Julia's POV

Masakit... Di ko parin kaya.. Di parin ako makapag move on sakanya...

Lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na... Tama na... Move on na.

Pero paano? Kung halos araw araw nakikita ko siya at Nararamdaman ang presensya nya? Kasama yung bagong girlfriend nya...

Masyado na ata siyang tanga.

I wanted to say sorry to kath... Matagal na... Nalaman ko kasi na nakipag break siya kay quen nang dahil sa akin . nakokonsensya ako... Kaso sa tuwing nakikita ko si kath... Nararamdaman ko parin yung galit at sakit... Pinangungunahan ako ng galit... Kaya ko nagagawa yun sa mga Best friends ko..

"Miss Montes!"

Napatingin ako kay Ms.Peñaflor ... My tita

Siya yung teacher namin kanina... Yung dahilan kung bakit napahiya si nadz. Walang nakaka alam na tita ko siya..only me and her.

Pumunta ako sakanya.

"Tita... Bakit mo ginawa kay nadine yun?!"

"SHH! Dont call me tita pag nandito tayo... Baka may makarinig at mapa alis pa tayo pareho... "

"Pero tita... Bakit mo pinagpalit yung quiz paper namin ni nadz? ... Ako dapat ang lowest... Hindi siya... Atsaka dapat hindi mo na siya pinahiya kanina... "

" Hindi pa sapat yun ! Yung sakit na binigay sayo ng dalawang yun?! Wala pa sa gitna ng sakit na nararamdaman nila compare sa binigay nilang sakit sayo! Atsaka. Wag mo na munang isipin yun! Let me handle it okay?!"

"WTF"

"Anong WTF?! Minumura mo na ba ako ha?! "

"What?! Of course not! Wtf means Well thats Fine" sabay ngiti.

Iniwan ako ni tita ... Pumunta ako sa rooftop... Madalas kami dito dati nila kath...

Its all my fault

Nag play nlang ako ng music. Hindi na ako nag headset... Nakalimutan ko sa bag... Skip ko muna ung isang subject.. Nakakatamad...

Amnesia - 5sos playing

(Play the multimedia)

Relate ako sa lyrics ng kantang toh...

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Luke:]
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Calum:]
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

Lahat ng pictures namin.. Kahit kaunti lang... Full of love and happiness kami noon... We're almost perfect..

Kaso dumating yung oras na... Nagsawa na ata siya sa akin... Nag hanap ng ibang Attention ...

Ramdam ko ang paglayo niya... Dinadaan daanan niya nalang ako... Nginingitian ko siya... Pero... Parang wala lang sakanya... Dinadaanan niya lang ako ng tingin...

Then one day ... I decided to talk to him...

"Quen... Why?"

"Ha??"

Denial king ...

Patay malisya..

"Bakit ba nagiging ganyan ka?"

I looked at him

I saw him editing a picture in his phone...

I thought it was our picture... But ... Its not
..

Its a picture of kath...

His typing the word wow... On Kath's picture..

Si kath ba ang dahilan?

"Quen, tigilan mo nga yang pag ce cellphone mo!kinakausap kita eh!"

Pinatay niya ung cellphone nya...

"Bakit ganyan ka na? Hindi ka naman ganyan dati ah?! " I shouted

No response

"Nakita mo akong umiiyak kanina diba?! I thought you're going to comfort me... Pero hindi ... Instead tinawag mo si kath na maglaro ng volleyball... With you... Alam mo ba na kino comfort ako ni kath at nadz that time? Tapos ganon lang?!.you know what quen .. Sinayang mo lang... Sinayang mo! "

Akala ko makakarinig ako ng sorry sakanya... Pero.. Wala..

Nakita niya yung bola ng volleyball... Pinaglaruan niya...

Bakit ganyan ka na Quen? Nasaan na yung Quen na Gentleman , Quen na maalaga , Quen na ayaw akong nasasaktan... At Quen na minahal ko... Nasaan na? Kailangan kita... Kaso sinaktan mo ako... I hate you Quen...

But.. I hated myself even more... For saying I love you too and for saying yes...

I wish i can go back in the past ... And I'll change everything... I'll force myself not to fall for you and not to love you. But I cant...

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Luke:]
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all