So I've been so freaking busy, it's not even funny. School is straight up kicking my butt right now.

For those of you who don't know, junior year is one of the most important years in high school and is the year that colleges look at the most.

And boy, I'm definitely feeling the heat. I never expected junior year to be as difficult as its proven to be. When I was in the eighth grade, everyone said that freshman year would rek my buns, but there was no bun-rekking to be had; freshman year was super easy for me.

So when people said junior year would be hard I was all like "nah man, that's what they said about being a freshman and that crap was easy."

Mistakes were made.

Higher difficulty classes (I'm in AP), ACT/SAT tests looming, the inevitability of my graduation and eventually entrance into college and a new phase of life; all things that are stressing me out.

And I don't even have a job yet since I don't have my license.

Life's crazy, man. For all you younger kids out there, do not try to grow up faster than normal because when you get there, you'll wish you could go back.

On another note, my crippling social anxiety has stricken again!

Homecoming is just around the bend and what did my class think it would be fun to do?

VOTE ME FOR FREAKING HOMECOMING COURT.

I go to a very small school (there are 18 juniors total) so getting picked wasn't hard, but I didn't even want to do it. But they said "come on it'll be fun all you have to do is walk in the parade!"

Yeah, no. I don't like it when people look at me.

And to make matters worse, the one guy I was hoping wouldn't be my escort got freaking voted to be my escort.

Why did I not what him as an escort, you ask?

Because he's really cute and funny and I can't deal with cute and funny. I've been so nervous over this, I can't eat.

Stupid to make such a big deal out of it, but I'm genuinely terrified. Most girls would be excited.

Not me. I want you hide. I didn't even want to go to homecoming. I hate dances! I don't know how to dance!

And I might have to dance with him in front of everyone?? Because technically we're king and queen of the junior class??

I swear to Comcast, if this happens I will actually hide in the girls bathroom and not come out. Because my experience with the male species, especially with him being so close to me, it probably in the negatives.

I'm petrified by the thought of dancing with him.

I mean, I think part of me is a little excited because I might be interested in him. I won't go so far as to say that I like him since I don't know him super well, but that's also what makes the possibility of having to dance with him even worse.

R.I.P.

And now my dog is sick and she's really old and I'm really worried about her. She's been doing better but she has surgery on Monday and I'm nervous.

So those are my excuses for not updating. Sorry.

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♢Posted on 9/18/16♢