Jessi

I woke up and Harry's arms were no longer wrapped around me. I opened my eyes to find his side of the bed empty. I lept out of bed and rushed into the bathroom, empty. I checked every room in the apartment but nothing. No sign of Harry anywhere. I stood in the middle of the apartment, as Severus eyed me suspiciously, and my heart broke all over again. Of course, Harry wasn't here, he promised he'd be strong enough for the both of us and he hadn't broken a promise he'd made before so why should this one be any different?

I heard a knock at the door and my heart drummed in my chest with excitement. Maybe Harry had come back? Maybe he'd figured out a way for us to be together? I prayed he had as I swung the door open to be greeted with Lori and Niall and my heart sank back into my stomach. It was really over. Fuck! How do I even begin to process that?

"LET ME SEE IT!" Lori's squeal pulled me from my thoughts as she snatched up my hand.

"What are you doing?" I snapped at her and pulled my hand away.

"Huh?" She sighed, glancing from my hand to Niall who just shrugged. I wasn't in the mood for their craziness today.

"Where's Harry?" She commanded, the mention of his name pierced my heart like a cold steel dagger.

"I - uhm - I don't know." The crushing realisation that this is the first time since we'd met that I didn't know the answer to that question had me feeling disorientated, like a bat without radar.

"What do you mean you don't know? What have you done?" She snapped. Why was she mad at me? I didn't understand. My eyes filled with tears.

"Jess, are you okay?" Niall asked as the tears burst their banks, streaming down my cheeks.

"No. Harry and I - we - uhm - we're not - together - anymore." My heart hurt as Lori looked at me like I was the worst person in the world. I felt like the worst person in the world too.

"You broke up with him? You fucking idiot! Come on Niall. Harry will be devastated." I watched on helplessly as Lori's fingers wrapped themselves around Niall's arm and she dragged him along the corridor.

"I'm not exactly doing great myself, Lor!" I yelled after her. I needed her to stay with me, I couldn't lose Lori too, that would be too much. 

"You made the mess! You fucking deal with it!" She yelled. Her words echoed in my ears as the door fell closed and I was all alone, even Severus was avoiding me.

I gasped for air as I felt like the walls were closing in around me. I had to get out of here so I quickly got dressed, packed some clothes and bundled Severus into his pet carrier before heading to the last safe place I had.

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My knuckles rattled against the blue door, my foot tapping on the floor as I impatiently waited for Danny to answer.

"Hi Jess!" Danny smiled as he grabbed my hand and then gave me a weird look. "Are you okay? Where's Rockstar?" I couldn't even get out an answer before my knees gave out, and I fell to the ground in a sobbing mess. "Hey it's okay, Angel. Everything will be okay." He picked me up and carried me inside before he placed me down on the sofa and covered me with a fluffy blue blanket that my Mum had bought him. "I'll be in the kitchen when you're ready to talk. We can fix whatever it is. Trust me." I cuddled the blanket close to me, I wasn't cold, but it helped me feel safe. Comforted.

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Harry

The sound of my phone ringing pulled me from the silence of the hotel room. I had no idea how long I'd been sitting here. I don't even remember getting out of the hotel room bed. Maybe I hadn't been to bed? The last thing I remember is climbing out of mine and Jessi's bed while she slept. She looked more beautiful than I'd ever seen her and if I didn't know better, I'd swear she was doing it on purpose to make leaving her even harder. I glanced at my phone and sighed when I saw Danny's name, had Jess told him yet?

"Hi." I answered nervously.

"Hey Rockstar, I don't know exactly what's happened between you and Jess but I thought you would want to know that she's here. Whatever it is, Son, you can fix it. One thing is clear, she still loves you." He spoke quietly.

"Thanks Danny. I'm glad she's safe. Thanks for letting me know. I wish I could fix it but she seems to have made up her mind." I replied. A great sense of relief washed over me, I knew Danny would take care of her. The fact he wasn't mad surprised me though, considering he had no idea what happened. I thought he'd assume it was my fault.

"Listen Rockstar, will you do me a favour?" Danny started.

"Sure, if I can." I replied.

"Don't give up on her, Harry. One day she will realise she's made a huge mistake and it may not be anytime soon but she will and trust me you'll regret it for the rest of your life if you don't give it another shot." I had a feeling this was about more than just me or Jessi.

"I promise I won't." It was an easy promise to make.

"Good. OK, I'll let you go. Oh, and Rockstar? If you find yourself near the Ace, pop in and have a drink with me?" He said.

"I will, thanks. See you, Danny." I hung up as a fresh set of tears rolled down my cheeks. I think I'd have preferred him yelling at me.

There was a knock at the door as my phone rang again. My Mum this time. This was the call I was dreading. I opened the door and let Niall and Lori in.

"Sit and wait." I snapped. I was still angry with both of them, they'd visited Jess and then left her all alone. I answered the phone and walked into the bedroom, locking the door behind me.

"DID SHE SAY YES? SEND ME A PHOTO OF HER WEARING THE RING!" My Mum was screaming.

"Mum stop, is Robin there?" I didn't want to repeat this plus he'd keep her calm.

"Yeah. You're on speakerphone. Harry are you okay?" She replied. I cracked at her question, tears filling my eyes.

"No Mum. I'm not." A few tears escaped, carving their way down my cheeks.

"What's happened?" She asked.

"Jess and I broke up. The paps and the media got too much for her - I should've noticed - I - She won't let me give up my career for her. I'd give it up in a heartbeat, she's all I want. Mum, I don't know what to do." My voice failed as my emotions overwhelmed me.

"Come home, Sweetheart. Let me take care of you for a little while. And I agree with Jess, giving up your career would be a terrible idea Harry, for both of you. You'd miss it and blame her and just imagine how guilty she'd feel knowing you couldn't do the thing you loved because of her?" My Mum's voice soothed.

"Then how do I get her back?" I cried.

"I don't know, Love. Maybe this is something Jess has to work out on her own?" That wasn't much of a consolation. "Is she okay? Robin will call her later."

"She's with Danny but no I don't think she's okay." Maybe going back to Holmes Chapel for a few days would be good for me.

"Harry?" Robin said.

"Yeah? By the way I think I will come home for a few days, Mum."

"Don't get rid of that ring. One day you will ask her that question and that ring will end up on her finger. Trust me, I have a feeling." Robin replied. I couldn't imagine him being right but I hadn't even thought about getting rid of the ring, the very thought of it made my chest tighten uncomfortably.

"OK. Let me know when you'll get here and we'll pick you up." My Mum said and then we said our goodbyes and I hung up. Now to deal with the two idiots in the other room. I walked out, and they both jumped up.

"I can't believe she left you on your anniversary, what a dumb fucking bitch!" Lori complained.

"HEY! DON'T DO THAT!" I yelled. Surprised at the level of anger that raged around my body at her words.

"Sorry, what a delightful angel." She rolled her eyes at me.

"Lorena, that's enough." I warned. "And besides what about you? Your best friend who you love like a sister is heartbroken, and you just fucked off and left her all alone? Real nice."

"I can't even look at her, Harry. I'm so angry with her. I mean, only Jessi could turn a proposal into a breakup. I worry sometimes that she just doesn't want to be happy." She sighed.

"I didn't propose, we never made it to that part. Actually though, apart from the breaking up, it was a cool anniversary." Even although it hurt like hell to leave her again, I was glad I accidently ended up back at the apartment last night.

"Huh?" They both looked at me blankly. So I sat down and told them what had happened as if I was telling somebody else's story, my brain trying to distance itself from the pain.

"So you guys ended up with identical tattoos even although you didn't plan it that way?" Niall said.

"See, this is why it sucks. You two belong together." Lori started to cry.

"Hey Babe, don't cry. It'll be okay." Niall wrapped his arms around her and the pangs of jealousy I felt hit me like a lightening bolt. 

I didn't have somebody to hold like that anymore. 

I didn't have somebody to hold me like that anymore.

"Our best friends are broken Ni, how can it be okay?" Their conversation was making me feel worse, so I walked to the bedroom and put what little things I'd taken out of my bag back in. Shit! My passport. It was in Jessi's apartment. I'd have to pick it up on the way. I booked myself onto the first flight home and walked out the room.

I stood in Jessi's apartment; I loved it here. This had always been our safe place, our home. I looked around trying to remember every detail of this place. I walked to the bedside table and pulled open the drawer. I smiled at my passport beside hers and then I noticed Bob the bear, I picked him up and he smelled just like her; I pulled off my t-shirt and left it on the bed, grabbing a clean one from the wardrobe. I wrote her a note and left it on the table in the kitchen before grabbing Bob and my passport and heading out the door. I would miss this place.

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Jessi

I woke up with my cheek stuck to Danny's leather sofa. Robin's picture was lighting up my phone. I really didn't expect to hear from him or Anne, I was going to miss them; I spoke to at least one of them every day.

"Hello." I answered.

"Hey Jessi, how are you?" He said, concern in his voice.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I know I hurt him and I'm sorry." I blurted out, fresh tears rolling down my cheeks. I wiped them away angrily, wishing they'd just stop already.

"Jessi, stop! I didn't call to have a go at you. We just want to make sure you're okay?" My breath caught in my throat.

"We?" I asked.

"Yeah, me and Anne. We're worried about you." He spoke softly.

"Anne doesn't hate me?" I spluttered out as my brain struggled to process the information.

"Of course I don't, Jessi. There will always be a place for you here. We love you, you're a part of our family." She had that same comforting rhythm to her voice that Harry had and I wanted to soak in it all day.

"I love you guys. I don't deserve this." Their kindness stunned me. Although it shouldn't, they're the people who raised Harry who is the kindest human being on the planet.

"Don't be so hard on yourself. I know what having your life invaded by the media is like and it sounds like they were coming after you hard. It's not nice and not easy to deal with." Anne spoke softly.

"Oh, Harry is coming home for a few days, just in case you were looking for him." Robin added.

"Thanks. Listen, I have to go." Danny was standing in the doorway and he deserved an explanation for me turning up on his doorstep unannounced.

"OK. I'll call you soon." Robin said, and he hung up.

"Coffee? Something stronger?" Danny smiled.

"Coffee would be great." I followed him to the kitchen. Watching while he poured two coffees, and I sat down at the kitchen table. The last time I'd been here was such a happy moment, I wished I could be transported back there. Back to that family dinner which meant so much to me.

"You ready to tell me what's going on?" He asked. I nodded and told him the whole story from Harry arriving home yesterday, our strange, yet hugely fun evening together and me waking up without him and Lori hating me.

"And you're sure you can't get over this paparazzi thing?" Danny asked.

"I really don't think so. It was getting worse as time went on instead of better. They made me faint. You know I hate crowds surrounding me at the best of times, so imagine that with them all yelling at you, sometimes nasty and sick things. It was suffocating." I sighed.

"Jessi, can I tell you something?" Danny's voice was serious, and it made me nervous.

"Anything." I poured myself another coffee. Maybe something stronger wouldn't have been a bad idea?

"Your Mum and I dated for about a year when we were in high school, back in the UK."

"WHAT?" I choked on my coffee. I always suspected he was in love with my Mum but she was with Frank.

"Your Grandparents didn't like me. I had tattoos and worked in my Dad's bar. Not what they wanted for their little girl." Danny's eyes were sad.

"I wasn't what they wanted for their little girl either." I added, remembering how my Mum had told me they threw her out when they found out she was pregnant, I've never met them, nor would I want to, they could be dead for all I knew.

"Yeah, well, that was their biggest mistake. My first one was letting your Mum break up with me in the first place. Me and my family moved to America not long after that but we kept in touch. She met your Dad a little while after that. I tried to get her to come out here when he abandoned her but obviously you know she didn't do that. But once you'd set your heart on becoming a photographer she decided moving here was best for you. We met up on your first night here."

"I remember. We came to the Ace. I hung out in the back, while you and Mum had a drink, I took loads of photographs." I smiled at the memory, one of his barmen hit on me too but I left that part out.

"As soon as I saw your Mum again, I was that scared little boy. I'd never stopped loving her and yet when she stood in front of me asking me if we could try again I turned her down, I was scared of being hurt again. That was the worst mistake I ever made Jessi. There isn't a day goes by where I don't wish I could go back and undo it." Danny started to cry. I'd only ever seen him cry once before and that was at my Mum's funeral. I hugged him tight. Why didn't I know about this?

"What I'm trying to say Jess, is that one day you'll wake up and realise that this issue your having isn't an issue anymore. That's the thing about love, sometimes it takes some distance or time to show you just how strong it is and that it can overcome anything no matter how huge or unconquerable it might seem. When that day comes Jess, don't let him turn you down, he loves you just as much as you love him, he might just be a little scared." He held me so tight, I felt like I might pop.

"I promise." I replied. Although I couldn't see the media disappearing anytime soon. Maybe I could get paps outlawed. That was definitely a plan I could get behind.

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Harry

I trudged through JFK airport. I'd been in Holmes Chapel for two weeks but the news had finally gotten out that me and Jess were no longer together and it didn't seem right that she was out in the firing line while I was back home protected from it all so I'd came back early to take on my fair share. The lift door opened and from here I could see the crowd of paps waiting by the door, I could see Mark and two other security guards, they were fighting a losing battle but I was ready for them. I had something to say and by God they would listen. I took my sunglasses off; I wanted them to see my tired, dead eyes. I wanted them to see what they had done to me. I marched towards them, the words I wanted to say etched into my brain. I handed my bag to Mark and quickly jumped up onto a concrete bench, at least that's what I think it was. They all yelled my name and jockeyed for position.

"How are you feeling, Harry?"

"Is it true you cheated?"

"Did your womanizing get too much for her?"

"Is it true that she's pregnant?"

"Did you make her have an abortion?"

I seriously didn't know where they got all this shit from.

"Did you even care about her in the first place?"

"I FEEL LIKE SHIT IF YOU MUST KNOW!" I yelled and they all suddenly went quiet. I looked down at them all pathetically waiting for what I'd say next, I despised every one of them. "Thanks to all of you I lost the best thing that ever happened to me. So take a good look because I promise you I will spend the rest of my life making sure I make it as near to impossible as I can for you to get a picture of me. So have a good fucking day!" I jumped down from the bench and stormed my way through to the car.

"Jeffrey will not like that." Mark said as he climbed in the car after me.

"You'll be surprised to know I don't really care." I sighed.

"Stunned. How was home?" He asked.

"Fine. I suppose. She wasn't there and nowhere feels like home without her." I sighed. Mark patted me on the shoulder. "Have you seen her?"

"Only pictures in the papers or on TV. They catch her at work. She's managing to hide wherever she is staying." Mark replied.

"Is Matt with her?" I asked.

"Harry she fired Matt the day after you went to England. She said she didn't need him and well he no longer works with us, you need to talk to Helen." Mark's eyes drifted to the floor. 

"Well, is Helen helping her at least? Or have you all fucking abandoned her in this shit storm to fend for herself?" I yelled, punching the chair in front of me.

"Harry, she doesn't want our help." Mark sighed. "But don't accuse me of not caring, I looked after that girl for a year, tried to make sure she was safe even if the two of you didn't make it easy for me. I saw how happy you both were and I see how broken you are now and I can only imagine Jessi is the same but all I see are glimpses of her on the TV because ultimately I didn't make her feel safe. I failed to keep her safe."

"Mark, I'm sorry. I didn't mean that you didn't care, and this isn't your fault." I patted his shoulder. "Where's Helen? Take me to see Helen."

I walked into the room Helen was in. My little outburst at the airport was playing in the background.

"Harry! It's good to have you back." She smiled.

"Really?" I raised my eyebrows, glancing towards the screen.

"Well, honey! This is Jeffrey's problem now. How are you?" She smiled.

"Wonderful. As you can see." I pointed at the screen.

"Listen, I need to talk to you about something. You're not going to like it but you should know." She said, gesturing for me to sit down so I did.

"Who's looking after Jess?" I asked.

"Nobody. She fired Matt and turns out that was probably a shrewd move for her. I offered to send her Mark, but she said she'd be fine on her own and that she'd call if she needed anything." Helen said.

"Yeah, Mark said Matt doesn't work here anymore, what happened?" I asked.

"So you remember how you came to me angry that the paps seemed to always know where you and Jess were?" She asked.

"Yeah. You assured me it had nothing to do with you?" I accused, not liking where this was heading.

"Well, it turns out we did have a leak." Helen looked away from me, guiltily.

"He did it?" I yelled. "WHY?" I always knew he was an ass, but I didn't think he'd deliberately put Jess in danger or scare her. In fact, I was quite sure he had a crush on her.

"Well, when I asked him all he said was he didn't mean for her to break up with you, just to turn down your proposal. Were you going to propose to Jess?" Helen quirked her eyebrow at me.

"Yeah." I replied. Actually, I hadn't ruled it out as a possibility in the future.

"OK." She raised her eyebrows at me, clearly thinking I was insane. Maybe I was, but I wasn't ready to give up on her. 

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I found myself standing outside the Ace. I wasn't sure how I'd got here. Home had been too depressing with all trace of Jessi gone so I'd went for a bike ride and when I stopped I found myself here. Before I could process what I was doing my feet carried me inside.

It hadn't changed one bit, and that made me smile. It even smelled the same, the distinct odour of beer mingled with spirits. There was a band playing on the stage in the corner and the female drummer was awesome. I'd need to find a drummer for my backing band, once I had songs of my own to play. Maybe I'd get her name from -

"HARRY!" Danny's voice boomed over the crowd. My feet were acting on their own accord again as they carried me towards him, his arms wrapping me in a bone-crushing hug. My heart hurt a tiny bit less as I hugged him back. I'd missed this gentle giant.

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Jessi

I sat on the sofa between Zayn and Lori, they were telling a story about Niall almost knocking Liam out when he tried to take the last cupcake. It made me grin and then I heard his name on the news. My eyes snapped up to the TV. Harry Styles has epic meltdown, the headline said. He was outside the airport; he was here, back in New York. I watched as he yelled at the paparazzi; he looked awful, his eyes were red, heavy and exhausted looking. A similar look stared back at me in the mirror's reflection every morning. I picked up my phone and headed to the bathroom.

"Jess? You okay?" Lori asked.

"You need anything?" Zayn added. I know they both meant well, but they were suffocating me.

"No Zayn. I think I can manage going to the toilet by myself." I forced a smile to stop them worrying. I locked the door behind me and put the toilet lid down before sitting down. I scrolled to our conversation on my phone and quickly sent my text before I changed my mind.

"Hi, are you okay? I saw what happened on the news." I didn't expect an answer. I leaned back, wondering how long I could hide in here for.

"I've been better. Are you okay?" The message notification sounded like a foghorn in the silence. I couldn't believe it. He answered.

"I'm existing. Work. School. Being suffocated by Lori and Z."

"Tell me about it. I thought Mum and Robin were going to follow me to the toilet at one point." I laughed at my current predicament.

"Ha. Have currently locked myself in the bathroom."

"No way! Now I'm getting weird looks for laughing."

"I miss you." I sent and then instantly regretted it. My phone went silent and my smile faded.

"I miss you too." The words lit up my screen, brighter than a torch in the darkness.

"Can we be friends?" He sent before I'd had time to process the last message.

"I'd like that." My heart raced. I didn't think I'd get to be his friend. 

"What are you doing in there? Are you okay?" Zayn banged on the door.

"I'm fine." I sighed.

"Got to go. Mom & Dad are about to bust the door in."

"Don't be too hard on them." Harry replied as I got up and flushed the toilet. I carefully tucked my phone in my pocket and washed my hands. I opened the door to find Zayn standing there.

"What's got you smiling?" Zayn asked.

"She's been talking to Harry." Lori yelled.

"What? I have not." My smile involuntary widened as I passed Zayn.

"Oh please, Niall texted me and apparently Harry has a dopey grin on his face all of a sudden too." She smiled at me.

"Are you getting back together?" Zayn cheered, picking me up.

"No, but we are going to try being friends." I smiled, and he gently tipped me over the sofa.

"Friends who love each other? And fancy the pants off each other? And would make the cutest babies together?" Lori teased.

"Just friends." I said, elbowing her in the ribs.

"With bene-"

"Don't you dare finish that sentence Zayn Malik!" I glared at him as both him and Lori descended into giggles.

"You two are the worst." I groaned.

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"Do you mind if I put the guys interview on?" Lori asked as she braided my hair. Zayn had left to get some pizzas.

"I don't mind. Did I tell you Louis and Liam are coming to lunch with me tomorrow?" I plucked out a baby pink nail polish, the colour reminded me of one of Harry's shirts.

"Yeah. About 50 times." Lori laughed.

"Sorry. I'm just excited." I quietened down as the TV show started. It was a farewell show, they'd sing a few songs, and they were being interviewed by various people.

"Aw, Ni looks cute." My head fell onto Lori's shoulder.

"I think you mean fucking hot." She squealed.

"No, he's cute as a button."

"Hot!" She whined.

"What's with Liam's sudden fascination with snapbacks?" I asked.

"Pass. I think he's trying to look gangsta." I chuckled he was about as gangsta as a marshmallow.

"Oooh. I like that hoodie Lou had on in those promo photos." I'd need to remember to ask him where he got it.

"And?" Lori stared at me.

"And what?"

"You've commented on everyone except you know who?" She nudged my ribs.

"Voldemort?" I teased, and she pouted at me. I knew she wouldn't drop it until I'd given her an answer. "OK. Harry looks hot, like really hot, like really really hot."

"And you think you guys can be friends?" Lori rolled her eyes at me.

"I hope so because not having him in my life at all isn't working so well for me." I sighed.

"Please. You'll be back together in no time." She grinned. I just left it. I didn't want to have this argument with her again. I smiled as Niall blushed when he was asked about them buying a house in LA together. I looked at Lori and she was blushing too, I hugged her tight, they were so cute together.

The guys started talking about planning a housewarming party with Niall warning that Lori might not let them in after the fire fiasco. Liam, Louis and Harry had decided to try out Liam's new flint and steel gadget and set fire to Lori's favourite cushions. I laughed at the memory. Then my heart stopped as I heard the next question.

"Are you missing Jessica, Harry? It must be hard since she's friends with Lorena?" I guessed from Harry's face this was not something they were supposed to ask.

"We all miss Jessi." Louis said. "Liam has lost his gym buddy, Niall has nobody to sneak him sweets when Lori isn't looking, I've had to go back to pranking Liam and well, nobody thinks Harry's jokes are funny anymore." The audience laughed. And I chuckled a little too.

"We miss Jessi too." Somebody yelled from the audience and all four of them turned to look in that direction.

"She posted the best Harry photos." A girl's voice answered their look.

"It's you who brings Ni those sweets?" Lori mock yelled.

"He makes this adorable face when I bring them, it's too cute to resist." I laughed.

"Who's hungry?" Zayn yelled, walking in with pizza. The smell pulled my attention from the TV completely.

"Me." I yelled and pulled out my phone as my stomach rumbled.

"I should get going. I promised Niall I'd make him dinner." Lori stood up and pulled on her jacket "Love you" She yelled as she rushed out the door.

"Love you too." I yelled after her. I found a photo of Harry I hadn't posted before. He was shirtless and had his back to the camera, his hair was especially curly. I posted it to Instagram with the caption - Curls for days, especially for my Directioners. x.

"What are you grinning at?" Zayn asked.

"Just doing a good deed." I smiled, opening up the pizza box.

"It's nice to see you smiling again." Zayn grinned, taking a slice.

"Our researchers just informed us Jessica just posted this." The interviewer said and there was my Instagram post on the screen.

"And that's why they love her." Liam smiled, pointing to the audience who let out an "oooh."

"That's quite a steamy photo." Zayn chuckled.

"No, it's not. His curls look pretty. Stop smutifying my picture." I elbowed him in the ribs.

"Pretty sure you just made that word up and say what you like, as far as the fans are concerned you just posted a naked photo of Harry. Look you made him blush." Zayn laughed.

"Care to explain what was happening in this photo, Harry?" The interviewer asked.

"If I remember correctly, she thought my curls looked pretty." Harry was blushing.

"He's not naked." I huffed and angrily chewed on my pizza.

"Looks it though." Zayn chuckled. My eyes stayed glued to the TV, ignoring him. They were about to perform one of their songs to finish the show. 

"Aw, I love this song." I sighed as I recognised the opening to Once in a Lifetime, leaning my head against Zayn's shoulder. It was so pretty. It felt like my heart stopped as Harry sang his part. He was looking down until he sang it sounds like you, then he looked directly into the camera. I felt a pain in my chest. Zayn wrapped his arm tightly around me.

"Jess..." He said quietly.

"Yeah?" I croaked.

"You know you can make all this pain go away in an instant, just call him, tell him you made a mistake." Zayn said, squeezing me even tighter.

"I can't, Z. I wish I could. I felt like I was drowning and I was going to bring Harry down with me. He'd have ended up hating me and that scares me more than my heart being broken forever." A tear fell down my cheek, and I quickly brushed it away.

"But what if you've broken his heart forever?" Zayn asked.

"He's surrounded by hundreds of girls better than me Zayn. One day he'll realise that and give his heart to somebody who deserves it and that will be okay because he'll be happy. And I'll still have the memory of the amazing year where Harry put my heart back together." I swallowed back my tears.

"I think you massively underestimate how much you mean to him Jess. You're condemning both of you to being miserable." He said.

"Yeah. I'm a bitch who doesn't care." I snapped. "I'm going to bed." I stood up and marched into my room and slammed the door behind me. I crawled into bed and let all the tears flow out. I hated myself for hurting him but I knew Harry could live without me even if he didn't realise it yet.

"Jessi..." Zayn knocked gently on the door. I couldn't answer without him knowing I was crying.

"Love Cup? Are you okay? I'm sorry." He whispered. I still didn't answer. "Fine. Fuck You! Be miserable on your own!" He yelled and everything went quiet again. I lay there staring at the ceiling until my tears dried up but I couldn't sleep. 

I pulled out my phone and opened Instagram, my photo of Harry already had 300,000 likes. Zayn was right, he did look naked, but he wasn't. I smiled as I remembered that day. We were hanging out in my apartment; I was supposed to be working on a project for school but he was distracting me so I took pictures of him instead. I loved that he never got annoyed with me taking pictures of him; it drove almost everyone else crazy. 

Before I could stop myself I was scrolling through the comments, most of them were nice, a few were not so nice. My finger paused, and a gasp left my lips as a message popped up on my screen. 

It was Harry.