"I don't have anything to wear!" I whine.

"Honey your wardrobe is literally packed with lots and lots of clothes. How can you not have anything to wear?"

"I just can't find anything suitable to wear"

"Try this dress"

My mom hands me a red dress to try on.

She's been helping me look for the right dress for the past one hour.

I don't really know what to wear on a date, especially because I don't know where he's taking me.
I've never been on a date with anyone else besides Chris. Chris is the kind of guy that will say you're beautiful even if you wear a sack. So when we went out I didn't have to try to look a certain way, cause I knew he would like it anyway. I just don't know if Eldridge is that type of guy too. He certainly doesn't seem like it. Dates with Chris have always been simple and fun.

okay, stop!! I'm not supposed to be thinking about Chris tonight.

He didn't talk to me about what he saw yesterday. I was expecting him to, but he didn't mention it.

I look at myself in the mirror. This red dress will do. It looks really nice. Not too much for an average place and not too plain for a fancy place.

Just right.

"You think he'll like it?" I ask

"Chan we both know Chris doesn't mind at all. He likes everything you wear"

"Oh... I'm not going out with Chris. I'm going out with Eldridge"

"Eldridge? You're going on a date with Eldridge?" She says with disbelief clear in her voice.

"Yes mom. Is there something wrong? You're acting as if I'm about to commit a crime"

"No nothing. Is Chris alright with it?"

"I don't need his permission. I can date whomever I want mom"

"What's that supposed to mean? I thought you two were together"

"No mom. Chris and I were not and are not in a relationship. Why would you think that?"

"Well why wouldn't I. You two are so fond of each other and you certainly don't act like people who are not in a relationship. The both of you act like you would die without each other. You both literally have that special look in your eyes. I notice how you look at him sometimes and how he looks at you most of the time. If you didn't know yet, then allow me to tell you that you both have feelings for each other and what you're doing right now is not the right thing"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa mom. I have no idea what you're talking about, but I can assure you that were just friends. Nothing more"

"Friends don't get intimate with each other. Not the way you and Christian have. You two have violated all the rules of friendship. I'm pretty sure you two went over the the ultimate border of friendship"

"Mom please. Can we not talk about this? Cause you don't make any sense"

"Ok fine. I'm just telling you that you should learn to acknowledge what you already have, before time makes you realize what you had"

"Yeah, yeah mom"

I don't even bother thinking about all of this, cause if I had feelings for Chris I would know. I wouldn't need someone to tell me that. I don't believe in fairy tales and their stupid ways of falling in love. Those are the kind of stupid things that make people believe in something that can never be. Happily ever after doesn't exist, because there will always be arguments and fights or even cheating and break ups.

If I have to settle down and I find someone that can make me feel as if I'm wanted, I will. But that doesn't mean it will be a happily ever after story. Until the people die, you can't know whether it was a happily ever after story or not.

I don't need all that fairy tale drama. I just need someone to help build my family.

The door bell rings and my mom goes downstairs to open the door.

I glance at myself in the mirror one last time before I walk out of my room, with my black heels making a clanking sound.

Let's see what will come out of this date.