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A/N: SINCE BY POPULAR DEMAND. I CHOSE THIS TO BE NEXT. I  KNOW I PICKED THE FRENCH SWEETHEART PART 2 BUT I HAVE AN IDEA FOR THIS ONE BEFORE THAT ONE SO HERE IS THE PART 2 OF HOLD ON. IT IS NOW THE SONG NOT ALONE BY DARREN CRISS I HOPE YOU ENJOY. THE WARNINGS BEFORE IS STILL THE SAME. 

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PLEASE READ ENDING AUTHORS NOTE PLEASE!

I've been alone
Surrounded by darkness
I've seen how heartless
The world can be

There I look up again at an empty white roof of Kurt's bed room. I was already planning to go to Kurt's for 2 weeks because my family was going on business trips back to back. I just laid there. 

I wish he was right next to me. 

It has been a few days since he has been admitted to the ER. That night he flatlined, I thought I was going to lose him.

 I closed my eyes and pictured how I was going to react to everything. At his funeral have a member from glee hold me down when they lower Kurt. Not leave my bed for weeks on end and cutting off everyone for a month. Not eating because of how much I miss him. I would cry before bed; if that is if I do sleep that night. I would be a zombie in the halls during my last few years of high school. I would go to his grave until someone kicks me out . Cry to it and tell him how much pain I am in. I would cry if anything reminded me of him. 

"Time of death 00:05 AM." The doctors soon spoke. They stopped everything and looked at the lifeless body.  I had fallen to the floor once I heard that.

 I can't believe I lost Kurt.

 No I am not going to lose him. I got up and pushed through the sea of doctors. I Performed CPR. "Damn it Kurt I am not losing you! Not now! Not while I am alive!" I kept screaming. The doctors kept telling me nothing was going to work but I kept going. 

Everything changed when I heard that sound. 

Beep Beep Beep. 

I started hearing  hope. 

A heartbeat. 

That night was such an emotional one for all of us. We had that small hope and when we almost lost him again. The doctors that night told me how honored that i saved him. They gave me an award the next day. They kept telling me that I should be a doctor and joke once he wakes up he better marry me. I laughed it off but and just smiled at them. 

I really I wish that will happen. That is if he dose wake up. 

They told us that we should go home. They were telling us he would need to be in their care and that  he was in the best care. They told us they would call us as soon as he would to wake up.

That if he does. 

 I begged the doctors once again but they kept telling me to go home and rest all we have is time now. 

Time will be the death of me. 

During the car ride back to their house I did not speak a word. I just looked at the window thinking about my future with Kurt. 

"I am going to make some dinner everyone go and rest, I will take care of everything." Burt told all of us. I couldn't rest. I needed to leave. "Mr. Hummel I am going for a run." I tell him. "Blaine please get some rest you need it." He told me. "Sir I can not rest not until I hear Kurt is alive." I told him. He sighed and let me go.

I ran. 

All I heard was my heart beating out of my chest. Thumping faster than I can catch my breath but I still kept going.  I needed to clear my head. I ran up on top of the hill that's 3 miles away form Kurt's house and I just screamed. 

"Why, why him!" I yelled up to the sky. I looked around it reminded me of our first date. 

Kurt took me to this spot because it was the only spot he can be truly alone. This was where he could think, sing , and scream. He took him here for a midnight picnic. He made the best food that he found on pinterest and we just talked and cuddled until the sun came up. 

I never wanted that to end. 

Tears fell down as I tried running back home but everywhere I turned it was a memory of us together. 

Happy. 

Alive.

I closed my eyes and tripped on the sidewalk. The ground felt hard, cold, and unwelcoming. The gravel and dirt the was on my face just made me think of them adding dirt to Kurt. No time for just lying here I told myself. I just got up and continued to run. The amount of adrenaline and emotional pain I was in I could not feel that I a bleeding cheek. I run in the door just in time for Burt to call dinner. I sighed and sat down at the table. "Blaine how was your run?" Burt asked right before he looked up. "Blaine your check is bleeding!" He said to me. I shakingly put my hand on the now throbbing cut. "Excuse me." I did not want anyone's attention on me. I went to Kurt's room and shut the door behind me. I sat down on his bed I looked up on his bedside to see a picture of us. Not just any picture. 

The picture of their first date. 

Right next to it was a picture of us during Prom last year. Look he was so happy. I miss him. I took the picture of our first date and hugged it close to my body. I cried even more that night still praying Kurt was with me and this was just a horrible nightmare. I must have passed out with it because I woke up with a bandaid and me tucked into his bed. 

I've seen you crying

You felt like it's hopeless

 I'll always do my best 

To make you see. 

The first day back was horrible. Everyone asked about Kurt. "How is Kurt? Is Kurt alive?" More and more questions, comments and prayer requests. I was so sickened I could not answer any of them. I could not even pay attention in class, much less glee club because all I could be thinking about was Kurt. I kept looking at my phone so much Mr. Shue could not help but notice. "Blaine." He just said to me. 

I looked up." I am sorry I am just waiting for a call for Kurt to wake up..." I explained to everyone and him. Mr. Shue knew how hurt I was. Hell even Finn did not come to school. " I  wanted to say  I am sorry Blaine. We are all here for you. We heard about Kurt." He told me." That is why this week is dedicated to you and Kurt." Mr.Shue wrote on the board 'Kurt and Blaine.' I cried more like I still had more tears left. "Mr. Shue you don't have to do this." I told him but he protested against what I told him. "Please Blaine you both are our choir family. This is to show you, and Kurt when he shows up; that you both are not alone." He explained to me leaning against the piano. 

"You both are not alone." 

I smiled. 

"Mr. Shue thank you so much." I said to him as I got up from my seat. "Thank you everyone." I told everyone. "How is he, Blaine?" Roy asked me. He sounded very upset. I sighed and looked down at my feet. "He is..." right before I was going to say anything Finn ran into the choir room. 

" Awake! Kurt is awake!" He screamed in joy and tears. Everyone gasped and held their seats. "My mom called and told me the news! I figured I tell you in person!" He told me. I was shaking and not just of sadness but in joy. I looked at Mr. Shue and he gave me the look of 'go and see him.' I thanked him and ran with Finn to go to Kurt. 

I needed to see him. 

Finn drove me to the ER. Once the car stopped I ran in the building like I was in a zombie movie. I ran down the halls right until I reached it. 

His room.

He was sitting up in his bed and he looked alive. 

"Kurt?" I said softly to him. He looked at me in tears. I ran to his aid once again. "Kurt baby." I said to him and held his checks in my hands. I whipped the water on his checks off with my thumbs and kissed his forehead. 

"I love you, Blaine Anderson. I am so...." He told me in sobs before I cut him off and kissed him swiftly. " You don't have to say your sorry. Just you being alive is an acceptance for me." I told him while looking into his eyes. He moved over so I can lay next to him. 

Once I was sat next to him he laid on my chest. I wrapped my arms around him carefully not to unhook anything. I kissed the top of his head. "I feel so helpless Blaine. Waking up after trying to attempt is worse than dying." He said to me holding me like there is no tomorrow. I tried to not to slap him but yet to ask him why he thought that. 

"Because Blaine that feeling when you wake up and not see that you have passed makes you feel like you can't do anything. You are truly a failure, if you can't even kill yourself. Then everyone giving you fake pitty and unwanted attention. I hate it Blaine. Everyone is different around you like they are wearing a mask. They think of you as a glass figure and they are too scared to break up." He upsettingly said to me. I was truly speechless I couldn't breath or even said a word. I kissed his head and held him even tighter. 

My heart dropped. 

Baby, you're not alone

'Cause you're here with me

And nothing's ever gonna bring us down 

'Cause nothing can keep me from lovin' you

And you know it's true

It don't matter what'll come to be

Our love is all we need to make it through...

"Baby you are not alone." I told him as I rubbed his arm softly. He looked up and noticed the cut that was on my check. He took his hand and held my wound."What happened?" He asked me softly. " I was running a few days ago and I tried on the sidewalk when I closed my eyes." I sighed. He looked at me worried. We said nothing to each other and stared into each others eyes. His eyes looked more alive than I have ever saw.

Ocean eyes. 

 I was the one who first spoke." I have to tell you. You gave me a scare for these past few days wished I was in your place." Kurt's grip got tighter. 

"Kurt once I saw you in that bathroom I begged and hoped this was all a horrible nightmare. That I could just wake up in our bed you are just in my arms, safe and sound. In our big house with our baby next to our bed sound asleep. I hopped that you would survived this. I could not picture a world; mostly a future without you. You are the love of my life Kurt Elizabeth Hummel. I did not want you gone." I started to choke up again. 

"Kurt a few days ago, we did almost lose you. The doctors gave up and almost let you die but I got up and saved you. I wanted to try everything before my nightmare became a reality. 

I don't want to see you gone." I told Kurt looking into his eyes.

Silence filled the room.  

"Blaine I did not know you felt this way." Kurt was so speechless. He went deeper into and  just held on to me and started to cry even harder. I hated seeing him like this. I just held him.

"All my thoughts in my head turning against me right before I called you, right before I took those damn pills." He explained to me. "I wished I could've waited a little longer. I would have just been with you. Instead in this fucking bed with tubes enough to just choke my happiness away."He slightly tugged on the tube in his arm and sighed.

" The doctors told me I had to go to critical therapy starting tomorrow and Blaine I am so horrified. I just want to go home be in bed with you." He said to me.

"I just feel so alone." 

"You are not alone. I will go to your therapy with you and if they force me to stay out I will wait for you. I am not leaving you alone. I promise you that you are safe. That I will try and make everything better ."

I intertwined our fingers together. 

"Our love will never be broken. I will not walk out on you." I told him and kissing his hand to tell him I was going to stay with him. 

Forever.

 "As long as you promise me not to attempt again like this. Baby I know it will be hard but trust me I will be right next to you the whole time." I added to him kissing his hand. 

Now I know it ain't easy

But it ain't hard trying

Everytime I see you smiling

And I feel you so close to me...

Spring break was emotional for Kurt. Therapy visits, medication, and having everything locked up. He felt like a locked animal. He kept telling me how he just felt like he was in a padded cell already. All I could do is just hold him. Show him I loved him. 

Every therapy visit I just waited outside for him, making sure he took his meds and eating well, cuddling him when he wanted attention, and giving him love he needed when he does. 

One night we left to go up the top of the hill and just talked and cuddled until the sun rose up. I looked up and saw an angel. 

As the sun ran up I saw Kurt. He was glowing and his beauty made me love him even more. I sighed and smiled. 

"What?" He asked me. 

"It's just you." I told him. "You look like an angel in the sun rise." I kissed him.

And you tell me:

Baby, you're not alone

'Cause you're here with me

And nothing's ever gonna bring us down'

Kurt almost had a slip up at the end of the week but this time I was able to be there faster. " I am so sorry Blaine." He just told me over and over dropping the knife in his hands. I just held his sobbing body. 

"I love you." Is all I told him. 

I picked up a ring. I knew from that morning on the hill top. 

He was the one and only one for me. 

Cause nothing can keep me from lovin' you

And you know it's true

It don't matter what'll come to be

Our love is all we need to make it through.

On the last day before going back to school I made a picnic for both of us. I was going to propose to him. I asked his dad before all he said was. "You both are young but I can just see. You both are meant to be." I made the hill the most perfect place just for him. 

Lights everywhere and candles on the top leading up to the blanket with a blanket and a bottle of sparkling cider. I took him up that night on the hill we laughed and smiled and joked. I kissed him and in the middle of the sunset I did it. 

"Kurt remember the first day we met?" I asked him. "Yes I will never forget the first time we met, why?" He said confused. I smiled and took out the ring. "Kurt everyday when I look at you it's like I fell in love with you over again and even more." I got on one of my knees and opened the box. "Kurt Elizabeth Hummel. You are the strongest man I know. The most beautiful and most caring. I love you until the end of time." I told him. He joked." Just like the song." 

"Kurt Hummel, my one and only truly love. Will you marry me?" I popped the question. I had a lump in my throat, I did not know what he was going to day. 

"Yes. Yes for a thousand years Yes!" He said jumping up and down. I smiled and kissed him deeper then I ever thought I would. 

"I love you future Mr. Anderson-Hummel." I told him looking into his eyes. The stars were out above us now but I swore he was the only one that shined brighter. 

"Like I have told you before.."I said wrapping my arms around him smiling.

"You are not alone."I told him before kissing him. 

A/N: YAY YOU MADE IT THROUGH THIS LONG ASS ONE SHOT. NOW SHOULD I DO A PART 3? IF I DO SHOULD I DO COME WHAT MAY OR A THOUSAND YEARS? THANK YOU FOR READING!! I HOPED YOU ENJOY! I AM PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE THAT I AM MAKING THE FRENCH SWEETHEART INTO A BOOK. IF I DO WHO WOULD READ IT? 

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