tw: mentions of breakup. if uncomfy with it don't read it please <3
(chan and felix look so good in that picture!)

PoV.: Felix
I was so stupid. Why did I do that? Why? Why the heck did I break up? That move was so stupid and selfish! I only thought about my feelings and how I wasn't able to handle my feelings for him and didn't ask what he felt! Why did I do that? It was hard to accept that I lost him because I was so stupid. And I even had to see him like every day because he is my band member! What did I do in the past to deserve that? Gosh, I just wanted the best for us but was that the best? I only broke more and more inside and kept crying in my room, whenever Bangchan or Lee Know told me to come to practice I told them that I wasn't feeling well. Technically no lie. „Felix? You really have to go to practice today. Our comeback is in two weeks and you were at practice like twice only." our leader said through the door. „I still feel sick, Chris. I'm really sorry!" I shouted back. A sigh was heard. Then he tried to open the door, which was locked. I wanted to cry in peace.„Lixie, please open the door. I know you don't feel physically unwell. Let me in, I wanna be there for you." Bangchan spoke softly. I thought for a moment. Was it worth telling him about my relationship? Did he probably already know about it? After a minute of thinking, I went to the door and unlocked it, just for my friend to open it quickly. He looked bad. „Did you cry?" I whispered. My question was answered by a tear rolling down his face again. „I was so worried about you. We all were." I whispered a small „oh" before hugging him tightly. „I'm so sorry Chanie. I'm so sorry for worrying y'all so much." I whispered, about to cry again. But I held it back. He was worried enough. „Is it because of Hyunjin?" he suddenly asked. „What?" I was startled. How did he know? „It was obvious you two were together. Y'all were clinging on each other and when you started to lock yourself in your room, Hyunjin didn't want to talk about you. He was even crying once I asked him about you." Bangchan explained. „I was stupid, selfish. But I can't get together with him even tho I still feel something for him. It's not strong enough anymore." I whispered, starting to sob again. „Wait a moment." I nodded. „YA MINHO! DANCE PRACTICE CANCELLED, GOTTA COMFORT SOMEONE! TELL THE OTHERS!" he yelled, causing me to flinch a bit. „I'm sorry sunshine. Let's go into your room again, okay?" So we went back in my room and Bangchan locked the door, what I didn't notice tho. „So, what was going on with you two?" he asked. I sniffed, before starting. „We got together about three weeks ago and it went really well. I was the happiest person on earth. But that soon faded when I accidentally made him uncomfortable once. Seriously, I didn't know! He explained to me then and I swore to myself not to do it again. But we grew more and more distant. It was breaking me inside and then we had a fight. Y'all weren't home back then. I broke up, thinking it would be the best for both of us. But you see where I am now..." I recalled the story. „So you are trying to forget him now?" Chan asked and I nodded as an answer. „Ca-Can you..." I started, not sure if I should really ask him what I wanted to ask. „Can I...?" Ah, fuck it. „Can you help me forget him? Please?" I just asked, not knowing if it was the right decision. Spoiler: It was. He kissed me softly on my lips, earning a surprised yelp from me, which he used to shove his tongue into my mouth. The once soft kiss turned into a heated, teeth clashing one. Once we pulled back, Chris asked me if I really wanted this. I almost instantly answered with a „yes", before kissing him passionately again. He hovered over me, starting to kiss my neck. Once in a while he sucked on it or bit softly into it, earning soft moans from me. „So pretty moans for me, baby~" he whispered, earning a whimper from me. „Oh, does my baby like being praised? Being called pretty?" I nodded, whimpering at his words again. He smirked. „That's hella cute." Chan pulled away, to get rid of my shirt. He kissed my collarbones and chest, coming dangerously near to my nipples. „Not my ni- ahh~" I complained, ending up moaning loudly, when he swirled his tongue around one of them. I moaned loudly when he softly bit into it. „Your moans are so beautiful, little one~ So good just for me." he praised and I whimpered again. It was so hot how he kept praising me and it made me feel special again. Did I already mention that I started to feel something for my leader? no? then now. I started getting feelings for him. „I'm gonna ask one last time. Are you sure about this, Felix? Like, 100% sure? Because I won't be gentle with you then." I nodded. „I wouldn't have asked you if I wasn't. Please do it." was whispered by me then. He hummed in agreement and went down to remove my pants together with my underwear then, before kissing me again. While kissing me, his hand made its way to my member, cupping it, before going up and down, making me moan into the kiss. Chan took this possibility to shove his tongue into my mouth again, tasting me another time. I kept moaning into his mouth and when my dick twitched, he stopped, earning a frustrated huff from me. „Don't get impatient baby, you'll get release soon." he whispered in a husky voice and gosh, that was so hot!! „First you should do something useful with your mouth tho~" With these words Chan leaned back and waited for me to do something. Knowing what he wanted, I took off his sweatpants and boxers. I started off with kitten licks on his tip, before I took it into my mouth, bobbing my head soon. He moaned, making me sure I was doing good. „Fuck, you do that so well baby~" I moaned due to the praise, sending shivers through his dick. Soon he pulled me off. „Wanna cum inside your ass, little one." I whimpered. „Please daddy~" I moaned quietly then. The quiet groan wasn't unnoticeable. „Please what baby? You have to use your words if you want me to do something." I took a deep breath. „Please fuck me until I don't know my name anymore. Please, daddy." I whispered. „I didn't hear it properly, what do you want me to do?" Oh how I wanted to punch him into his damn face right now... „I said please fuck me until I don't know my name anymore. until I can't walk for a week. please fill me up like nobody can, please." I said, this time louder. „Holy shit I think I just came. How did you call me tho~?" Wait, what? Fuck, he heard it. „Daddy" I whispered. „Louder, kitten~" I moaned quietly at the pet name. „Daddy." I said, this time louder. Well, not loud enough. „I still didn't get it, you have to say it loud so I can hear you kitten. You will moan that later anyways~" Chan teased. „I called you daddy" This time it was loud enough. „That's so hot kitten~" He kissed me again. But short. Then three fingers were shoved into my mouth. I instantly sucked as if my life depended on it. „Such a good boy~" Chan cooed. „Enough little one." he whispered, pulling out his fingers. His hand went down to my ass, where he teased me with one finger. „Daddy don't tease~" I whined, making him smirk. Then he shoved his finger inside me, making me moan loudly. „Ahh~ more daddy, please~" I moaned loudly, causing him to pull it in and out of my hole. My moans were loud. Soon Chan added a second finger and a third, scissoring me open. „Ahh daddy you make me feel so good~" I moaned again. „Just wait until my cock is inside you, my fingers are nothing then, kitten~" With these words said he pulled out his digits, getting a huff from me. „You'll be filled up soon, kitten." That said, he lined himself up and after an impatient whine from me, he pushed himself in, getting a long moan in response. „So big daddy~" „Only to satisfy you baby~" He let me get used to it and started moving, when I told him he could. Chan pulled out until only the tip was left inside, before he slammed back in, making me scream. he did that a few more times, before I whined he should get faster. Soon he moved into me with an animalistic pace, making me scream in pleasure. He didn't seem satisfied tho. So he pulled my legs over his shoulders to get even deeper, where he hit a certain bundle of nerves, that made me go crazy. „HOLY SHIT THERE DADDY!" I gasped. He stopped his movements, before slamming once into me, hitting my prostate again. „There?" „FUCK YES!" He slammed inside of me again, abusing my prostate. The room was filled with my moans and the sound of skin slapping against each other. My dick twitched again. „DADDY I'M GONNA- AHH~" I screamed. „Me too baby, me too. Together okay?" he answered and I nodded in response. Chan wrapped his hand around my member, jerking me off with the same rhythm as his thrusts. I soon came with a loud „daddy~" on my lips, while he shot his load into me. „Fuck, that was amazing." he said, as soon as he caught his breath again. I could only nod. „Tired." I mumbled, so Chan laid down next to me, pulling me closer. „I love you." I whispered, slowly falling asleep. „I love you too." he whispered, after kissing my forehead. Then I fell asleep completely.

Damn it's longer than my life.
Word count: 1718.
longer than everything I write. I hope y'all like it tho. Byee <3