A/N - Smut warning

Jessi

I woke up in an awesome mood. I hadn't slept much though, I was too excited to see Harry. I couldn't believe I'd considered not going. I'd triple checked my suitcase, I was sure I'd packed too much but I wasn't sure what we'd be doing. I'd picked out burgundy skinny jeans, black glittery converse, a black t-shirt and my favourite grey hoodie to travel in. I sent Zayn a message to say I'd be landing at 12.20. I was surprised when he sent a reply, I thought he'd be asleep.

"Awesome. I think Matt is coming to get you. Harry is going to freak! We should have lunch at some point while you're here." I felt a bit weird that Matt was coming to get me, I was sure he didn't like me very much.

"Lunch would be awesome. I hope Harry likes it, he still seemed a bit mad at me when he called last night."

"Cool. I'll sort something then. Trust me he'll be ecstatic. He just misses you."

"You should get some sleep. See you guys soon." I jumped up and made myself some cereal for breakfast. I wolfed it down as if it was the first thing I'd had to eat in days. My taxi would be here in ten minutes so I re-checked everything and sat down to write my morning text to Harry.

"Morning Harry, I miss you. Your t-shirt is losing it's Harry smell. I can't wait to see you on Sunday. I'm heading to the library to work on my assignment today so my phone will be off, I'll speak to you about lunch time-ish. J x" I was nervous. I had butterflies in my stomach as I walked over to the window and waited for the taxi to pull up.

It arrived about five minutes later. I grabbed my stuff, locked the door and my heart started to race. I was really doing this.

I walked through the airport, my backpack on my back and my leather holdall in my hand. My flight had been good, on time and quiet. I couldn't see Matt anywhere. I pulled out my phone and had a message from Harry saying he missed me but that was it. I was about to call Zayn when a shadow fell over my phone screen. I looked up to find Matt standing in front of me, his arms folded across his chest, I'd forgotten how huge he was.

"Hey!" He smiled. He wasn't wearing his uniform, he reminded me of that bonehead cartoon character, Johnny Bravo.

"So where do you want to go?" He asked as he took my holdall from me.

"Wherever Harry is" I smiled. I couldn't wait to see him, adrenaline was coursing through my body.

"Okay, if you're sure" He laughed. It seemed like an odd thing to say but he seemed to think it was funny. "They should've just started rehearsals" He continued as I followed him to the car. He handed me a backstage pass then he put my holdall in the boot as I climbed inside. The drive to the stadium felt like the longest 20 minutes of my life. Matt kept glancing at me in the mirror, it made me a little uncomfortable but I guess he was just doing his job and making sure I was okay.

I'd unbuckled my seat belt before the car had even stopped. I ran inside. Forgetting all about my bags. The security guard at the door raised his eyebrows at me as I flew past him. I could hear Matt yelling my name behind me but I wasn't listening. I could hear music, Through the Dark. I followed where I thought the sound was coming from, running as quickly as I could. Matt was still yelling after me, I ran up some stairs and came out at the top of the first section of seats at the back of the stadium. I could see all the floor seats in front of me, this place was huge. My eyes stopped on the stage, the five of them had stopped and were watching me too.

"JESSI!" Matt bellowed behind me. "I told you this was the wrong way." But I wasn't listening, he'd caught Harry's attention and he was now walking towards me, I started walking down the steps towards the stage. He felt so far away. My heart was beating hard and I was out of breath but I started running and I grinned as I noticed Harry was running too. I was now close enough to tell he was smiling. I climbed the barrier and I saw him vault down from the stage, as if he was in slow motion, it was hypnotizing. He was hypnotizing. I was now completely breathless but I kept running, I could almost touch him.

He wrapped his arms around me and spun me around in a circle, then he squeezed me even tighter. I held him as tight as I could, my heart was beating so fast he must have been able to hear it. I relaxed in his arms and this was the closest I'd felt to being home in a long time.

"I missed you so much" He whispered and then gently kissed my lips. It was just like that time in the elevator, the kiss that was so gentle yet so hungry at the same time. I needed him.

"Suddenly I gasped as I felt something icy cold and wet on my cheek, then I felt it again, I was being soaked. I pulled back from Harry to find him soaked too. Niall, Liam, Louis and Zayn were laughing hysterically, giant water guns in their hands. I took my chance while they were busy laughing and stole Niall and Zayn's guns.

"Don't start a fight you can't finish" I smiled and threw a gun to Harry. He grinned at me as we chased them down the runway part of the stage. His t-shirt clung to his body, distracting me until Liam shot me in the head. Who knew playing with water guns could be so hot?

Fifteen minutes later and everyone's gun was empty. Liam and Niall were lying in a puddle on the stage after falling over for about the tenth time. Louis was laughing, Zayn still managed to look catwalk ready and then there was Harry. His white t-shirt was completely see through, I could see his tattoos and his hair was dripping wet, strands of it were stuck to his face. I watched as a drop of water dripped off the end of his nose and down to his perfect pink lips. He grinned as he caught me watching him. Suddenly, his eyes widened as he yelled, "Baby, look out!" But he was too late, Louis knocked me over. He pointed the gun at me as I lay on the ground.

"What were you saying about starting fights you can't finish?" He laughed. Without thinking I swiped his legs out from under him and he fell over. Everyone laughed, even Louis but my eyes were glued on Harry as he stole the gun from Louis. He danced around shooting jets of water into the air until it was empty like the others. I felt my cheeks flush and my mouth watered as he suddenly stood over me, his t-shirt dripping on me.

"Come with me" He growled, pulling me up from the floor. He held my hand as he pulled me across the stage, behind some metal pillars.

"Where are we going?" I asked as we ended up in an area with sofas, a TV and a foosball table. He pulled me through a door off to the left.

"My dressing room" He smiled, planting his lips on mine. "You look so sexy." He mumbled into my lips.

"You too." I replied, sliding my hands under his t-shirt, peeling it away from his skin. He pulled away from me so he could take off my hoodie, I heard it land somewhere behind him. I shivered as his cold hands slid under my t-shirt.

"Sorry" He apologised but his hands kept roaming my upper body. I was stood on my tip toes so I could kiss along his neck, my need for him was completely taking over me. I hurried to peel off his t-shirt, which wasn't very easy but I smirked triumphantly once it fell to the floor with a thud. I let out a little giggle as he quickly pulled off my t-shirt and then lifted me up and placed me on the sofa. My heart was racing as he ran his hands through his hair, pulling it back from his face, his green eyes were intense as they scanned my body. I licked my lips as a bead of water ran down his inked torso.

"Harry" I whined impatiently as he just stood watching me. I needed him to touch me. A naughty grin appeared on his face. He undid my jeans and it felt like little sparks went charging through my body from wherever his hands touched me. He'd got rid of all my clothes so I was left in just my underwear. He paused again, his eyes scanning my body. "Harry, please. You're driving me crazy." I pulled on the waistband of his jeans.

"I can't help it, your body is hypnotising" He bit his lip and I smiled as he pulled off the rest of his clothes and crawled up my body, he came to a stop when he was straddling my hips.

"I love the sexy curve of your jaw!" He smiled, running his finger along my jaw bone before placing a wet kiss there, just below my ear, making me moan.

"I love this little freckle here..." He moved his kisses to the freckle on my collarbone, "...and this right here gets me so hard..." His finger traced the scar on the other side of my collarbone and I moaned as his dick pressed against me. "I know it shouldn't but it perfectly curves around your collarbone and makes the prettiest, bad ass scar I've ever seen" I ached for him as he placed kisses over it. I squirmed with pleasure as he ran his fingers further down my body, over my bra, ever so slightly teasing my nipples. "Then we come to this" He grinned as his finger ran over the almost imperceptible indent between my breasts, just under the hem of my bra. "I don't even know what it is but it's always there, driving me crazy" He was right it was always there, I didn't like it. He shuffled his hips further down my body so he could bend down and place wet kisses over it too. He kept placing kisses down my stomach, stopping at the hem of my pants.

"Harry, you're killing me!" I groaned and I heard him laugh. I tried to wriggle further up the sofa to get his mouth where I wanted it but he was having none of it, enjoying his teasing exploration of my body.

"I love the curve of this..." he kissed my right hip, "...and this." And my left hip. He ran his hands down to my thighs before slowly moving them over to the inside of my thighs. I was throbbing, I wanted him so badly, my breathing was ragged. He had a wicked grin on his face, he was enjoying this way too much. "And I love your thighs, I love how soft they are which hides how strong they are. I love when they're wrapped around me, squeezing me tight." His voice was like gravel. He ducked down and placed kisses along the inside of my thighs, centimeters from my pants, I moaned loudly. I was now so turned on I felt like the touch of a feather could set me off.

"Harry" I moaned again, not expecting him to pay any attention so I gasped loudly as I felt his mouth through my pants. 

"Fuck! I need to taste you properly" He growled once he'd removed his mouth from me. I shivered in anticipation as he pulled down my pants. I heard a tearing noise and saw Harry throw my pants over his shoulder. I quickly forgot all about my torn panties as his finger brushed my clit, before long his finger was replaced by his mouth. I held onto his hair as he was sucking and flicking my clit with his tongue. My head rolled back as I closed my eyes. "Oh Harry!" I gasped as he pushed his tongue inside me. He twirled it around every inch of me and I almost lost my shit. I almost cried when his mouth suddenly disappeared and I opened my eyes to find his green eyes staring back at me.

"You taste so good" He grinned, crashing his lips to mine. I felt all the air escape my lungs as he pushed himself inside me. Fuck! He felt good. Moans and our bodies moving together were the only sounds in the room. I wrapped my legs around him, greedily pulling him deeper as he thrust into me. It didn't take long before the pressure was becoming too much. I was trying to hold on for him.

"Oh baby" he moaned, pulling his lips from mine. His thrusts were becoming faster and my hips were automatically bucking up to meet each thrust as if answering to some primal call.

"I can't hold on much longer, Harry" I said, breathlessly.

"Let go, Jessi" he whispered and I lost all control as he said my name.

"OH MY GOD!" I yelled out as waves of pleasure began surging through my body, causing my body to jerk.

"Fuck me!" Harry mumbled against my neck as I felt him cum inside me. His weight pressed down on me momentarily before he shifted us around so he was now lying flat on the sofa. I made myself comfortable and lay my head down on his chest, my arm drapped around his waist. I smiled as he wrapped his arm around me, resting his hand on my hip, his other hand was stroking my shoulder. I was suddenly aware that I was cold and as if he could read my mind I felt Harry pull a massive furry throw from the back of the sofa over the top of us.

"I'm so happy you're here" His kissed my head.

"I think it might be the best decision I ever made" I smiled.

"Settle down with me

Cover me up, cuddle me in

Lie down with me

And hold me in your arms."

Harry sang. I recognised the song straight away. "I love this song. Keep singing." I said, holding him closer, his voice soothing me off to sleep, my lack of sleep from last night had finally caught up with me.

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Harry

Earlier that day

I woke up in a terrible mood. I'd barely slept. I kept dreaming that Jessi was falling and I couldn't catch her. I threw the bed covers off and got dressed to go for a run. I picked up my phone and noticed I had a text from Jessi.

"Morning Harry, I miss you. Your t-shirt is losing it's Harry smell. I can't wait to see you on Sunday. I'm heading to the library to work on my assignment today so my phone will be off, I'll speak to you about lunch time-ish. J x" I checked my watch. She'd be at the library by now so I just wrote, "I miss you too. H x". I'd speak to her properly later. I still owed her an apology for how snappy I was with her last night, it wasn't fair of me to expect her to drop everything and come running, my Mum made me realise that when I spoke to her about it. I tied my trainers and walked out my hotel room and crashed into Zayn.

"Hey Bro! You can't sleep either?" I asked. I wasn't sure if he was leaving his room or heading back.

"Nah. I miss Pez. She just told me she's not going to make it to your party" He sighed.

"That sucks. Trust me I get it. You wanna come for a run?" I asked. I wasn't sure how Zayn coped with being away from Perrie for so long. They hadn't seen each other for months and here was me acting like the biggest arse ever because I hadn't seen Jessi for three days.

"Nah. I think I'll just go back to my room" He sighed, walking along the hall. I headed to the lift. "Hazza!" He yelled after me.

"Yeah?" I asked, turning round and walking back towards him.

"Nevermind" He said, walking into his room. I decided I should talk to him later, find out what's going on with him.

I felt better after my run. I even managed to smile as the paps took pictures of me running back into the hotel. I had a shower and got changed before heading to meet Niall and Liam for breakfast.

"Morning guys!" I smiled as I spotted them sat at a table by the window.

"You seem happier" Liam smiled.

"Yeah. Sorry for being an arse yesterday guys" I said sitting down.

"It's alright. I think Zayn got it worst. He had to share a dressing room with you, poor guy" Niall laughed.

"Weirdly. I think he was the best person I could have been sharing with. He was good at realising when to just leave me alone. Besides he's missing Perrie so he gets it" I smiled.

"Do you know what's weird, currently none of us are single!" Liam said.

"That is weird." Both me and Niall said.

"Do you know the girls are planning on taking us skating on Sunday?" Niall asked.

"No. Ice or roller skating?" I asked, ordering breakfast.

"I assumed ice, I hope ice. I'm even worse at roller skating" Niall frowned.

"You'll be fine Niall. Lori will hold your hand" I teased. It was pretty sweet that Jess and Lori were planning an awesome day for us.

"Ha ha!" Niall said sarcastically. I heard my phone ring, my smile faded as I realised it was Helen.

"Yeah?" I answered.

"Where are you?" Helen asked.

"Having breakfast with Niall and Liam" I assumed she wanted to tell me about whatever she'd found out about Jessi. I couldn't have been less interested.

"OK. Come see me after breakfast" She hung up. I guess I wasn't getting a choice about this.

"Who was that?" Liam asked.

"Helen" I sighed.

"Your meeting about Jessi?" Niall asked.

"I assume so" I forced a smile.

"It'll be fine. Mine about Lori was over in about ten minutes, nothing career damaging to report apparently" He squeezed my shoulder.

"Same with Soph" Liam added.

"It's just a huge waste of time. I don't care what they find. It's not going to change how I feel about her" I sighed and ate my breakfast as slowly as I could before admitting defeat and heading to Helen's room.

I knocked on the door and waited for an answer.

"Hi, come in and sit down" She smiled. I think I preferred her when she was yelling at me.

"So am I good?" I asked, not moving.

"Just come in, Harry" She sighed. I groaned but did as she asked and threw myself down on a chair. "So she's 20 years old. She lives at 1049 Park Avenue, New York. She owns a motorbike. She's studying photography at the New York Institute of photography, she's currently top of her class. Her Mum killed herself just over a year ago, apparently she never got over the fact that her son was stillborn. No other family to speak of since her stepdad was arrested for trying to slice her throat. She seems to have dual social media profiles, a public one for her photography stuff and one that's private. And that's everything I have"

"Can I go now?" I asked.

"Anything that surprised you?" Helen asked. Her question threw me a little bit.

"Not really. I didn't know why her Mum did what she did or that she had a motorbike but I knew everything else already" I replied. She nodded, she had a weird look on her face, like she was trying to work something out, maybe she just found Jess as puzzling as I did.

"So clearly there's nothing here that could harm your career but it's all pretty tragic and you know the paps won't hesitate to use it to try and get a reaction if they found out. Also if you break up with her, it's going to look bad for you. I mean you'd basically be breaking the heart of an orphan" I knew this nice act was too good to last. I stood up and headed to the door.

"Harry, it's my job to do this. For what it's worth, I like her" Helen sighed as I closed the door behind me. I didn't know where I was going. I just kept walking, I passed the lift and took the stairs all 10 floors. I was heading to the entrance of the hotel, I had to get out of here. I needed Jessi. I bumped into somebody but didn't see who, I mumbled an apology but didn't stop.

"Hazza, you okay?" I recognised Zayn's voice as he grabbed my arm.

"I need to see Jessi" I replied, trying to shake him off.

"I know bro, but we have a show later. You can't go now. Let's go talk, okay?" He stood in front of me, blocking my path. I knew he was right but I didn't move. "Come on, if you still want to go after the show, I promise, I'll help you. Okay?" I nodded and walked with him to the lift. He was right, I couldn't just disappoint all the fans that were waiting.

Zayn opened the door and I followed him inside, his room was a mess, there was art stuff everywhere. I sat down on the sofa.

"So what happened?" Zayn asked, sitting down opposite me.

"I just had my meeting with Helen about Jessi" I started.

"Do they want you to break up with her?" He asked. 

"No" Zayn looked relieved. I guess he really did like having her around. "It's just Helen made me realise that maybe I've been really selfish" I sighed.

"How do you mean?" Zayn looked completely confused and I wasn't surprised, I wasn't making much sense.

"Well some pretty horrible things have happened to her and -"

"Her Mum is dead, isn't she?" He interrupted.

"How do you know that? Did Jessi tell you?" I asked.

"No. But the way she talks about her is as if she's not around anymore and I got the impression that it was something more than they didn't see each other a lot. What happened?" He said.

"Suicide" I said, I shouldn't have told him but I realised I needed somebody to talk to about it. I hadn't even told my Mum.

"No fucking way! Jesus Harry! I thought you were going to say there was an accident, maybe she was sick..." He trailed off.

"I know" I still hadn't gotten my head around it. I mean how bad must things be for you to just give up and leave your only daughter, all alone. I felt tears build in my eyes, I screwed my eyes shut, trying to make them go away. Neither of us spoke, we just sat there in silence.

"I don't know what to say. I mean how is Jess - how do you get over something like that?" Zayn eventually said.

"I don't think you do" I said honestly, I think the best you could hope for is you learn to live with it.

"How does this make you selfish?" Zayn asked, throwing me, I wasn't expecting the change of subject.

"Well off I went jumping in feet first, not bothering to think, and now one day thanks to me she's going to have some pap yell at her about this while they shove a camera in her face with the hope that they get a picture of her yelling or crying" I kicked out at the table.

"Fuck sake Harry! You are way too hard on yourself. You can't predict the future and you can't help who you fall in love with. Besides what would you have done differently?" He smacked me on the arm.

"I don't know" I already knew giving her up wasn't an option. Knowing I'd see her on Sunday was the only thing stopping me going completely insane.

"Well then stop worrying about something that might not even happen and if it does then you'll help her through it. It'll be alright" He smiled.

"Thanks Zayn" I actually felt better, he was right, it might never happen and if it did well we could deal with it together. With her on my team we could get through anything.

"You wanna play Fifa?" Zayn smiled.

"If you're ready to lose" I laughed, picking up the controller. I was glad Zayn was here, out of all the guys he was the easiest to talk to about this kind of stuff.

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Rehearsals were almost finished. I'd be able to phone Jessi afterwards, she should be finished in the library or at least having lunch anyway.

"OK, we have to run through, Through the Dark because some of the cues and markers have changed, so if you get into starting positions for Through the Dark please!"

We all got into our starting positions and we started the run through. It was going well until about halfway through a girl appeared about halfway up the stands at the back of the stadium. Everyone stopped to watch.

"So are fans just wandering in through the door now?" Louis scoffed. She was just standing there watching us, well more accurately she was watching me.

"JESSI!" We all recognised Matt's voice as he appeared behind her, he was doubled over, he looked like he'd been running. I squinted my eyes. She was too far away for me to tell if it was my Jessi so I started walking towards her. I smiled as she started walking towards me too. Before I knew it I was running, we were both running. I started to recognise her, she was smiling. I jumped off the end of the stage, my heart was racing. I stretched out my arms and wrapped them tightly around her as she crashed into me. I spun her around. I was so happy.

"I've missed you so much" I said in between breaths. Her eyes were sparkling, I gently kissed her lips. And then I felt water soaking me. I glared at the four of them as they stood there laughing. I turned to see if Jessi was okay but she wasn't beside me anymore.

"Don't start a fight you can't finish" I heard her say as she threw a gun towards me. I loved watching how competitive she was but it was making me super horny.

I spent at least five minutes just laughing as she shot Liam right in the nuts causing him to fall to the floor and then Niall fell over him. As revenge they both completely soaked me with their gun.

Not long after Jessi's gun was empty too. I dropped mine and walked towards Jessi, I had a different game in mind. I smiled as she watched me. I spotted Louis too late.

"Baby, look out!" I yelled but he knocked her over. He stood over her and then she swiped his legs out from under him. She really didn't want to lose. I grabbed the gun and shot the water into the air, I was more than ready for this game to be over. I walked towards her, I wanted her right now.

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I smiled as I looked down at her, cuddled in beside me. She was completely naked, well almost, in my hurry I hadn't actually gotten round to taking her bra off.

"I'm so happy you're here" I confessed, kissing her head.

"I think it might be the best decision I ever made" I saw her smile.

"Settle down with me

Cover me up, cuddle me in

Lie down with me

And hold me in your arms."

I found myself singing.

"I love this song. Keep singing" She pulled me closer. I did as she asked and her breathing slowed as she fell asleep. I held her tight, tiredness suddenly overwhelmed me too. I felt like the luckiest man alive as I held onto her.