Marinette POV

Why am I doing this? I ask myself so many times. Tikki has even told me at the beginning that this relationship we embarked on isn't good.

She hasn't spoken about it for awhile now. I guess she finally realized that my mind is made. Still...I'm pretty sure her main concern is that she just hates seeing me suffer.

That's exactly what I'm doing...suffering.

I understand that I don't have to, there's no reason for it to be like this.

I can only imagine what Alya would say if she ever found out about this. She'd most likely have a fit.

This affair with Adrien began about a few months back.

I was on my way home from a fabric shop. I wanted to get started on this design that I've been dying to try for weeks.

Everything was going well. The sun was going down and the air just had a pleasant vibe.

I couldn't help but feel a little upset with myself though. Earlier that day there was an akuma.

Chat Noir made a mistake and out of frustration I...yelled at him. I don't know what came over me I was just...mad.

I've been trying to think of a way to make it up to him, but I didn't know how.

Deep in thought I wasn't paying attention where I was going and I bumped into someone.

I almost fell, but the victim grabbed ahold of my shoulders preventing me from falling. I looked up to find that it was Adrien.

My face burned and I quickly stood upright and stepped back.

"I..I'm so sorry! I wasn't looking where I was going."

I stared at the ground as the silence between us grew tense, until he finally broke it.

"No Its fine...I wasn't really paying attention myself." He said.

That's when I noticed that there was something off about him. He sounded really upset.

"Adrien?" I reached out to him.

He didn't look at me or say a word.

"Are you okay?"

"Y...yeah everything's...fine" he looked away from me. I can tell he was lying.

"Adrien..." I said his name again.

"I'm...sorry Marinette. I'm just not in the best mood right now."

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked sincerely.

"Im sure you have more important things to do than listen to my problems. I'll be fine." He tried to laugh it off like it was nothing.

I grabbed his hand and he looked at me surprised.

"You are important Adrien." I said to him. "Come on. I have some leftover croissants at my place. We can talk there."

After that we headed back to my apartment. We ate and talked for awhile. It was nice but then, that's when he told me the problem.

Adrien...was in love with someone else.

I still don't know who she is or if I even know the girl, but knowing that his heart longed for another hurt me in so many ways.

I tried to put on a strong front and I told him what I thought of it all. I said if this girl, whoever she is, couldn't see how amazing he was than maybe she wasn't right for him.

I was babbling by then, I'm not even sure what I said anymore, I kept going on about all the thing I admired about him and how any girl would be lucky to be with him.

Then...he kissed me.

My mind went blank. I couldn't think of anything else. One part of my brain told me to push him away while the other told me to revel in this feeling for as long as I could.

And that's exactly what I did.

One thing led to another. Clothes shed. Our bodies pressed against one another. Experiencing something we never have with anyone else.

An hour after our union, we woke up and Adrien was frantically apologizing for what happen saying he got carried away.

It hurt to hear him apologizing, since it meant that he regretted what happened between us. I shook away the sad feeling and told him that it was fine and that I was glad to make him happy.

Adrien smiled. An action that always seems to make me melt whenever he does it and he hugged me.

Despite the first time being a mistake, it didn't stop it from happening a second time, then a third, forth. It suddenly became a regular thing for us to get together and...you know.

In the beginning, it was great, whenever we were alone he would shower me with affection, kisses and gifts it always made me feel like we were really together.

I feel a nudge on my cheek and turned to see Tikki staring up at me with concern.

"Are you alright Marinette?"

"Yeah just...deep in thought." I told my kwami. "I think I just need some fresh air."

She smiled at me. "Spots on?"

I smiled back. "Spots on Tikki."