Am I such a beast
That no one would want
To bear me even for a moment;
Or give me a chance to adjust?

Am I a hopeless slot
Into which no one can fit?
Am I a cold ghost
Giving every soul a fright?

Before you answer these out
Think well about it.
Cause I don't need you to answer it.
Since I know it's just a waste.

I have turned deaf to consolation.
I have turned deaf to explanation.
Don't utter anything ... It'll only ruin
Our extremely complicated relation.

No! I don't want words.
They don't soothe my pains.
They don't mend the wounds
Of which my heart forever suffers.

No ... No ... No ... Please!
Leave me alone in silence.
Let me melt in darkness.
Where none can detect my presence.

I am tired as hell.
I can no more taste and smell.
I can no more touch and feel.
I can no more hear or tell.

Umm ...

I am not even understanding
Where all this is leading.
So to everyone reading.
With shame, I am apologising.

You really need not read
If this makes you sad;
If this makes you worried;
Or inspires you to get me Counseled.

Seriously please don't hesitate
To shut this book ... Alright?
Cause I don't want you upset.
I am warning you ... Better accept.

{If you are still reading ... You are either brave or crazy}

With a sigh;
I stare at endless sky
Wondering how high
I need to fly...

Just to find a ray of light,
Of hope to find you out.
Or to permanently get lost,
Into endless night.

I stare at the calm sea
Try to figure out & see
If it can engulf me
Into depths of me.

Oh I want
To get lost
And lost
Until time-out.

{Now if you are pissed off; don't worry. You are completely alright.
If you are not pissed off; get yourself checked. Maybe you are suffering the same disease as me!}