It was the night of sleeping but yibo was pacing here and there, since Zhan entered to have a talk with the doctor.

'What did this man do to me that, I can't stand seeing him getting tainted than he is already? I don't know the future and I'm scared of it. But what I ask for, is for strength dear lord.'

"All the signs you said to me, can't say you the answer directly. Feeling nauseous, vomiting blood, abnormal (above the navel) pain, having blotted stomach all the time... aaa... Let me check your eyes first." Stands up the doctor going over Zhan's side he takes a flash, checking him on every eye. He breathes out. "We need to have an MRI, CT scan as well as we will have your blood for a test. Did you come alone?" Asks the doctor heading back his seat.

"No, I came with someone else." Speaks Zhan.

"Do you mind her staying beside you? Or you wish to do-

"I wish him beside me." Fast Zhan answers and the doctor stopped on his tracks to see the 'what' face he is giving him. "I'm I not allowed? Or you wouldn't ask me!"

"Don't worry. Also, it'll give assurance for your worries ship away." Smiling the two get out to be greeted with yibo's worries face.

"He needs to have further checkups." Smiling to him, yibo's eyes look at the silent Zhan, for some reason his a silence scared him more than he used to feel it. Zhan was scared.

"Everything is going to be fine." Taking his hand for assurance the two leave.

Inside Haoxuan's and Su she's room, they are doing their practice in a manner of no disturbance among each other.

"Haoxuan, do you have a sibling?" Stretching his legs.

"No! Why?" He asks cremming the do re, mi fa so's.

"Well...I just wanted to know?"

"Maybe I would have till now but, mom and dad said he died due to a heart disease. My twin. To me it was just lucky that I was saved after treatment. It was nothing big but I too was suffering." Speaks Haoxuan. "I wonder how would we look like, if he was here." His mind goes highway.

"So, you mean, you were born twins!" Nods Haoxuan. "That never crossed my mind." Thinking. "Your parents really said he was dead?"

"What's wrong with you? Your questions look suspicious and absurd." He kinda finds Su she weird.

"Sorry. I got to remember something that's all." 'why do I feel like you want to look alike?' thinks deeply while Haoxuan turned to look at him.

'He is kind of suspicious today. Why asking me about a sibling and so? And...' shifting his gaze to an empty wall.

Next day.....

"Zhan! How are you today?" Shouts Lulu.

"Fine. You?" They just used the beautiful morning for jogging outside the camp.

"Cool! Yesterday yibo told me, you guys were at the hospital, how was it?"

"Fine. I underwent some tests. One out of two came out already but he wanted to be hundred site. I don't what's bothering me." Reduces his speed finally walking. And Yanli did the same.

"What's wrong that you have to wait for the results?" Worried

"The CT scan is ready, yet for MRI and blood test. They'll take a week for the results to be out and I'll know what has been bothering me. Seems like a life threatening or just my exaggerations." Chuckling.

"Zhan, can't you let everything go? I don't know what your past held, but, see yibo as someone who is willing to bet his life with yours, who wills to do everything just to make you the one we didn't get to know. Give yourself a chance to be selfish. To love. Because I know that's your mental disease. You are yeaning for love. Open up." Smiling at him.

"A real doctor or just pranking me. Also, no matter how I try, still will be filled with the guilty no one can erase it." Smiling.

"Not your friend right now but a doctor at work. You can seek any advice from me whenever you want." And by the time she was smiling Zhan noticed two guys, his assumptions went right after recognizing one.

The two saw Zhan but hide and busied themselves to not be noticed.

"What is it Zhan?" Asks Yanli. But her answer was seeing Zhan going over the man taking him by his tie throwing a punch. His hands worked not speculating anything but quench his thirsty.

"Why do you follow me you...dogs! He sent you. To spy on me. How much do you get outside your normal pay?" Huffing out his anger, his eyes were void of hatred bloodshot, cast over the one being handled by the other. Whimpering in pain. "I'm saying this. Not even your shadow for me has to see it. Because I don't know when will my blood thirst rise again. Now leave!" Two last words the two left in hasty and fast steps. "I'm fine. I'm always okay. Don't speak anything." Warned Lulu before she could speak anything.

What she noticed is for a minute Zhan wasn't himself. The rage on his eyes showed her that he was scaredy, threatening. Thinking that this change might be related to his mental disorder like what she got. After asking her doctor friend to help her find such info of the patient. Which she knew that was illegal. Only to be shocked by what her Friend told her.

"Didn't you know!? The patient Xiao Zhan was under my care after he was shifted to the asylum. The guy was to much of a mental breakdown. He was a hard case. But couldn't believe whose son was? He is a son of Minister? You know I stayed with these news for years and I'm disclosing it to you, so, let it be our secret." He friend explained.

"Reason?"

"Love."

"What?" Lulu found the reason absurd.

"But the hit one is, he is a murderer. They couldn't keep him more in jail because of killing as he was too difficult to handle after one year. So they released him."

"Then?"

"Brought to the hospital for medication. In the hospital he once even drugged a patient with some medicine, thankfully he was saved on time but to Zhan? was seen a threaten to the patients. So a single room for himself was enough but again he tried killing himself by falling out of the building. Again strangling himself, thanks all his attempts went saved by the nurses who found him. And the conclusion was to send him at the asylum. More seclusion for another one year."

The news was too much to swallow.

"His mother looked very pitiful but the father was a dismind. He didn't give a damn to his sick son."

From the piece she heard it was enough to have the expressionless Zhan but behind there was still a pure and soft heart Zhan. Because these are her sure instincts of the past Zhan.

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"Is it must having those medicines?" Shouts yibo seeing how crazy Zhan has become after not finding his capsules. Two days have pass, and two more people did leave the campus after their third triming. Remaining only twenty four on line.

"I want them. Where are they??" Almost shouted Zhan when he didn't find the medicines.

"Xiang gē, please. You can't keep living your life with them." Pleads yibo nearing the trembling Zhan, the craziness keeps crawling out exposed.

"I don't want to kill. If I don't take them, I'll kill you!! Because I already did!!" Crouching down, his head his between his legs. The situation wasn't good at sight seeing, so he immediately called Ji li but also he didn't forget to call Lulu as a first help.

"Xiang gē...

"Don't come closer." Crawling at the far corner. Rubbing his palms together. He looked to small like a ball. And it seemed like something was jumping his head like movie, the best way Zhan did was like shaking his head like erasing whatever is that. "Mo-mom." Now he just started crying. They were like of a small kid. His wails were muffled but still reached yibo's ears.

"Yibo..." Comes in Yanli. And all she get was yibo's finger pointing over the curled Zhan.

"He's been looking for his medicine." Speaks yibo.

"His mental illness isn't something to depend on medicine. Psychologically, there must be something that triggered him. He might have have had thought about some things, turned to stress, PTSD, can say. Stress linked with traumas. Which a simple talk can help. But because his mind had depended on medicines it'll be hard to a have a full control over him."

"But doctor Ji li said that they weren't any of mental medicines. They were some sorts of strong pills, that could turn out to addictions. Could harm his body. So he always insisted me to watch him never take them again."

"More like drugs. Not hospitalized by a doctor right?" And be shrugs in not more of an assurance.

"Xiang Zhan?" Called yibo when he heard no noise from Zhan. Heading over, he tried raising his face but only felt the heavy body on him. "He fainted." Worried yibo speaks. And hardly he carries him on the bed waiting for Ji li.