My head is not a safe space, for me;
my thoughts flow, for eternity;
I don't know why but you're on my mind, constantly, consistently;
taking over every inch of me, it's easier for you to say "i think" than it is for me;
I quietly retrace my steps to where we are, I've come so far, to fall down now;
but the thought of it brings me to the ground;
I'm kneeling now, begging now, for a confession, an introspection;
Maybe give me a lesson, on how to hide behind my face;
I'm falling from my sanctuary,
Anxiety rolls over me, waves of doubt controlling me;
I hate to say you've grown on me, but it's more like your apart of me;
I don't know what to do inside, but I will always join you for the ride;
We're crashing down, I'm numbing now;
All I can ask is why and how?
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26/07/2020