"what are you doing here?" Asks Ji yang after left alone, but the other mostly takes his time on covering him than answering. Seeing he is done. Su she sat beside him.

"How were you for... I think five months now? I can't believe that you really let me go and didn't want to check on me while I waited everyday to see or hear something from you." Looking at the certain art on the wall. "That looks lonely! How do you manage on staying with something like...

He couldn't finish what he is in need of saying. Looking at his fingers.

"Staying like this with you, feels good."

"I missed you." Utters he. "Yes, I pushed you to pursue what you wanted but I always thought about you. Counting days to go hurry so I could see you again." Slowly he leans properly then takes Su she's palm, kissing it. "I missed your warm embrace on our together time." Patting the place beside. "I want you to hug me again." He looks weak but still... They have something between them.

"My Yang yang." Doing as he said, they become silence listening their heartbeats. "I didn't know that you know this man."

"Xiang Zhan?" The other hums. "He is more than a friend to me. A brother." Chuckling. "I just fail to understand people that they fail to know him better than judge him. He has suffered a lot that I wish to bring another world for him so he could be peaceful from everything. He deserves happiness." Leaning properly. "I wish we remain like this forever." Closing his eyes while Su she thinks of what his lover said.

.....

"Yibo!!" Calls Ji li.

"Doctor Ji li! What are you- is Xiang gē okay?" Worried.

He was having his GPS working but he Did something and couldn't find the location so went back down, asked about Zhan's name but the one on hold didn't find such name. To his dismay he choose to sit on a bench thinking how to find Zhan, after calling to be told the phone is currently switched off.

"Let's go. But first tell me Zhan's condition. Last day or the day before?" Entering the elevator.

"He was okay apart from that night he had a dream. Why?"

"Anything about something paining him?"

"I don't know. He was fine." Looking at Ji li.

"How about eating?"

"Talking about that. His appetite maybe seems to be bad. Because, he would eat at the very low potion, mostly using liquids. Like drinks."

"He had a very bad stomach. The pain he was feeling wasn't a normal one or he wouldn't be in that state. He looked troubled with it, unless it isn't hunger as he said." Opening the door the two enter inside. "I wonder where he is?"

"Who?"

"There is this guy, Su she Zhan came with." Preparing some medicines.

"What is he doing here? Where is he!" There is anger and fear within him.

"I don't know. Or maybe resting with Zhan's brother." Pointing at the door.

That's the worst mistake he did.

"You wake up before I separate you." Without mercy, yibo picked a bottle of water throwing it on Su she who was resting while sitting.

"Devil you!! What's the meaning of this??" Angry Su she spats.

"You don't know? While you are the one who did it? Did you think before attacking him?" Looking at him angry he continues. "For now I see you as a bad guy here and not him. Such a stupid asshole like you! I wonder how can a beautiful woman raise a son like you!!" He clearly knows what he did.

"Speak that again? Are you blaming my mother now? While she is the one laying because of heartless people like him!! And what do you know by the way??" Breathing fast.

"I know everything. And right now I'm trying to correct you because you. Know. Nothing forsake!!" Sighing. "Ah! I said this intentionally. See! It triggered something within you, right? Because you can't hold back. But him! Because of this harsh world he learnt how to kill himself alone than burdening anyone. He has always kept his pain and cries to himself, yet a person who doesn't know him better, only thinks of throwing his stupid accuses to him. Let me teach you. Okay? The more you feel pain on something you never want to hear or see, is the same to him. Try to put yourself on his shoes, and make comparison. Things won't match but they'll relate. Didn't know the world was so full of disgusting people. Don't look at me like that! Because I always wear a mask of being generous to everyone but I treat someone as dung especially when they crazy themselves." Breathing out yibo turns to be met by Zhan at the door.

He looks pale to be confronted. He looks thin or maybe exaggerating.

"Apologize..." Firmly Zhan speaks.

"Why should I?" Raising a brow.

"I said apologise!! Why do you keep adding me troubles when I have a lot on myself." Gulping to wet his dry throat. Musky taste of medicine is what he doesn't like.

"Apologize for what! Huh? You stop and stop! Being stupid. You wanted to be strong, right? Now what! Tired? You are sick, rather you should go to sleep." Wanting to surpass him.

"Fuck you yibo!! Who do you think you are? Do you hear yourself? Don't lecture me. I'm not your kid to boss around. Right now, I'm even disgusted at myself. I'm wondering if where I got the audacity of standing infront of you? Why do you guys love adding me troubles? You got to be treated like that by your parents, but I think I know the reason behind, it's me!! You are going over that havoc, because of me. And because your here, maybe should know the young man." Soothing his stomach

"My brother *pointing at Ji yang* got to do something that even now, his condition looks not good, because of who! Me?! I'm tired of this world, that I wish-" a slap landed his cheek.

"After turning me horny, what do you wish? To die? Burry yourself? What!! Do you think I don't know anything? I know we are nearly to go bankrupt and the reason is your father! And not you!! Hear that!" Using his index finger pointing over his temples.

"You- how did you?....

"Good question! I saw it when you were sick! This mind is crazy but it clearly understands what's going on. You had three gir- no! Fiancee's, I said nothing. You even KILLED, I said nothing, your father did what he could, still... I said nothing?

I even know how crazy you become, still... I said nothing. The most of all those, I'm smitten by you. You are crazy but that is for me. Because, you are slowly and trying to open your heart again? And I'm patiently waiting? All this is happening because of your father. Do you know what I said to my mother! Begged, just to be with you. Left them running to you. I tried my all, just to search for you. Because I knew after everything, you needed your space and I'll try my best to help with it. My heart, this!! Is the one that wants to do everything. So, if you want to die, leave your talent behind if it means fuck! To you. Pack your bags then go somewhere far and strangle yourself to death. But here in Beijing or anywhere in China, will find about it, and the next I'll kill the one who pushed you to this." Crossing his arms challenging him.

"Yibo- you don't... ever try to think about... that." Stutters Zhan.

"Don't worry. My boyfriend won't allow it." Turning over Ji yang, and Zhan almost fainted. "You really are handsome. No wonder if you have a son grown up like Zhan? I'm sure you have been pregnant when you were six months brought from your mother's womb." Bending a bit. "Look at his reaction and tell me. Does he look like he wants to push me away?" Whispers he. While Ji yang looks at Zhan also he manages to see Ji li who was ready to throw punches.

"Does he?" Blinking then coughs a bit averting yibo's gaze. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean it."

Snorts yibo.

"It's okay. Because that old man, I'm sorry but not you? *Looking at Zhan* I'm talking about your father. He is laughable. Arrogant, illiterate. I'm the one I love you. But you are crazy to me." Blushing. "Because you see me in your heart." Going over he hugged zhan's body. "So, please don't try to let me go as I won't to you.

Wetting lips Zhan tries his best to avoid the tears as his breathing was heaving him a lot. Pouting them to avoid the situation all turned to failure when his shoulders shook slowly and hid his face over the short figure on his shoulders. His sobs come out loudly because he can't hold back his agony.

"Yi-bo, yibo I-...

He just can't go on, finally hugging back, too tight for yibo to swallow everything.

"It's okay. To cry, get angry, even if you try to hurt yourself, always will be there for you. I don't know if too I'm acting clunky or what! But I want to be selfish too, like you! So you don't push me away." Stroking his back. "It's okay...

Everyone was looking at them, while yibo too looks at them. Smiling a bit at Ji li who gave him thumbs up.

"I want to leave here." In a hoarse voice Zhan utters straightening himself. "Ji li, thank you but don't worry. I'm fine. Just want to leave here. Ji yang, make sure you transfer the many to the Wang's. And yibo I won't accept any deniyal from you nor your parents. Su she, I know. I'm sorry about yibo's behavior. Nothing and no one's at fault but me. So don't blame him. He was just angry. Take care of Ji yang. I'm leaving him on your hands." Turning he slowly leaves the room.

"Xiang gē, wait for me!! You didn't explain me what was the money for? Good night everyone!! Promise you my parents won't accept it. You are just wasting your time!!...

"Then let them throw it!!!....

Their voices were heard before closing the door, leaving the ones inside smile at them.

"You heard what Zhan said. You have to rest and other things will follow." Orders Ji li looking at the new guy he just saw.

"Don't worry." Speaks Su she while Ji li nods taking his stuff leaving. Ji yang feels happy being with his lover.

"But you have a show tomorrow."

"Don't worry. Early in the morning I'll take my leave. But for now I can't leave you alone. Now let's sleep."

"You reek sweat. Go for shower. I thought you changed your behavior. Now go, unless you want me to get sick again."

"Okay! I'm going." The arrogant Su she seems to be a very obedient street dog.

"That's it!!" Smiling Ji yang lays his body waiting for him.