A/N: I am so devastated right now. I spent at least an hour writing an update for Blazing desire but my damn laptop suddenly turned off. When i turned it on again, the f*cking file got lost! I tried looking for it at the recent files and recovery but nothing. Great! I didn't write additional scenes  to this chapter because i am still frustrated.

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BREY's POV

Yes, I was drunk but wasn't drunk enough not to feel all the uncontrollable negative emotions that was rushing within me like the torrent of a river. I felt like all the pain that she brought me in the past automatically ignited up like a burning flame that opened old wounds. It still felt so fresh and painful.

When I was in my car a while ago, driving my way home, I already decided to come clean and confess everything to Juno. I also decided not to dwell with my past anymore and try to just forget.

I was willing to do everything and choose my happiness with Juno.

But now that my mother was in front of me, all those thoughts buried to the deepest part of my soul as the rage that has been residing inside of me resurfaced like a gas poured into the already scorching fire.

I wanted to just storm out of the house because seeing her was the last thing I wanted to do. But I wanted to know the reason of her presence in my place too. After how many years, she had the audacity to come in my own house? What for?!

"What are you doing here?" I asked with a stoic face but my insides were in turmoil. I could feel the old Brey slowly coming back into life, pushing the new Brey to the back of my heart. I could feel how anger slowly ate my heart inside and out.

"B...Let's talk, please." Her voice was shaking. I could see that she was on the verge of breaking down. Tears were threatening to fall down her cheeks but I couldn't feel anything other than rage.

I chuckled humorlessly while shaking my head. She began walking slowly towards me and I suddenly got alarmed.

"Stop! Don't ever come near me! Don't you dare!" I said thunderously. Her steps automatically came to a halt when she heard my angry voice. Then her tears fell down. I could see the raw pain that registered on her face upon hearing what I've said.

"Please, son. Please, hear me out. I know that I don't have the right to ask you anything because of what I did to you but---"

"----Yes. You don't have any right to ask me anything and you don't have the right to come into my house either. Get out." My voice was dangerously calm but menacing.

I knew how short-tempered and jerk of a person I was and I didn't want to commit something that I would regret in the end. I gave all the self-control I could muster not to fly into a fit of rage. Yes, I was mad, beyond mad, but I didn't want to physically hurt her.

Whatever happens, no matter how resentful I was to her, nothing could change the fact that she's still my mother. Mother...

I don't even remember her became a mother to me. I've never felt like I was her son ever since day one.

"B..."

"Don't call me that. People who loves me unconditionally are the only ones who are allowed to call me 'B'. You're not one of them so don't ever try to call me that." My voice was as cold as ice.

"Even if you don't want me calling you that, I'll still do it because you're my son. I was the one who first called you that nickname when you were still a baby and I will still do it because you're important to me and I love you. I know, I made a lot of unforgivable mistakes but my love for you never left my heart." my body went still in surprise because of what she just said. I didn't expect that at all.

It was my first time hearing her say that. If she only told me that in the past, those times that I needed her the most, maybe I would be happy. But she never did.

A sarcastic and bitter chuckle escaped my lips after a couple of seconds.

"You love me? How come? Since when? I've never once felt it. You never even treated me like a son before."

"Since you were still in my womb, I already loved you. Believe it or not, but that's the truth." I shook my head, didn't believe her at all.

"Stop this pretense. I don't want to hear your lies anymore. I don't know what you want from me but I don't want to see you anymore." I answered full of resentment. Her sobs became louder upon hearing my response.

I didn't know if she was acting or what because she was doing a good job. I knew her to be a tough and hard person. I've never seen her cry or became vulnerable before that's why it was surprising in my part to see her like this.

But I didn't let myself get affected. She never even showed any affection to me ever since I was a child so I didn't know what to act now that she's crying like this in front of me.

"What do you want? Why are you here? Our connection as a mother and son cut off when you abandoned me." I said with a poker face after a couple of seconds. She shook her head as more tears fell from her eyes.

Then she inhaled and exhaled a couple of times to probably calm herself down before she answered.

"I'm here because I wanted to see you."

"What for? After all those years that you abandoned me? Don't make me laugh."

"B-Because I wanted to ask for your forgiveness. I know that it's already too late for me to fix everything that I've done but I still want to try. I am aware that I hurt you too much but I still chose to come here and try to make everything right. Please, B. Forgive me. I know that it's not easy and I am not expecting for you to forgive me right away but I hope that you will in the future." I didn't want to but every word that she said affected me.

I thought that I could turn into a stone when it comes to her but that didn't happen no matter how enraged I was.

Before I could react, she strode her way towards me and hugged me tightly. I felt like my body became a statue. I was left speechless because of what she did. I couldn't even recall the last time she hugged me like this or did she even bother to even embrace me before?

"Please forgive me, B, my son. I may not be able to take back what already happened but I am here now. Mom is here." I felt like my brain went hazy. I couldn't process everything that was happening.

Then after a couple of seconds, I finally gathered myself together.

"Let go of me. My mom already passed away years ago and that's grandma." I felt her body tensed up before she slowly wrapped her arms from hugging me. When our eyes met, I almost avoided her gaze when I saw that painful expression on her face.

I knew that my words were hurtful but I didn't care anymore. I wanted to voice out all the anger in my chest.

"You never acted like a mother to me before not to mention you abandoned me when I needed you the most. Do you really think I could forgive you just like that? Because of you, I had to endure all the pain without no one to turn to. You made me experience another level of pain that I wouldn't wish for anyone to feel because it was a heart-wrenching experience. You were nothing but the woman who gave birth to me and nothing else." I turned my back on her and was about to leave her there when she stopped me by the hand.

"B, I know that I was nothing but a horrible mother to you but believe me; I was hurt too. If you got hurt of what happened, the pain I felt was double because I knew how you got hurt terribly. If you will only give me a chance to explain, I will tell you everything." My jaw flexed tightly.

"I don't need to because nothing will justify what you did. No matter what your reason is, that's still not an excuse for you to do everything that you did. You chose to be part of another family than to be with me. You chose to love the child of someone else than me, your own son." I pulled my hand back and began walking away.

I didn't know here to go but I found myself ascending the stairs.

"I know that it's hard for you to forgive me but I'm still hoping that one day, you'll find it in your heart to forgive me, my son." I ignored her and didn't answer. But when I was already halfway the stairs, she spoke again.

"But please, B. Don't involve Juno in this. She's done nothing. She didn't do anything to deserve your rage. Do what you want to do to me if that will make you happy but please, don't hurt Juno." I stopped on my tracks.

I scoffed and faced her direction.

"So, the truth finally came out. You only came here, asking for my forgiveness, because of your beloved Juno. Why am I not surprised?" I voiced out full of sarcasm. She shook her head.

"No, B. I came here because of you. But before I came here, I hired a PI to investigate everything about the boyfriend of Juno. I wasn't sure back then if her boyfriend was really you. I was shocked when he confirmed me that Juno's boyfriend was really my son. But that's not all. He also discovered what you did in the past and that was when I realized that you just wanted to take your revenge."

"I don't know what you're talking about." Fear started to creep throughout my whole body that I didn't know I was capable to feel. Ii didn't know that there was someone who could discover the truth after I already erased my tracks. I looked around, suddenly worried that Juno might have heard it.

But I didn't let her notice that I was affected of what she said. I remained as pokerfaced as possible.

"You know what I'm talking about, son. This is my fault because you wouldn't've done what you did if I didn't abandoned you like that. I understand your anger but why did you have to do that? Juno will be hurt and devastated if she discovered what you've done." I was caught off guard and unable to utter a single word.

But when I opened my mouth, I didn't expect the words that I voiced out. Maybe, it was all because of anger, not to mention the alcohol that I consumed.

"I just did what I thought what's right that time. If she discovered what I did and get hurt, then I can't do anything about it. If there's someone to blame, that's you and Juno's father. You both deserved what I did in the past."

I was about to continue ascending the stairs when I heard that voice.

"What do you mean by that?" I felt like the effect of the alcohol dissipated from my body as my eyes widened in shock. I didn't expect her to hear that.

"Cara mia..." was all that came out of my lips. She was staring at me full of confusion.

"Tell me everything that you've done." Her voice was trembling.

"I---There's nothing to tell you. That's not important." I tried to sound convincing but I failed miserably. I swallowed hard as I felt the tension around the two of us.

"You're lying." She looked downstairs; to my mother.

"Mom, what is it about? I overheard everything and you said that Brey did something in the past that affected you and daddy."

"J-Juno...I---"

"Mom? What's happening to you?!" my eyebrows creased when Juno's voice suddenly became panicky. I looked at downstairs and I got rooted on my feet when I saw my mother already clutching her chest as if she was in great pain.

Juno ran down the stairs and attended to her.

"Mom? Mom!" my eyes widened when I saw her fall unconscious on the floor. Then Juno was already hysterical while telling me to call an ambulance. I felt like I got rooted on my feet that I couldn't move right away.

"Brey! Move!" I got pulled out of my reverie when I heard Juno's loud voice. I quickly went to the telephone and did as I was told. My whole body was slightly trembling for an unknown reason.

After that, the ambulance came and took my mother to the hospital. I didn't know what was happening around me anymore. While we were outside the emergency room at the hospital, Juno never talked to me even if I tried to get her attention.

"Cara..."

"Please, not now." She said pleadingly and then sat on the chair nearby. I looked at her. She looked sad and worried but when our eyes met, there was an unknown emotion in her eyes that I couldn't pinpoint. 

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