A/n: alrighty bois this ones ANGSTY. And quite long. Sorry requester that it's a bit late but it's finally here.

Prompt: ahhh cant say it it'll spoil the story.

Should you tell him? No not yet. There's still a chance it could be a false alarm, or miscarriage. It's still too early. That's right, you were pregnant. Only a few weeks. It was kind of a shock really, but not a bad one. It wasn't planned but it just goes to show that very frustrated nights that lead to totally forgetting the consequences have, well... consequences. But it wasn't a bad thing, after all, L is the father and you knew that even though he wasn't too fond of kids, he would treasure one of his own. Having has no family himself, starting one would mean the world to him.

You'd wait a few more weeks, maybe go to a doctors appointment first.

"Hey, sorry it's late, I know. But all the leads have been followed up now"

You turned to the the father in question sleepily walking into the room.

"About time. You should really have a more fixed schedule you know" you replied, closing the lid of your laptop and putting on the bedside table.

He flopped onto the bed, just laying there face in the sheets for a moment and sighing. You giggled at his behaviour. He was clearly very tired.

"You need to stop overworking yourself honey" you said, running your fingers through his fluffy hair.

"I know" he sighed, climbing into bed properly and letting you pull him into a hug.

"I definitely will have to change up my work schedule if I want this case done in the next few months" he said.

"Oh you've got a time limit now?"

He wrapped his arms around you, resting one over your tummy. He... didn't already know did he?

"W-why the sudden time limit?" You asked.

"A case like this is no place for you right now" he replied.

"Oh? Is that so..."

He sat up, giving you a smirk. He knew.

"You know don't you?" You said.

"You really think you can hide that from me? You may not be showing yet but once you started throwing up on the daily I put two and two together"

You gave him a playful death glare, of COUSE he knew. You should have seen it coming.

"God damnit- and I was just starting to think of some funny reveal I could do" you laughed.

"I mean... I could act shocked?"

"Ah it's fine, I would have had to tell you soon anyway. Looks like you're a dad now huh?"

"Yeah, that's... kind of still something I gotta wrap my head around. Definitely could have happened at a better time when you know, Kira isn't out there. But that's our own fault I guess" he replied.

"Yeah, I guess it is. But I'm kind of existed. But... it also really hurts, and I have to carry them for 9 freaking months, I guess you could say I'm more excited for the child and not the having to push it out part"

He snickered at your words, turning off the lamp on the bedside table to get some sleep.

"Yeah I don't think anyone is excited for the actual labour process. You know, they say the mother can tell the gender, what do you think?" He asked, pulling the blankets up over the both of you and wrapping his arms back around you.

"Hmm... I dunno. I think that theory is bullshit because I have zero idea. What do you want?"

"I mean I'd be happy with anything, but... I guess I'd like a girl. I think raising a strong young woman would be pretty cool"

"I guess we'll have to just wait and see..." you smiled, placing a kiss on his forehead.

You talked for a few more minutes, about when you'd tell your family and friends. But soon you both fell asleep and slept soundly throughout the night. The next morning you both wanted to just stay in bed and say 'fuck this case' and sleep. But, alas, Kira won't catch himself. So after the painful task of having to get out of bed, you went downstairs for breakfast.

The taskforce already awake and working, you had the kitchen to yourselves.

"So I think I'll go see a doctor today, just to make sure everything is alright and book the ultrasound dates and stuff" you said, taking a bite from your pancakes.

"Want me to come? I'm sure the taskforce won't question an hour or two" L replied.

"Nah it's ok. It'll just be plain starter stuff anyway. You catch kira and get this case closed before we have a mini us running around. I'll take a taxi"

"You sure?"

"Yeah it'll be fine. You're coming to the ultrasound though"

"Wouldn't miss it for the world"

Picking up your empty plate, you put it in the sink to be washed and walked back over to L, placing a kiss on his cheek. He smiled, he always loved when you did that.

"I'll get ready and go. I'll probably be back at about... 10? Won't be so long" you said.

"Alright, bring yourself and my daughter back safe"

"Might not even be a girl"

"Bet you anything it will be!" He called out as you left the room.

You changed into day clothes, grabbed your bag and keys and slipped out without the taskforce noticing. Hailing and jumping in a taxi, headed for the nearest doctors office. You had questions ready, you wanted as much information as you could so it's be a smooth pregnancy and birth.

"Headed for the doctors huh? Should I be worried about catching anything?" The taxi driver joked.

"No, no. I'm sure pregnancy isn't contagious" you laughed.

"Oh congratulations. Far along enough to know the gender yet?"

"Not yet, still a little while to go"

"I have kids, and I'll tell you there a handful but I've never loved someone more. It's a bumpy road but it's incredibly rewarding" the driver said.

"So I've heard. I just hope everything goes smoothly"

"As long as you don't stress yourself out, you should be fi-"

You never got to hear the rest of the sentence, and the next few seconds went by in a blur. The driver hunched over the wheel, clutching his chest. Before you could get a word out he lost control of the vehicle, and the sound of chocking for air, tires swerving and a crash of metal and shattering of glass was all you heard as you felt a sharp pain and it went black.

What just happened? Did he just have a heart attack? Was it kira? No... why would a taxi driver be a criminal? But... then again, anyone can be a criminal.

You didn't feel anything for a while. Just, nothing. You couldn't remember anything that happened. But after what felt like ages, you heard... beeping. Something was on your wrist... and you'd mouth? And your head.

Slowly you began to open your eyes, but only one of them has sight... were you blind? No that's just a bandage... hopefully. Where were you? Why were you so sore?

"Ah you're awake"

You looked around. Machines, white walls, doctors? Oh... you were in the hospital.

"Miss do you remember anything that happened prior to waking up?" The doctor asked.

You shook your head.

"You were in a car crash. The driver died of a heart attack while driving and the vehicle crashed into another car. Luckily everyone but the driver lived. He was dead on scene"

"How long have I been out?" You weakly asked.

"About a day. You've has some serious injuries. A shard of glass went into your eye but emergency surgery got it out. Luckily it missed the vital parts and you'll be able to see, maybe just a little blurry. You hit your head on the door, you broke your arm and suffered some very deep cuts. The car caught fire when it collided and you have some burns in your left leg but you aren't in critical condition. You'll live" the doctor explained.

Well... at least your alive. You already knew you'd need some trauma therapy for all this, and you'd be stuck in hospital for a while with these injuries but at least your alive right? Does L know? Does the taskforce know? When your mind crossed L, a sudden horrible realisation hit you that sent panic throughout your body.

"What about... my baby?" You asked.

The doctor sighed, giving you a sorrowful look.

"When the car collided, the front seat broke off and squashed you underneath it, the bend hit hit your tummy... I'm sorry. But the baby's gone..."

You didn't know what to say. Just when you were going to see a doctor about the pregnancy... just when L figured it out... it was ripped away. Because of kira. Not only did he take a mans life, but the soon to be life of your child.

"Does... does my husband know..?" You asked.

"He's aware of the crush and your injuries, but not the baby. It's not our place to tell him that it's yours. We can if you wish though"

"No... I should tell him"

"He's in the waiting room, I'll go get him"

With that the doctor left, leaving you hooked up to your many machines and broken body to lay in dread. What would he say? How will he react? Just when he thought he'd finally have a loving family... it's gone. There's no way you'd be having a baby any time soon under these circumstances. Even when your injuries are healed... you don't know if you could handle it...

Through the door ran L, immediately running up to you and pulling you into his arms.

"Thank god..." he sighed.

"It was kira wasn't it?" You said.

"Yeah... the driver was charged with theft. Apparently he did it because he needed a car to get his kids to school..."

That's right... the driver has a family. You couldn't imagine how they must feel.

You didn't want to tell him. He was already clearly distressed about you, but you had to. It would be cruel to have him believe he's going to be a dad only to find out when you don't start showing that he won't be.

"L..." you sighed, already starting to tear up.

"Yeah, please tell me you're not dying" he replied, sighing in the chair next to your bed.

"No I'm not... but..."

Tears started to fall down your cheeks, immediately worrying L more than he already was.

"Hey, What's wrong? Don't cry or I'll start crying and it'll be a mess" he said.

"They told you that I was trapped between two seats right?"

"Yeah"

"The front seat hit me in the tummy..."

His eyes filled with dread, he knew what was coming but didn't want to believe it unless you actually said it.

"I lost the baby..."

He didn't say anything, first he gets the biggest scare of his life with you being in a crash and now he's lost his future child?

Tears started welling up in his eyes, the past 24 hours had been the most emotionally painful experience of his life. Worse than the whole ordeal with his parents. But this was like one final fuck you from the world.

"L I'm sorry if I had just gotten someone else to drive me-" you began, voice cracking.

"No- no... you aren't the one that caused the crash. It's not your fault... it's Kiras" he replied, voice quiet and dripping with sadness.

He wiped his tears with his sleeves, trying to keep it together. He didn't want to stress you out more than you already were in a state like this, so close to death but narrowly missing it.

"I hate kira... I hate him so much. We could have been parents" you sobbed.

"When I get fucking Yagami kid in jail... I'm making sure he gets the worst sentence possible. He needs... he needs to suffer for everything he's done. He killed so many people, he almost killed you, he killed our... our baby..."

"L"

He looked up at you, trying to keep it all together. But you knew he was suffering.

"Cry... just do it" you said.

Your words seeming to push him over the edge, he finally cracked and broke down in tears. Violent sobs shook his body as he leaned over with his head in his hands.

You tried to sit up as best you could in your condition to reach out for him, choking back tears yourself. You pulled on his arms and he pulled you close, both of you squeezing each other tight and crying onto each other's shoulders.

Crying seemed like the only way you'd be able to get it out right now. As long as you had each other surely you'd be ok. You're alive after all, maybe when all this passes you'll be ready to try again, and the cba for a child won't be rudely ripped from your hands.

But one things fore sure, Kira is going to pay. Light is going to pay. You'll probably never know if somehow he knew you'd get into that car, and tried to kill you too. Or if it was just the diver on his hit list that day. But whatever the case you'd take the nearest bunt object you could find and beat him to pulp with it for what he's done.

But for now, at least you lived. Your baby may be gone but you'll never forget them, and if and when you have one later down the track you'd treat them like a royalty. You knew L wouldn't let anything happen to them, neither would you. For not though, at least you still had L, and at least he still had you.

A/n: well that was very depressing so to lighten the mood, I'll leave you with this picture of how one of my ferrets was sleeping today.