You were finally alone

Ellis, Rochelle, and coach, and nick decided to venture out for supplies leaving you all alone to fend for the safe room as well as yourself

One problem you didn't give a shit

Clearly you never cared about yourself, always the self sacrificing self less one of the group

Whenever you had a scratch or something minor you refused to waste a med kit on it or passed it to someone who actually needed it

And plus no one gave a shit about you or at least that's what you thought

Maybe the others would cry if you died but ellis would be a mess since hes your best and only friend, but the other two with get over it within a week, Ellis would take a month

But nick?

Hell. He'd laugh at your dead body as he looted everything you had off and got annoyed with everyone mourning your dead self

He never gave a shit about you right?

All the sarcastic mocking, all the shitty things he says about you all the crap hes put you through

And as if today wasn't bad enough for you to have another break down

Today you had to grow without breakfast as food was running low nick put you through the absolute worse as the horde of zombies just didn't slow down leaving you with a bad wound on your side

At least you had vodka with you that was what kept you from jumping from the roof of the safe house

The sun was beginning to set as the sky bruised to purple and blues

Despite how much nick literally wanted to gut you how badly he treated you, sure he was joking but you were extremely sensitive and took all those jokes to heart convincing yourself he hated every inch of you

Why don't I just sing as venting

Sure you could've screamed your lungs out and cry then and there but that would attract a horde

You sighed

(Play song now)

I've been holding my breath
I've been counting to ten
Over something you said
I've been holding back tears
While you're throwing back beers
I'm alone in bed

As you remembered every little thing nick did to make you wanna die but also keep trying to get him to like you at least a little bit

You know I, I'm afraid of change
Guess that's why we stay the same
So tell me to leave, I'll pack my bags, get on the road
Find someone that loves you better than I do, darling, I know
'Cause you remind me every day, I'm not enough, but I still stay

Just the thought of nick being with some other girl made you feel sick to your stomach as the welling tears grew stronger but somehow you kept your voice steady as you kept on singing

Feels like a lifetime
Just tryna get by
While we're dying inside
I've done a lot of things wrong
Loving you being one
But I can't move on

You spotted some zombies crawling up as they heard you sing, not even phased you just pull out your pistol and shoot em off. How rude interrupting your 'concert' like that

You know I, I'm afraid of change
Guess that's why we stay the same
So tell me to leave, I'll pack my bags, get on the road
Find someone that loves you better than I do, darling, I know
'Cause you remind me every day, I'm not enough, but I still stay

As you finally let your tears fall as you stare at the bruising sky keeping your arms up in the air feeling your tears get cold

If you want me to leave, then tell me to leave, and baby, I'll go
You remind me every day, I'm not enough, but I still stay

Wiping away some of your tears as it clouded your vision you slowly sat down on the ledge again swinging your legs over and stared off into the abandoned streets

"Y/n the fuck was that?"

You flinched harshly as you turned around but in the process your hand knocked the vodka bottle over and it fell over making you furious more than ever

You stared at nick for a split second

"Didn't you go with
the others to get supplies?"

"The plans changed last
minute I was here the
entire time"

Oh great just great of course he had to hear you pour your heart out and cry

You swung your legs over and stared at the gambling man

"Firstly. I don't get
breakfast. You treated
me way worse than
usual and now you
hear me venting?
God can this day get
anyway worse.."

As you rubbed your right temples

"Y/n"

As nick approached you

In a swift motion you stood up on the ledge and backed away to the edge which made nick stop in his tracks

"I don't need you to
mock me no more,
I could literally jump
right here and now,
and you wouldn't give
a shit. You'd laugh
your ass off staring
at my body and acted
as if nothing happened,
the others would get
over it pretty easily."

"Y-y/n..."

As he had a panicked expression

"But I won't.."

As you hopped off the ledge

"Worst day ever..
life didn't even
want to spare me
some vodka.."

As you sat again and turned you back towards him covering your face with your hands

"Go away... please"

That really caught nick off guard you NEVER said please not even to ellis, and your attempt to jump just made him stunned

Nick never thought all the shit he did-

You heard his foot steps fade as you were finally left alone but for some reason you didn't want to be alone

Your heart hurt so much that you just needed a shoulder or someone to be there

But those things out in the world don't care

If this germ didn't wipe out the world then maybe you two wouldn't have met and you wouldn't feel so damn terrible

Then again you weren't complaining that you met him

You gripped your head

"Stop being such a baby..
you felt worse after
being beat up, and
after a night of drinking"

You were also surprised nick didn't mock you or commented on how pathetic you looked

"Here"

You flinched a bit glancing at the gambler seeing him offer you a fresh bottle of vodka

Not even hesitating you grabbed it, you wanted it that bad

He then joined you by sitting beside you with his own bottle

You chug it burning your throat slightly feeling it slit down your throat

"You really don't
want to remember
your day"

No shit

You thought as you kept taking big gulps

By the time you needed air the bottle was already half empty

"Y/n about the shit
I was doing today"

You glanced his way not making eye contact just staring towards him to let him know you were listening

"I'm...I...I'm sorry"

Taking the last sip of the bottle you threw it off the roof

"You didn't know"

As you stared away from him

The mess you were made nick feel more guilty, he gently reached out and placed his hand on top of yours rubbing it with his thumb

Smiling faintly as your crush held your hand made you realize how touch starved you were

You then decided to place your head on his shoulder

You turned your hand over and held his veiny hands it felt really nice to feel someones warmth again

Feeling his free hand gently trace your jawline grabbing your chin and made you two make eye contact

"If I didn't give a shit
would I do this?"

As he placed his soft lips on top of yours and you immediately kissed back feeling happy

"Y/n and nick sittin' in a tree!"

You heard ellis say you both break the kiss staring at the group

Rochelle punched his shoulder

"You ruined the moment!"

"Ellis another word I'll bury you alive"

Nick spat irritated

"We brought weeks of food!"

As the three made their way into the safe room

You and nick look at each other

"Let's head inside princess"

Placing a kiss on your cheek as you both swung your legs over

"'I love you"

He whispered into your ear making your heart explode

"Love you too"

As you both walked hand in hand heading towards the latter

I love angst can u tellxd