***HELLO! SO IM BACK WITH A PART 2 AND MORE TEARS. I WANT TO APOLOGIZE AGAIN...YALL ARE REALLY GOING TO HATE ME FOR THIS. OKAY BYYYYEEE.***

SPOILERS FOR SEASON 2 IN HERE

;WARNINGS; Suicide. Depressing Thoughts. More Gay Shaming. Gay Name Calling. (i am a terrible human being)

KEITHS POV

'God what the hell is WRONG with him?' I stomped down the castle halls, unable to express my aggression. 'A guy cant like a guy! Thats disgusting! And LANCE? How could Lance like ME?' I sighed and stopped walking. It was odd, I felt so angry and disgusted...yet I didnt. Somewhere in my chest I felt...ok. What Lance said to me was supposed to completely put me off right? Then why do I feel kind of...ok with it?

I turned and kicked the wall letting out an angered cry. "Keith? Are you alright?" I turned to Coran stroking his mustache. 'I dont know'. I answered in my mind. "Yeah. Just a little stressed." Coran gave me a searching look but gave up. "Oh. Alrighty then. Just try not to hurt my castle too much. It has a sensitive soul." Coran sang sweetly and stroked the castle walls.

I raised a brow. "Right...erm, do you know where I could find Shiro? I need to talk to him." Coran stopped petting the walls and nodded. "He is in the dining hall." I half-smiled. "Thanks." I turned and quickly walked away. 'I hope Shiro can help me...'

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LANCES POV

'I guess no one would love or want a dissapointment...' I eventually stopped crying and went to my room. I curled up on my bed, replaying his words in my head.

A guy cant like a GUY!!!

Its disgusting!

Are you that thick??

I cant be friends with a queer!

As if I would fall for you.

STAY AWAY FROM ME!!

The tears streamed down my face again and I clutched my pillow. It hurt so bad when he said all of those things. I had always fought with my feelings, and when Keith said all of those things... I sat up and rubbed my sore eyes. 'Has he already told the team? Oh god what will they say? What am I gonna do?'

Knock knock.

I jumped at the sound. "W-Who is it?" I asked, my voice croaky. "Lance? Dinner is ready. Are you ok?" I nodded even though he couldnt see me. "Yeah im good buddy." Hunk made a dissaproving sound. "Lance open the door and tell me whats wrong."

My gut twisted at the thought of explaining everything to Hunk. However, I knew he wouldnt leave me alone until I was better. "Ok. Come in." I turned and flopped back down onto my bed. I listened to the door click open and Hunk shuffle inside. "Lance?" I heard some more shuffling, then felt a dip right behind me.

"Hey Hunk." My voice was so crackly and sore from crying. "Lance, turn around. Whats wrong?" Seeing no other option I slowly sat up and turned to him. Hunk gasped. "Oh my- Lance what happened?" Hunk gave me a hug.

I sniffled. "I-I cant tell you." Hunk pulled back and looked at me. "No. Lance, tell me whats wrong. Im your best friend. Im here for you." I thought it over and nodded. "Okay. But its alot." Hunk placed his hand on my shoulder. "Im here for you buddy." I took a deep breathe. "Okay. This is what happened..."

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KEITHS POV

I found Shiro in the dining hall, thankfully alone. He immeadietly saw right through me and looked at me questioningly. "What happened? Did you two get into another fight?" I shrugged and sighed. "Sort of..." Shiro set aside his food and gave me his full attention. "What happened?"

I sat next to him. "Okay, here it is..."

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LANCES POV

Once I finished Hunk sat in awed silence. Then, suddenly Hunk's face twisted into rage. "Im going to kill him!" I scrambled over the bed and grabbed his arm as he tried to walk away. "No! Dont, its ok-." "Lance! What he said and what he did was not okay!" I sniffled and looked down at my hands. "I know. But I still love him."

"How? After everything-" "I know, I know. Its just hard to stop loving someone." Hunk took a deep breathe. "Okay. Ill let you deal with this. But if you need me, im always here for you. Ok?" I smiled at him. "Ok." Hunk gave me one final hug and then left my room. Now that I was alone again I felt sadness, so I just layed down and tried to block out everything...

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KEITHS POV

I jumped as Shiro shouted at me. "YOU DID WHAT?!" Shocked, I blinked several times and stuttered. "I-I mean; Its disgusting a-and-." "Keith are you fucking SERIOUS??" Shiro cut me off and slammed his hands on the table. I was shocked into silence. Shiro never cussed. Especially at me or anyone else. Shiro glared at me. "Keith, how could you say that to a fellow paladin. A fellow friend?" I tried to speak but he held up a hand. "Shut up. Even if you dont agree with him, you do NOT cut down another person like that. Especially when the are in love with you and are so vulnerable. Do you realize the damage that you probably have done to him?"

I felt hot shame jab at my stomache. Tears welled up in my eyes. I stared at the table, unable to look at Shiro. "Keith, do you remember when we figured out that you were a Galra?" I flinched at the memory. "Yes." I whispered. Shiro continued. "What if we all did what you just did to Lance?"

I finally looked at him. "B-But thats different! I couldnt help that I was born this way." "And neither can Lance." I stopped and gasped. "I didnt realize...I never thought..." Shiro finally stood. "You need to go apologize. Now." I nodded and stood. "Thank you Shiro." Shiro didnt respond and just walked away.

'I gotta go find Lance'

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LANCES POV

The pain was back. I sobbed and clutched my pillow tighter, muffling my cries. 'Is it normal to cry this much? Am I being stupid? Keith obviously doesnt care about me, so I should just get over it. Right?'

But the more I tried to convince myself, the more the pain grew. I laid on my back, gasping for air. I felt like I couldnt breathe. Like I couldnt function. The first person I have ever came out to, the man I love, despises me and hates my guts. 'At least he hasnt told the team yet. Hunk seemed surprised and everyone else would be here by now.'

I felt like I couldnt breathe again so I sat up and fisted my hair, trying to numb my own pain. God, it all hurt so fucking much. I didnt know what to do, I could barely think. 'Stop. Stop. Stop. Stop stop stop. It wont stop.' I stood and paced my room, shaking violently. 'Will it stop? Maybe it wont ever stop.'

'....or maybe it can.'

I froze and all shaking ceased. What if...what if I just went away? What if I stopped existing? This pain would stop, and Keith would never have to worry about me again. They will find another Blue Paladin, and I can be free. I felt a heavy hope settle in me. I was terrified of myself, but I wanted this.

Knowing exactly what to do I briskly grabbed some papers and began writing some letters. Once done with those, I placed them neatly on my desk and went to set my plan into action...

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KEITHS POV

"Ugh Lance where the hell are you?" I mumbled, walking back out of the training deck. Ive searched everywhere, and I couldnt find him. Well, I havent checked his room. I face-palmed myself. "Idiot." I sighed and quickly made way towards his room.

I gently knocked on his door. "Lance? I know im probably not who you want to see right now, but I wanted to talk." I waited, but got no reply. "Lance? Are you in there?" I put in his key to open the door and walked inside. The room was vacant. I turned to leave but paused when I saw a bunch of papers on his desk. I slowly went and picked them up, reading them.

I gasped and almost dropped the sheets. Lance was going to kill himself. I grabbed all of the papers and rushed out, hoping to find him in time...

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LANCES POV

My hands trembled as I stepped into one of the launching pods. I took deep breathes and listened to the door automaticly click shut infront of me.

Space door opening in; 10 seconds.

My stomache constricted. 10 seconds, what will my final thoughts be? I thought back to the team, my family, the ocean and the rain, earth, big blue, and...Keith. I kept all of them in mind, wanting to die remembering the things and ones I love.

...6. 5. 4.

Tears started to stream down my face, and I finally turned to face the opening door. I honestly felt at peace, and good with all that ive done and have done. I felt the need to say something, so I whispered to the air. "Im sorry that I wasnt strong enough everyone, I just couldnt do it."

...2. 1. Space door now opening.

I closed my eyes, and awaited the unknown...

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KEITHS POV

"SOMEONE!! HELP PLEASE!" I ran into the main control room. Allura turned to look at me. "Keith, what is wrong?" I panted and handed everyone the letters. "Lance is going to kill himself." "What! Why? What happened?" Pidge asked, frantic witg worry. "I cant explain right now, but we have to find him!" Allura nodded ans began to bark orders.

Dread settled over me as I choked back tears. 'Please be ok Lance'. Coran gasped. "Princess the space door in the pod launcher is beggining to open!" A heavy weight settled over the room. "Do we have time to save him?" Coran frowned. "Once the countdown starts...it can only be stopped from the inside."

"Get me the visual for the pod." Allura's voice was hoarse with fear. We all looked to the big screen, homding our breathes. Lance stood there with his eyes closed. He seemed so calm. So collected. "Lance! Lance stop this NOW!" Allura screamed, but he didnt seem to hear her.

Lance sighed and spoke softly into the air. "Im sorry that I wasnt strong enough everyone, I just couldnt do it." We all started screaming. I was crying, trying to yell out to him.

But it was too late.

We all watched the door open. In a flash, Lance was ripped through the opening and thrown into space. We all fell silent, not knowing what to do.

"Lance." My voice was broken as I crumbled to the ground. I made him do this. I killed him.

"W-Why did he do this." Coran looked to me for an answer. Everyone looked at me. I tried to speak, but I couldnt answer. "Ill tell you why," Hunk seethed "because Mr.badass screamed at Lance for being a homophobe and loving him!" Pidge gaped at me. "Keith. Did you do this?" I slowly nodded, not looking at anyone.

"HE WAS YOUR FELLOW PALADIN! YOUR FRIEND! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HIM!" Shiro held Pidge back as they tried to attack me. I was again at a loss for words. Allura looked upon me with fury. "You do not deserve to be a paladin."

My breathe left me and I finally broke down crying. "I-Im sorry. I was w-wrong. I didnt m-mean to do this to him." Hunk glared at me. "Yeah? Well sorry doesnt bring Lance back." Everyone left and went to go grieve for Lance. I remembered my note and shakily pulled it out of my pocket.

Keith,

I know what you think, and I know what you said, but I cant help loving you. I probably will never stop loving you. But I see that I only cause you annoyance and problems. So I have decided to free you. I hope you can understand that all I ever wanted was to be closer to you, and that I never meant to anger you. Even if you hate me, please be strong for everyone. Remember me. And when you return to Earth please find my family. Tell them I died in some epic space battle or something. My madre couldnt handle knowing that I ended my own life. I love you Keith Kogane.

Forever and Always,

Your Sharpshooter; Lance Mcclain

I sobbed and held the paper close to my chest, burning the words into my mind. A hole was ripping through my heart and I cried out so loud it hurt. I tried to reign myself in, but I couldnt stop sobbing. I now knew my feelings, right when it was too late. If I had just found him in time, spoken to him, we could have been happy. He would be here right now telling me some stupid pun or flirting with me. I re-read the last sentence and sobbed. "I-I love you Lance Mcclain.
Forever and always..."

WOW. OK. I AM OFFICIALLY THE WORST HUMAN BEING EVER. SOMEONE REQUEST SOME FLUFFY-NESS STAT!!!