Blissfully living, no one suspects a thing,
You don't show how much you're hurting.

Master at hiding only one mask taking,
The real one closed tight, in safe keeping
Clawing to surface, just barely breathing.

So much to endure in suppressed silence
Keep taking in blows, in others absence.
The burden you carry, not wish on others
Deceiving yourself not thinking it bothers.

Feel the cold through clothes barely there
Shivering hands, skin touching with care,
Gathering darkness, looking for strength,
Push up in final effort to go at any length.

Struggled heavy eyelids refusing to open
But mouth still dry and all seems broken.

A dim light shows now the familiar place
The sterile smell, the heart began to race
It can't be! Recalling last events in terror,
Shaking steps walking to face the mirror
A stranger looking back not a reflection,
'Stay calm' voice speaking with affection.

A flash and everything starts racing back
Warm tears rolled, panic in and lost track
Not easy now to stop from coming pain,
Shattered heart, lost soul, scattered brain

Remembering the promise that was said:
'Don't give up, Keep going and Get ahead'

The heart keeps pleading them to stop...
'Can't breathe or think, it is the last drop.
Please, please this is all too much to take
Not worth fixing it please just let it break!'

'No harm will come, you're safe with me!
Trust yourself, there's more in life to see'
Soft voice speaks again firm announcing,
Never alone, one look inside we're facing.

'Chin up and start wiping the dried tears,
Be strong and brave, there are no fears'.

The Voice still there with words stirring:
'Return to yourself, the you that's feeling.
Like many times before with steady pace,
And forward together will find your place'

It can't be that easy with doubt still near,
First thought is hide, only away from here
More reasons to vanish, to just disappear
One weak soul is always cowering in fear

'With struggles and all the pain that falls
You'll get the strength to conquer walls.
It's not going to be easy to do it all again
All it will be worth it, same now like then.'

"Sometimes our light goes out, but is blown again into instant flame by an encounter with another human being." ~ Albert Schweitzer