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All the others get dropped off at home and Chris and I are the last people to reach home.

He walks me to my room and was about to go to his room.

"You know. We never drank that wine you brought" I say to prevent him from going away.

His eyes light up.

"Should I come in or will we have it downstairs?" He asks.

"Come on in" I say and he does just that, closing the door behind him.

We sit on my bed and he pours the whine into our glasses.

"To the future" he says raising his glass.

"To the future" I repeat and let our glasses touch lightly. "Hmm this tastes great" I say after I take a sip and he smiles and nods.

We drink whine and eat chocolate in silence for a good ten minutes. There's some sort of tension in the room. There are so many questions hidden behind those beautiful eyes of his and I can feel it.

"Did you mean it when you said you were protecting yourself from me?" He asks eventually looking at the red liquid in his glass instead of me.

I take some time to think about it before I know the right answer.

"Not in the way you think I meant it. It's love I was protecting myself from and you were presenting it to me. You came with love in your package. I was trying to protect myself from what you felt, what's inside you. Not you yourself" I say softly.

"And when you said... you thought... I was using you for... My pleasure?" He asks still not looking at me.

"I did on the night that I said it. Not before or after" I  answer honestly.

Silence....

"Do you really regret knowing me? Am I really a pain in your ass?" I ask.

"No. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me, but you do frustrate me most of the time" he replies.

"You said so many hurtful things to me and deep down I know you didn't mean most of them. But why did you say those things?" I ask.

"I was jealous. So freaking jealous. And hurt. Broken. All I could think of was hurting you as much as I was hurting inside. There's no way I'd be able to do that physically so I did it the only other way I could. That's something I'll never be able to forgive myself for. I took most of your fears and turned them into reality. I'm sorry for everything I said that night"

"And I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I gave you a reason to be jealous" I apologize.

"I'm sorry I didn't help you get over your fear. I knew how hard it was for you to get over something that happened in your childhood, but I kept pushing you. Your dad didn't mean to hurt you either, but life happened"

"You know?" I ask surprised that he knows why I refused to give into love.

"Yeah I do. I've known for years. You're more honest in your sleep than when you're awake" he jokes sill not looking at me. "I never want to lose you again. Not even for a short while" he says and finally looks up into my eyes.
"So beautiful" he whispers before leaning forward to kiss me.

His lips are so warm and soft. He takes the glass out of my hand and places them on my bedside table. His both hands cup my cheeks as he deepens the kiss and moves closer to me.

This man is driving me crazy. His slow lingering kisses are taking me deep into bliss.

He breaks the touch of our lips and before I can complain he's kissing my neck. I tilt my head back to give him better access to my body. My body that is craving his touch. His touch that it hasn't felt I a while. A very long while. Every part of my body that gets touched by his lips screams for more.

His fingers are strangled in my hair as mine are in his, pulling each other closer as his lips find mine again.

"Yelle" "Chris"

Our tongues are rolling around one another's. It's like they're doing the perfect kind of tango. His hands are all over my body. Touching me. Caressing me. Loving me. His kiss becomes messy. Very messy. He's kissing me all over my face. Like he wants to cover every inch with the touch of his lips.

My fingers move towards his jacket and push it off of his body. He breaks the kiss and looks deep into my eyes.

"This is getting out of hand" he says hoarsely with an uneven breath.

"What if I want it to?" I ask out of breath.

"Are you sure?" He ask and I nod pulling back into a kiss.

He breaks the kiss again and gets off the bed. At first I thought he was going to just leave, but he pulls me up too. His hands go around my waist as mine go around his neck.

"What do you want?" He asks pulling me closer to him.

"You" I answer.

He nibbles at the spot bellow my ear before he starts sucking right there and I bite down on my bottom lip. He moves down to my shoulders and plants soft kisses there.

"Are you sure?" He asks again.

"Y-Yes... I'm sure" I answer less confident than a minute ago. Maybe I don't want this now. This might be going too fast.

Yes we've done this before and all, but there's something bugging me.

He walks around me with one hand still on my waist, moving as he goes. It's like he's trying to know every cell of my body, the way his eyes rake my body. He's trying to print every inch of me into his mind.

He stops right behind me and kisses my bare back and my shoulders as his hands caresses me.

I feel his fingers going over my flesh as he slowly starts unzipping my dress.

"It's not too late to stop me you know" he whispers close to my ear, standing behind me. Pulling the zipper lower every second. Slowly.

"He called you a bloody whore Chan!" My subconscious screams.

"Wait!" I say before I can stop myself. He stops unzipping my dress that's already open halfway.

A few seconds ago I was so confident about this. I knew I wanted this, but right now I just want to go to bed. I let my head down as he pulls my zipper back up.

"It's okay. I understand" he smiles when he's in front of me and places a small kiss on my temple.

"I'm sorry. I..."

"No, no it's okay. I don't want you to have regrets about anything between us... okay?" He smiles tilting my head so he can look me in my eyes.

"Okay" I smile weakly.

"That is such a fake smile" he says scrunchin his nose in the most adorable way. His words and his facial expression makes my smile grow into a real one.

"Idiot" I say and sway his arm.

"You should go to bed. It's late"

"Yeah you too. Sleep here?" I ask hopefully.

"Umm....okay" he asnwser after hesitating for a second "I'll just go change into something more comfortable" he says and walks out of my room.

After changing I lay in bed waiting for him. Just when I was about to hive up thinking he won't come back, he joins me on the bed.

He pulls me closer to him so I can lay my head on his chest and kisses me on my forehead.

"Night night baby" I hear his dulcet voice whispering before I fall asleep.
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There you go. That's the last one for today.

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And once again happy Valentine❤

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