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Kill yourself
Kill yourself
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Kill yourself
Kill yourself
That's the only way to end this.

I take the razor from the drawer and place it on my wrist when suddenly Alex my Best friend walks through my apartment door.

"Hey Joh- OMG WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!?"
He rushed over to me and kneeled beside me.He wrapped his arms around me and started consoling me.
"Johnny,what's wrong?"
"I ca- I can't do this anymore.I dont want to live this way."
"What?Why"
Should i tell him?He is my best friend.......

"Alex......I was diagnosed with depression and an anxiety disorder years ago.I knew something was wrong with me. I've always known.I just didn't want to tell you.I was scared of loosing you because of my stupid problems."
I was a sobbing mess.
He started rubbing his hands on my cheeks and brushing the tears away.

"John...why didn't you tell me?!?!These problems are NOT stupid!You are my best friend,ofcourse I would never leave you! Infact,I'll stay to help you whenever you need it."
I looked up at him with red puffy eyes.
"Im sorry..."
"For what? There's nothing to be sorry about.We all have our own problems that we can't fix ourselves alone.So we need a friend to help along the way.Dont worry,im here okay?"
"Okay"
There is a comfortable silence for about 5 minutes until he breaks it and speaks up.

"John, we've known each other for a long time right?"
"Yeah.."
"Well,...maybe I want it like that permanently"
"Wh-what?"
"John Laurens,I-  I love you."
"Hold up-WHAT?You do?"
"Umm..yeah......
Itsokifyoudon'tIjustneededtogetthatofmychestIprobablyshouldn'thavetold youyouhaveyourownproblems and-"

"Hey,its okay,I love you too Alex"

Before I knew it I was in the middle of passionate kiss with Alexander.

After that GREAT moment of gayness,he pulled back and pulled me into a comforting hug.
"Alex..."
"Yes baby"
"Promise me you will never leave me"
"I promise......But promise me you aswell that you will talk to me about anything and that you will not do that ever again.Even when it seems like there's no tomorrow. Promise?"
I look up at him.
"I promise"