It pisses me off whenever I make updates then chapters misplace themselves. Sorry I got to make some changes, and update again. Nothing big, because you had already red the chapters. Though you might have felt confused when reading chapter eight. Just wanted to say this before hand so you won't feel confused on e you get more and same notification. Thanks again

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After a long week which looks to them. Five days of struggling today they at least get to rest the so called rest which is by roaming around the city and see what they haven't.

"Guys. I'll take you to this restaurant. It's superb in everything." Shouts Lulu.

"Okay!"

"But first I should call my husband."

"Husband!!" The same time yibo and Cheng.

"Yes. And I have a son. Six years old!" Smiling. But in a minute her voice wasn't the friendly as it used to be. "If you don't bring Peixin with you prepare for more punishment because you already have one." Grinning evily. "I don't care!" Hanging up. "Let's go!"

Silently yibo and Cheng followed and lastly Zhan.

"This is the restaurant!" Shouting in delight.

"Argh! So it's here! I already got here!" Shouts yibo. "Really, the food here is the best." Everyone being happy didn't know that Xiang was no more and worst he looked gloomy than he usually is...

"I'm hungry but...let's take a break here." A beautiful woman's voice screams pointing at the huge poster on top of the restaurant.

"Then it's not a break, at least say bao~ I'm hungry." Pinching her nose. Zhan's face was shining more with that love of his.

"Okay~ my beautiful bao~ we took a long walk. So can we have a break but not an empty one? A tummy fill break." Swaying his hand.

"Of course my kêaì (cute) bao." Giving her a peck running Inside.

Already seated zhan's mind isn't there at all. Because this place seems to hold some happy memories with the person of his heart. But what if it's not as happy like thought? This time is different, more childish and beautiful.

"Naila, what do you want to eat.?" Asks Zhan looking at her babbish behavior.

"What about you?"

"You know how simple I am. Need chicken sandwich with fries and coffee."

"Can you keep away that bitter drink of yours for today?" Whining.

"Okay. Don't sulk. Then I'll chose a melon juice." Smiling.

"Game pass. I'll have the same as yours." Smiling.

"Then I'll have as Xiang ge. A humbagger with a melon juice." Smiling, yibo too makes an order. Zhan keeps eyeing him as the memories jump in like it's the reality.

"Lulu." Shouts a man's voice waving.

"Mommy!" A boy runs to Lulu jumping on her. "I missed you Mommy." Kissing her face.

"Big boy. Mommy misses you too. How are you." Kissing back.

"Oh! The photoshooter!" Snaps yibo.

"So that means...

"This is pure embarrassment. Love, I thought you where alone." Kissing her cheek.

"Needed company because someone kept avoiding me." Yanli keeps lamenting

"But remember I told you it was Peixin's school visiting day! That's why couldn't meet you!"

"Mommy, don't be sad with Dad. He is always dumb and stupid. And if he wouldn't come again he would have to see the outcome. Oh, I missed my mom. You did a very great choice to tell him have me pick from school. Or else would have suffered." The six year boy speaks feeding over the pizza he found on his mother's plate.

"This kid..." Tsk yibo.

"Stop frowning. Do you see yourself right now! The world is too short. Smile more." The kid again speaks pointing at Zhan.

"Me... Looking at the boy

"Yes you! Or who else looks like a monkey! And you!, stop cursing me for no reason. This is how I am? So get used to me and next time you won't have to suffer." Gulping his drink.

"Peixin!!.." Yanli warns.

"Okay my beautiful mom. I won't." The kid was just funny watching, looked like the older one from all. But something again appeared.

"Got, got... Hi" that's no other than Zhanilla. She is not herself either. "Baby girl...go have your sit I'm coming."

"Okay Mom" she looks in her teen age.

"Hello..." Greeting her but she didn't stop eyeing Zhan who remained silent and looked like he lost his appetite.

"I would like to have a word with you.. Sean." Zhan's neck turned with a sharp eye.

"And. Who is that. That person is dead. Since he was killed." The knife digging his flesh.

"Do you want them to acknowledge us differently after hearing what I want to sa-" her words remained unfinished when he caught her hand forcefully dragging her.

"You follow me." Reaching the small allay between buildings. "What do you want from me!" Looking at her, he is angry and it's markable through his face.

"First how have you been?".

Chuckle...

"Listen, I want to apologise for what I did to you that day. It still haunts me till today. I'll get this fact out of my mind. Just tell me you are safe-

"For what purpose Zhao lying? You and I are completely strangers!... Being with you during my time here doesn't mean I should know you! Forget that. Thanks to you my life turned upside down that day. The brightness within me, without anyone's help saw myself how destroyed I was? Only because I wanted to entangle with you for life.. but was wrong. In exchange added more burden to my already burdened life. Of course I wasted your time,but!!....did you have to make me embarrassed infront of those people, you... How come! You could have broke up with me earlier, we could have stopped the preparations, but did it have to be that day of all!? Why, just. Why?" Looking at her tears flowing.

"It was very hurtful leaving you~

"Hurt! Do you know how that word had it's place my whole life! Do you? No you don't, because with all the begs and pleads, ran deaf within your ears. All my life since then became miserable, I even....took...was sent to a ment..." He couldn't finish as his mind could oversee what's coming leaning the wall.

"Zhan, what happened...

"Don't come near me, no, don't! Even make skin contact with me..get away from my.. me.... NOW. I don't want to see you, don't show your image on me again. Don't have.. any, intimate relationship with me when we meet... Just, pretend, no! Forget about me, as I already did years before. You can't see how destroyed I am." His body going down, on the dirty pebbles.

"I'll take my leave." Just by giving her back, behind Zhan beats his knuckles, trying to suppress the reaction.

"Why do...you come again! Why." Rolling his pupils out more. "She shouldn't..never in my life..I wanted to see her..they are gone, she should too.."

"Xiang!! Zhan ge... please.." it was yibo running over him who had sneaked following him behind and of course he heard everything when he was hidding.

"Why...do you *rubbing his neck turning red* keep seeing me this way...I'm not crazy, like my father says. Not you too. They said...I was crazy. But..no, no.. don't go over the road, you'll die...she died outside the restaurant. I lost her...we ate...ah! No." Hidding his face. "I don't want these memories. Stop it! Please..no, no one can see me like this."

This whole time yibo was looking into his bag because he carried the bottle that looked like Zhan forgot it. Taking two of them shoving inside zhan's mouth sat down and hug him, rocking him. Not stable enough yibo looks around, as his eyes feel hot. He feels like crying, especially what he heard and the condition he sees Zhan in.

Even though the world is harsh?
Always I'm here, with you?

Even though the road is narrow~
But the glamorous relief is there...

If I want to~ I want to...
Just let me be...

If I need to~i need to...
Just allow me...

The pain, let me dig it out..
Your agony, let me erase it...

I know what you need, what you crave...
To feel once can feel it more...more..

Trying his best to sing, whatever words come within his mind they go with his poor Melody. But one thing is that, Zhan had calm down a bit though his expression was of sadness.

"The second time. Where you following me?" Asks Zhan.

"What if I was? I knew something like this would happen and thinking about you being alone, didn't know what you'd do? Sorry if you mind this but scold me later." Looking serious.

"Don't be far from me! You can't die like how she died. My fiancee." Breathing difficultly. "The same restaurant, the same food and in exchange I come to lose her... Our destiny wasn't a recruited one. We weren't planned till the end. Still I find talent of mine trouble. She too didn't like me being a singer but didn't give up on me either, in exchange my selfishness Led to her death, if she would have broke up with me, couldn't have died. That day too haunts me everyday. Dragging with me to feel how guilty I am." Sobbing silently.

"So, you mean. Zhanilla isn't the only woman! Then how many did you have relationship with?"

"Three....out of them one is breathing but her existence doesn't give me peace. She makes me remember how, herself opened a cursed door for me in my following life." His cries increasing.

"What about the last one?"

"I..I..I....." That's what came out of his mouth.. crying more hysterically.

Thank you~~